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“I disregard the proportions, the measures, the tempo of the ordinary world. I refuse to live in the ordinary world as ordinary women. To enter ordinary relationships. I want ecstasy. I am a neurotic -- in the sense that I live in my world. I will not adjust myself to the world. I am adjusted to myself.†~Anais Nin
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I am a mother, lover, partner, daughter, & friend....
I'm a dancer, healer, performer, writer, & dreamer!
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Jen, In the 3rd Person...
She's been in the face of death;
at the tip of birth.
She's been known to dwell in the shadows,
and she's cast the shadow.
She's stomped her feet on this side of the Atlantic
as well as the other.
She's rubbed elbows with the not-so-rich & semi-famous;
She even shared a kiss or two.
She's known love, life, & peace.
She's known anger, death, & chaos.
She's known addiction & wild nights.
She's known sobriety & innocent times.
She's been adored on stage,
and adored others there, too.
She's experienced free love....
....and committed love.
She's seen beauty
and ugliness.
She's walked with Jesus-
Now the God/s/ess/es-
and come to a crossroads.
All these things led her to
a life of wonderful things.
A life in which she has
given birth to a precious cherub...
And shares her heart & home
with a beautiful star!
SHE'S THE LUCKIEST, MOST BLESSED GIRL IN THE UNIVERSE!!!
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Jennifer with your orange hair
Jennifer with your green eyes
Jennifer in your dress of deepest purple
Jennifer - Where are you tonight?
Jennifer - Where are you tonight?
(Underneath the water / Underneath the water)
~Eurythmics
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My Astrology Chart:
Rising Sign is in 13 Degrees Virgo You tend to be very shy and not very self-assertive. You are supercritical about how you appear to others. Even though you may think you are uninteresting and dull, you are actually quite soft- spoken, orderly, neat and very likable. You are a perfectionist with high standards, and at times you can be quite tactless in pointing out the faults of others. Very practical, efficient and purposeful, your appearance and bearing reflect your need to appear graceful, sensible and reserved. You have a crisp, no-nonsense approach to dealing with others. Never lazy or self-indulgent, you tend to be dedicated to the work ethic.
Sun is in 27 Degrees Pisces. Extremely sensitive and emotional, you absorb the emotions of others (whether positive or negative) like a sponge. Emotionally vulnerable, you are easily upset and tend to cry readily. You are at your best when you can structure your environment in such a way that you are surrounded by positive, upbeat people. You are very helpful and understanding of the needs of others. Indeed, at times this can be a disadvantage, because you can be a sucker for anyone who needs help. Shy, dreamy, romantic in nature, you delight in retreating into your private fantasy world. Just be careful that you do not get lost in it! Trust your intuitions -- you may be quite psychic.
Moon is in 26 Degrees Leo. You always want to be proud of yourself and will never do anything that will make yourself look bad. You need the respect and admiration of others and enjoy attracting attention to yourself. Everything you do tends to be self-emphasized and self-exaggerated. Very stubborn, willful and independent yourself, be sure to allow others who are close to you the similar right to "be themselves." Your need for love, affection and reassurance, and your tendency toward vanity, allow you to have your head easily turned by flattery. The more insecure you are, the more you tend to be a showoff. You love games and sports as a matter of fact, you would usually rather play than work. Be careful of a tendency to be snobbish and uppity -- it does not become you.
Mercury is in 29 Degrees Aquarius. You tend to be very opinionated -- you have strongly felt notions about things and are quite vocal about expressing and defending them. Yet you are also an original thinker -- you enjoy shocking others with your offbeat, original thoughts. You appreciate and need mental and intellectual stimulation. Your judgment is usually fair and impartial -- you can be a good critic because you can remain objective and unemotional about most things.
Venus is in 22 Degrees Pisces. You have a dreamy, fanciful, romantic nature and a very creative imagination. Indeed, at times, your private fantasies are more appealing than the reality around you and it is difficult for you to leave them. You tend to be unselfish and giving in relationships and are extremely sensitive of the needs of others. Be very sure that those you help are worthy of your devotion and are not merely taking advantage of your innocence and naivete.
