kanani [Well versed in the ways of the world.]

If Jesus Christ is truth,
Then I am mostley lies.
If Jesus Christ is love,
Then I have failed to try.
If Jesus Christ is life,
Then please just let me die.
let.this.die.
I love you.
Hi I'm Kanani and I treat everyone like a rockstar. I'm me with my emery shirt and cheap jeans and tore up shoes.
( I spent some time in a bad place at 18, wishing i could see something through clear eyes. do you ever wake up to realize that your life is meaningless? Does it give you strength, or lead you to a grave at your young age? It seems that when i ran away from my past, all my dignity, faith, and pride got left back. But i think that its time that I realize that self-pity is meaningless and though i'm ten feet deep i'll claw my way out of this grave. but now I realize, I'd give anything i have to walk a day in my old shoes- wondering what my first smoke would be like, my first fuck and my next fuck up, the next band that would change my life. Pound my knuckles hard against the floor, my head against the wall, i did this to myself. I'll assume its just not worth getting back up, blame it on bad luck and shake the responsibility.)
"Kanani: noun; a firm believer in Gods way as well as wailua's amazing older sister. -wailua"
And this is what other people wrote for my about me.
Kanani is the worst thing that could ever happen to you. No matter who you are or how you think, you fall the fuck in love with her, and it sucks. I hate how much I love Kanani, and how I see how everyone else loves her. I can’t believe she left all of us in AZ, some friend! So careful, don’t get close- she’ll just make you fall in love and then she’ll leave you. - Katelynn
Nani sucks. She doesn’t even like smoking and she’s a shitty drunk. She was super fake the year before she moved away and she used people just for entertainment. She’s a fucking fake. But if you’re lucky, like me, you know all these things about how much she sucks- and still know she’s the most amazing person you will probably ever meet. Sorry, kiddo, but she can try and hide who she is but a heart as big as hers just can’t help but shine. (*cough*gay*cough*). -anon
Nani has amazed me since day one. I’ve never seen her angry. I’ve seen her write angry things, but I’ve never ever seen her say something bad about someone actually meaning it, not even at the time she says it. She has this faith in God where its in everything she does. I don’t even belive in God, but she makes you question it. The love in that girl is something you don’t see these days. Amazing, as I said. - Jake
Nani would be WAY cooler if she’d give me a blow job. (hint hint, nani!) But since she doesn’t, she’s just some girl who likes crappy emo music and goes to too many shows and is nicer to people than they deserve. Also, she is the most HYPER fucking person I’ve ever met. And there is hardly anything to be so fuckin happy about most of the time. Don’t act like life is good, nani! Oh- and she has big tits. - Matt B.
Nani is the only person that has ever believed in things so much she actually lives it out. But yeah, I guess that past year that’s kind of a lie, but when I met her she was so strong that it put me in awe sometimes. Really, she just NOW has a boyfriend and she’s 18? I’ve never met someone so ok with themselves they were content with friendships and believed so hard in something REAL with love that they actually WAIT. I also love how she touches random things and is the funniest girl I know. -Ryan H.
Hi, I’m Nani- I’m a fucking christian. I need to lose weight because I’m fucking FAT. I live in Texas, the suckiest state ever, when I had it MADE in Tempe, Arizona. I fucking love everyone and stand up for anyone’s honor even when they don’t deserve it. I slap the back of your head and HARD when you talk bad about someone, ANYONE. I steal your keys when you’ve drunk too much (and don’t fucking give them back even after being offered money! Fuck I’m so cool!). I’m there for people even after they screw me over. My hair is a million different colors, I’m the coolest kid in town! I make people laugh because I’m fucking funny as shit. I’m probably too cool for you and know it, but I’ll give you all my attention and love you until the end of time anyway. You probably suck but I probably think you’re “beautiful” and “worth every good thing the world can offer”. By the way, I like this horrible ear bleeding band called Emery and just about worship them! I’m the coolest person ever!!! - Aaron C
I think nani pretends to care what people think about her, but knows who she is and is ok with it. I think she does and says everything she does on purpose, like she doesn’t make mistakes with people. I’ve never seen someone fall in love with so many people so quickly like she does. I’ve never seen someone able to have fun with whatever was going ... I’ve never seen someone who could fit in so easily no matter the crowd. I’ve never met someone who could make everyone feel safe like she does. Nani is this gaurdian angel, and I would trust her with anything. I think all her hang ups and “bad” is on purpose, like she means to be screwing up like she has been deliberately. *shrug*. I just know she makes my heart skip beats and lights up any room she goes into, and if I loved like she loved- I’d kill myself. - Michael Y
Nani is straight edge, she’s just trying to fit in. Don’t buy it, the party isn’t a good time, and she really ISN’T a whore no matter what she tells you (making out with two guys in one week? Sweety, NOT a whore) or ANYONE ELSE tells you. Why she does things she doesn’t want to? Pft. Probably to be friends with you so you’ll let her love you more. LAME. Nani is lame. - Becka
