mourningillusion

TO YOU.... I AM NOTHING!!!! YOU ONLY SEE ME AS SOMEONE WHO SERVES ONLY A PURPOSE TO GET TO WHERE YOU REALLY WANT TO GO..... I AM NOTHING OF IMPORTANCE.... ONLY JUST TO BE USED AND LET GO JUST TO WAIT FOR ANOTHER OBLIVIOUS MISSION SOMEOEN ELSE SENDS ME ON ONLY TO GO AROUND IN CIRCLES AGAIN!I was enjoying "Mother Earth" and her wonderful creations and I was thinking how is it that she always looks so peaceful and never hurt or angry. At that exact moment I stepped on a what I thought was a small puddle of water and woke up drowning in the ocean of a world I have never seen before. To think that all along I was growing up faster than I thought was only the ignorance of the selfish child in me. USED AND ABUSED???? HAHAHA!!! I had it made growing up now that I look at it... I really did have a wonderful life and my parents made sure of that.NOW.... that caring and spoiled side of me is crushed into pure darkness only fighting to survive now in this world. YOU.... YOU DONT WANT TO KNOW ME! YOUR NOT MY FRIEND! I JUST HAVE SOMETHING OR HAVE ACCESS TO SOMETHING YOU WANT MORE.... I AM NOTHING TO YOU IN THIS WORLD!Here I have no friends on the GRIND! Its ME against the world! You want to know what its like to suffer to get what you truely want or need in life??? Then come join me, but I do warn you....... there is no escape from her grasps because once she has you... T H E R E I S N O R E T U R N!!!!!