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Johnny Eczema

My self-absorption freaks me out

About Me



WHEN WE ARE NO LONGER PREOCCUPIED WITH SELF-CENTERED PURSUITS BASED ON THE INSECURITIES OF THE ILLUSORY SELF AND ITS DESIRES AND AVERSIONS, THE WORLD ARISES IN THE PURITY OF THE NATURAL STATE IN A VIVID PRISTINE DISPLAY OF BEAUTY. .......ALL EXPERIENCES ARISE AS AN ORNAMENTATION OF THE NATURE OF MIND, RATHER THAN AS A PROBLEM OR DELUSION. *please read this statement 100 times and reflect upon it. 100 times. do it now. everything else can wait.* tenzin wangyal rinpoche

My Interests

writer/poet/vocalist/visionary

I'd like to meet:

like-minded individuals

Music:

SWANS, Jarboe, Leftover Crack, Sonic Youth, Choking Victim, the Pixies, Crass, Archers of Loaf, the Misfits, Brown Whornet, Atmosphere, Joy Division, Foetus, the Vandals, World/Inferno Friendship Society, Nick Drake, Operation Ivy, Babyland, Peaches, Agent Orange, Joan Jett, Tricky, Pretty Girls Make Graves, Nina Simone, Tool, Caul, The Bronx, L7, Angels of Light, Hole, the Casualties, Fugazi, the Distillers, Autechre, Tribes of Neurot, Black Flag, Kate Bush, World of Skin, Deathprod, Scarling, Schubert, Big Black, Aphex Twin, the Exploited, Pain Teens, Le Tigre, Blackmouth, Maria Callas, Public Enemy, PJ Harvey, Bikini Kill, A Perfect Circle, Jack Off Jill, Minor Threat, Subhumans, Neurosis, Hot Water Music, Diamanda Galas, Cop Shoot Cop, Mindless Self Indulgence, GBH, Massive Attack, the Cure, Dead Can Dance, Failure, Skinny Puppy, Stiff Little Fingers...

Movies:

Gregg Araki, Bruce Labruce, Fight Club, Heathers, David Lynch, The Nightmare on Elm Street series, Mirrormask, David Cronenberg, and the one of myself screwing your dad up the ass.

Television:

does anime count?

Books:

Thomas Ligotti, Chuck Palahniuk, Alice Walker, Dennis Cooper, Kathy Acker, Clive Barker, Neil Gaiman, Poppy Z. Brite, Friedrich Nietzsche, Sapphire, RE/Search and Juno publications, William Gibson and other cyberpunk authors, Buddhist and other religious texts.

Heroes:

Jarboe

My Blog

...

I don't know why I only write blogs when I'm depressed.  I guess I'm kind of depressed all the time now anyway.  I seem to currently view life as a challenge that it's too late for me to com...
Posted by Johnny Eczema on Thu, 17 May 2007 07:00:00 PST

trust

It's a matter of trust.  How much do you trust yourself?  How much do you trust the people around you?  Do you trust them enough to freak the fuck out if that's what you have to do?&nbs...
Posted by Johnny Eczema on Fri, 04 May 2007 05:21:00 PST

last night

Last night was bad.  The last two nights.  The customers have been rude and overbearing and THOUGHTLESS.  I've never been stiffed so many times in rapid succession.  So an hour bef...
Posted by Johnny Eczema on Sun, 29 Apr 2007 04:43:00 PST

smelly beaverton

It's my first day of vacation and I'm looking forward to...  everything.  No bad vibes or depressive antics.  Two words keep flowing through my head "smelly beaverton".  Oh yeah an...
Posted by Johnny Eczema on Mon, 02 Apr 2007 09:15:00 PST

my head

     My head feels incredibly strange right now.  Some sort of bizarre infection underneath the skin of the pressure point at the base of my jaw.  Touching it causes tend...
Posted by Johnny Eczema on Fri, 30 Mar 2007 03:02:00 PST

mindkiller

     I had the alcohol sweats all night tonight.  I was feeling pretty puny and completely disconnected from everything going on around me.  In a way it was a relief beca...
Posted by Johnny Eczema on Fri, 16 Mar 2007 05:52:00 PST

renting a car...

...is driving me insane and making me confused and depressed.  The place I wanted to rent from only takes debit cards IF you present some sort of train, bus or airline roundtrip ticket.  WHA...
Posted by Johnny Eczema on Thu, 15 Mar 2007 07:02:00 PST

birthdays

Ok. So it's like, birthdays make me really nervous because in general I'm just about half-retarded most of the time.  Maybe I always was and just scraped by somehow on my own pride and false sens...
Posted by Johnny Eczema on Fri, 23 Feb 2007 04:41:00 PST

Top 10 things I want for my birthday

per Jasper's request.  This is really not something I get enthusiastic about.1) cotten boxers in greens and blues2) any album by Jesu4) a new hard drive or donations for a new harddrive which wil...
Posted by Johnny Eczema on Thu, 08 Feb 2007 06:28:00 PST

i think it's almost over

Or at least it had better be.  The darker aspects of my personality are beginning to rise to the top to protect the people I love.  That's only because the lighter part can be such a jesus-a...
Posted by Johnny Eczema on Sun, 14 Jan 2007 08:12:00 PST