Tyler Durden aka Peter Foxx

People always want to know the dirty secrets of others so here are mine 1st off I am a gay man kickin the shit out of aids. I grew up in the midwest on a ranch/farm. The whole rodeo/cowboy was cool for the most part. We thought people from California were like creatures from another planet. I spent most of my early life being abused both physically and mentally. When I was 16 my family found out I was gay and I got the boot. I was out on my own for the first time ever.I ended up in Denver first. Lived on the streets with abunch of other kids getting into alot of trouble. I ended up doing just about every drug there was. Just to forget the nights and what I was doing. I moved around alot and finally ended up here in Las Vegas. I picked myself up with help from strangers and got off the drugs. I then put myself through school. It was hard 7 years of college but rewarding.I did not do well in the dating department. After many attempts and many failures I figured out that it wasn't thier fault it was mine.I did learn you get what you put in the hard way.I didn't know how or what love was. I did know sex but nothing about love.So I spent all my time with school. After graduation I put all I had into work and didn't put enough time or energy into any relationship I had been in. I spent 10 yrs straight pumping iron and working out but never more than a 10 months with a guy. I now live alone and that is ok with me.For the best most likely. My dog keeps me busy these days. Most of my time is spent gambling, I play alot of poker and when I'm at home I either am on this damn machine or sitting in the dark listening to music.I sit outside alot watching stars.I dream alot about my first boyfriend Zack and the what ifs but those dreams turn into nightmares and are very hard to deal with sometimes.I found out I was HIV+ when I was 18 in 1998. I have been dealing with aids for almost 3 years since the beginning of 2005. I do spend alot of time depressed for obvious reasons but I try to look for the good in life....anyways that's what makes me tick if you want message me hopefully we can chat.