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MY TESTIMONY: For those that don't know me...well actually for those that do, hmmm i've had an interesting life, i use to be a "suicidal, depressed, pyromaniac that abused drugs" i use to do robberies, and generally what i wanted, because in my eyes "what did i have to lose?" for details ask me, i have no shame, the past is the past. But anyway i use to regularly ask myself this question: " what's the point?" and that meant in anything! i needed more. one day i was sat in my house with john and a a bag of "base/speed" and was and was on msn ma mate dj, he said to me if u take that "stuff" u've lost a mate. And that day i was like "that's it! i don't want this life nemore!!" because i had been soo stupid in life i messed up in school, i had nothing to live for. Dj at sum point became a Born again Christian, and man! did we ridicule him!! but deep down in me i was asking myself "what is this" i saw the change in him. Anyway 1 day i went with him to church...man it was boring!! wen i got in the car i laffed and joked...but what i didn't realize was the place i was mocking was soo soon to become my new home! sumthing made me wana go back..i think it was maybe the love people seemed to show towards each other, something i had not experienced, it seemed peaceful and...just nice. i went the following Wednesday, and a big black lady with dreadlocks said "would u like to give your life to jesus?" n i was like(in ma head) "wah?! nooooo" but then i thought..this is a chance for a new start to life, "what did i have to lose??" couldn't get worse! so i sed yes, and she spoke a prayer and asked me to repeat, i was now a "born again Christian" the next Sunday i stopped over for a week at the leaders' house, wen i went back home my mother saw a massive change in me! usually I'd go home stinking of weed, n just stinking in general! but i looked sooo free "apparently" lol. i felt great, for once. but wen i got in the house there were arguments as usual..i had been in a christian home for a week and had got use to peace. i thought to maself "i can't live here" and the following day moved into where i am right now as ya reading!......I've lived here for 1year and 9 months, have been a christian for that time too. i've never been happier. :) if u laff u laff, but i've experienced 1 extreme to another...and i know what i prefer :) bless ya.