Mars is in 00 Degrees Aries. You are very independent and self-assertive, and you have lots of physical energy. You are not satisfied unless you can be the first to do something. As such, you are more comfortable in leadership positions than you are as an underling. When you are challenged by anyone for anything, you delight in the competitive process and will fight long and hard for your beliefs. You are bold and courageous and often act without thinking. At times, in your zeal to get ahead, you are tactless and offensive -- learn that cooperation with others can often bring you nearer to your goals quicker because of the support you will get.
Jupiter is in 06 Degrees Libra. You are generally good at balancing opinions and judging issues, but you tend to be indecisive when it comes to making up your own mind. You are objective and quite concerned with fair play and justice. But, when it comes to yourself, you are so aware that whatever you do might upset the apple cart that you often choose to compromise rather than do anything that might make you lonely or vulnerable. Relationships are very important to you -- you learn about yourself and grow through observing yourself interacting with others. Your aesthetic tastes are refined, but expansive and expensive.
Saturn is in 07 Degrees Libra. Although you take quite a while to make decisions, you usually consider all sides to a question, all the pros and cons, and the solution you come up with is very often the correct one. You tend to be very reserved and shy, but, once you make a commitment to someone (in either a business or personal relationship), the partnership is forever. You have a strong sense of justice and fair play and greatly respect the laws and institutions by which you are governed. As such, you are outraged when others break laws or show contempt for authority.
Uranus is in 00 Degrees Sagittarius. You, and most of your peers, have the tendency to think that all ideas, customs and traditions from the past are outmoded and irrelevant. You are attracted to radically new ideas, philosophies and religions that will, hopefully, cause sweeping changes throughout the world.
Neptune is in 24 Degrees Sagittarius. You, and your entire generation, are heavily involved in investigating and idealizing foreign and exotic intellectual systems and religious philosophies. The most extreme ideals will be pursued with gusto. You will be at the forefront of humanitarian attempts to improve the lot of those who are in need of assistance. You will be comfortable with the concept of the "global village."
Pluto is in 23 Degrees Libra. For your entire generation, this is a time of radical changes in society's attitude toward marriage and interpersonal relationships. There is a general fear and awe at the power inherent in making emotional or contractual commitments -- they will not be entered into lightly.
N. Node is in 10 Degrees Leo. You prefer to take the leadership role when it comes to dealing with others. You enjoy administering and organizing group activities. Others tend to listen to your suggestions because you aren't usually overly domineering or patronizing in your interactions. You love to entertain in a big way -- you're at your best when throwing a large and lavish party. Your popularity and social success are assured as long as you don't take others for granted -- resist the temptation to become snobbish and arrogant.
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These two boys are the loves of my life!
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I love him::Forever...Forever & Ever!
O you whom I often and silently come where you are that I may be with you, As I walk by your side or sit near, or remain in the same room with you, Little you know the subtle electric fire that for your sake is playing with me.~Walt Whitman
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The best thing that ever happened to me....
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...I cut the scars to mask the scars you left behind...
Razed In Black
Myspace Layouts - Myspace Editor - Image Hosting
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LINKS TO SOME OF MY FAVOURITE PLACES IN CYBER SPACE:
Fruitful Vine Birth Center & Midwifery Services
TheBusinessOfBeingBorn
Online Dictionary/Thesaurus/Encyclopedia
MachineDancePhotographyOnMySpace
MachineDance.Com
WakenTheDeadPhotographyOnMySpace
WakenTheDeadPortfolio
Dita Worshippers On MySpace
Dita.Net
Fans of Nicole Kidman
DavidLynch.com
Endometriosis.Org
Adenomyosis Info
PCOS Support
The Secret
What the Bleep Do We Know?
Al Gore's Conservation Campaign
Daryl Hannah's Green Website
Earth 911
E-Waste Website
EarthShare
GreenPeace
PETA
ASPCA
Humane Society
Pet Rescue Jacksonville, Florida
No-Kill Animal Shelters
Unitarian Universalist Church of Jacksonville
Jax CUUPS
BeliefNet...Paganism
ReligiousTolerance.Org/Paganism
Reiki Info
The Legendary Pink Dots
Skinny Puppy
Bjork.Com
PJHarvey.Net
ToriAmos.Com
TORIPHORIA
RapeAbuseIncestNationalNetwork
RAZEDINBLACK.NET
Movement Magazine
Factory at Eclipse...Jacksonville's Dark Alternative Night
(www.factoryjax.com)
Seduction...Jacksonville's Fetish and Burlesque Theatre
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