"Vision without action is merely a dream. Action without vision
just passes the time. Vision WITH action can change the world."
I'm not a perfect person and while we're all flawed in our own ways, I do my best to take every challenge or mistake in my life as an opportunity to make ammends in the best way I know how. My goal is to take from these experiences a lesson in how to BE the best person that I can through authenticity, empowerment, and love. I haven't always been the best listener and have had terrible habits of interrupting people. People have been known to have experiences of me where they felt that I wasn't listening, honoring, and/or respecting what they've shared with me and how they've felt. This is something that has especially applied to my loved ones. I also take every chance that I can get to notice what I've done, apologize for it, and to re-assert myself as the amazing listener that I CAN be. I am an amazing listener and am reprogramming the habits that stop me from consistently being an amazing listener.
I'm very intelligent, well-spoken, and articulate. I've used these talents to my advantage in a VERY biting and unpleasant way when upset. I'm difficult to argue with and find that my habitual tactics and methods of debating, arguing, or fighting have left people feeling utterly confused, exasperated, livid, and disempowered. My emotions are something that I still consciously choose to experience and release in an open and healthy way. When I react to my emotions, instead, I've been known to communicate very poorly. This type of communication, however, is not generally due to my choice of words or ability to understand others, but because of the way that I can twist things to my advantage in a way that may or may not be authentic, empowering, and loving. Either way, it can be very ugly to others. While I don't want to do this, nor am I proud of the frequency in which it used to come up, especially with my loved ones, I still consciously choose to reprogram these habits, as well. I am a powerful, loving, and authentic communicator who is still reprogramming the habits that stop me from consistently being a powerful, loving, and authentic communicator.
My anger was my biggest challenge in life, and was most often seen by my loved ones, as well as having been the most foul and hurtful with my loved ones. It is another thing that I struggled with most of my life and it had its roots and its story, but where it came from is not as important as where it's going. I've come a long way in harnessing and refocusing my emotions and energies (especially the unproductive and destructive ones) into postive, productive, empowering things in my life and the lives of the people that I love (PREDICAMENT!). Allowing my emotions to control me in the way that I behave and treat others is still a possibility, as well as the ways that I either express or withold my love for others, however, I am a loving, empowering, and authentic father, son, brother, grandson, cousin, uncle, friend, teacher, student, and more who is still consciously reprogramming the habits that stop me from consistently being loving, empowering, and authentic in every moment of my life.
I wrote that section into my profile a while back as a sort of challenge from a friend of mine. I've just recently updated it (mostly the inauthentic and disempowering habitual wording ) as of April 2008 for a new amazing friend of mine. I've realized during these processes that this has not only been a profound exercise for me, but also an action of integrity and authenticity in my life and the way that I present myself to the world. I am a teacher and a healer and that is my destiny. I intend to teach and heal in ways that will fundamentally change the way that we interact with ourselves, each other, and the Universe. I intend to teach and heal in a VERY powerful format with many different methods and techniques. While I do intend to create this through the delivery of information in many different forms of media and communication, I believe that true teachers and healers are LEADERS and I intend to teach and heal primarily by who I am, what I do, and the decisions I make, not by the information I deliver. I feel that the things that I've now written here in this section not only discuss the areas that I consciously choose to exercise and reprogram, but also discuss a possibility of how I might show up for others and what I most strongly request to be called out on and coached in. If nothing else, it's something that others can identify with on a personal level and say "if he can do it, I can do it, too!"
I am committed to the Unity of Self-Realization
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My Mission is to be a Leader in humanity Living the IMPOSSIBLE
I'm a complex analytical thinker that's a triple cancer. Compassion and empathy come with the territory as well as an innate sense of companionship, family, home, affection, community, love, trust, communication, and spirituality. I'm not real into vanity, materialism, greed, or gluttony, (especially pollution). I can definitely respsect those aspects of other people, but choose not to allow that into my life and space in a personal way. I have a dark side and a light side and I celebrate them both, as balance and duality are natures of the Universe. I've become the type of person who uses the judgements, labelelings, opinions, and meanings of others about my tattoos, piercings, and other oddities as an advantage in sharing with them a little bit about who they are and how they connect or disconnect with the themselves, others, and the Universe. My twisted sense of humor and interest is shocking to some, but it is what it is and I love exploring the outer realms of that part of myself as much as any other part of myself.
Music is a HUGE passion of mine. I've been playing the piano since I was a little over 4, the guitar and drums since I was 12, and I've been spinning electronica since 1999. Although I find an appropriate time for just about any music and can appreciate all of it and enjoy most of it, I'm a junglist at heart. For those of you that find this meaningless, "jungle" or Drum & Bass music is a particular type of electronica that is likely to be my ultimate passion as far as music in this life. It certainly is now and, so far, I haven't found anything that would even potentially transform that experience of mine. I love all kinds of liberal arts including pretty much every type of theatre, and I especially enjoy orchestral concerts/symphonies and Plays/musicals. Cultural diversity was my mother's main goal with me as a child and she did an AMAZING job, THANKS MOM! Singing lessons, acting lessons, dancing lessons, Boy Scouts, Indian Guides, LOTS of traveling and pretty much every damn sport imaginable are some of the most memorable things that kind of top off my super-well rounded experiences of life. I'm sure there are others that I'm overlooking, as well. A potential downfall (at least for others) may be that I'm now a ridiculously critical and openly opinionated person about most cultrual things. I've learned to speak my truth about most things and find that it's sometimes not so welcome by others. I'm also an extremely diverse, eclectic person whose unique vibe and character is highly unlikely to be captured in the "about me" section of some profile.