Nani is too fucking smart, it drives me insane. And she’s just being modest, she can do everything she says she can’t do well or at all a hundred times better. She’s more self sacrificing than Jesus fucking Christ, I swear. The ends of the earth this girl is willing to go to, fuck. And how she forgives so damn easily and quickly? Who does that? Without yelling or breaking their stuff? I mean REALLY. She’s stronger than you’ll ever know because she doesn’t let you see it. This girl is fucking AMAZING, and you know it. - Joshua D
Nani thinks poop and fart jokes are funny, but does NOT find sex jokes humorous at all. Weirdo. - anon
If anyone were going to start a new trend, I think nani would. -Ben
Kanani is a fearful person, it’s the one thing that holds her back. I’ve known this for the past five years. She also has no idea how beautiful and hot she is, at all. Ridiculous, how could she not?! But either way. Whatever kid she’s dating in Texas is one of the most luckiest guys in the world, because that girl is the most important thing to more people than in the state of Texas itself. She’s passionate, excited, more loving than a lot of people will ever experience. She sees ONLY the good in people, and never says a discouraging thing about anyone. She couldn’t be mean to save her life. Ask her who she hates, and you’ve got an hour of her trying to think of a name. She apologizes when needed, she takes blame when its hers (or even when its not). All the things she did the past year and a half that darkened her name is just growing up. She’ll be our Nani again soon enough. Which is good, we’ve been dying to see that light in her eyes and real smile. - Alex A
Fuck that guy in Texas, Nani is mine bitches!!! She’s fuckin’ HOTT, smart, FUN, and has a heart bigger than my own cock (which is amazing, because its pretty huge!). But seriously, Nani is a pretty rad chick. She’s been there for me and a lot of other people more than we know, and I can’t wait to see her be selfish for once- because in the past three years, I’ve never seen it. Speaking of seeing things, I’d also like to see her rack. Peace!!!- Brandon L
Whatever. Nani, is so beautiful and amazing I can’t seem to ever get over it. Not in four years of knowing her. I love the hell out of her, and her guy in tx better treat her like the queen she is. - anon
Nani is afraid of thunderstorms. You should she’s allergic to everything and avoids eating meat because she strives to be a vegetarian. She hates kids but is fantastic with them and they like her. She cries when you litter because she litteraly feels bad for the TRASH because now it’ll get blowing all over and be cold or ran over or lonely…. She’s a little fucked in the head. SHE REMEMBERS EVERY FUCKING THING THAT EVER FUCKING HAPPENS. She loves you, and she loves emery, and loves jesus. Probably in that reverse order, ha. - Ryan H
Nani is so sociable in love and all, but she is perfectly fine alone. You’d never know it, but she can be alone and be ok. That’s a big thing to say, because everyone needs people. Nani has a good two or so weeks to give before she starts even THINKING about needing people (this means in person and any sort of voice or text conversation). Maybe its how she believes in God and loves being with her “Father”, but she is the only person I know who can be perfectly ok alone. And you’d never know it.- Steph
Nani sees beautiful things. And I can only hope I can see things how she does, especially how she sees people (everyone). - anon
Nani’s hugs are the dang best. If you ever need an ego boost or to know everything is ok, you call Nani because she’ll tell you all day long about all the good and pretty she sees in you, and tell you with perfect confidence everything will just fine.- Jake S
Eric is a lucky guy because Nani is something beautiful. Not just looks, but inside. She’ll be this girlfriend that is encouraging and caring. Not jealous, unless he gave her perfect reason- because Nani doesn’t react with something negative (like jealousy) unless necessary. She is going to make him feel like he could do anything in the world, over come any situation, and most of all- I don’t know where his faith stands, but I’m sure she’ll provide a very Godly and God-led relationship. And as for his daughter, what better hands than Nani. I’ve seen her with kids. Her patience with people? Times it by a hundred and its what she has with kids. She’s good at teaching them things, calming them down, loving on them, etc. Those kids in tx in general. Having someone to tell you how wonderful you are at any chance they have? That’s always nice. And that’s Nani in a nutshell. Love, Faith, Joy. People watch with her sometime, see the look in her eyes as she falls in love with everyone she sees. - Justin R

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There is a hope to get you by
There is a cure for your insides
There is a hope to make you new
There is a Father who loves you...
~Spoken "Still waiting."
If I could become the servent of all, with no lower place to fall...
Hello. I'm your martyr. Will you be my gangster? +I always said I could see, but now I'm going blind.
+And I'm not so afraid, lost at sea, as I should be.
+I'm not hiding, I'm just buying some time for us to find a back door.
+ I am hollywood
+I want a boy who is so drunk he doesn't talk.
+ I do not need anymore truthless heroes.
+You have my attention (like you had all the while).
+For what its worth, you're all I know. (all I try to know).
+Just talk and I'll listen.
+I want to save you.
+I'll take my heart back and set the people free- I'll leave the dead to die and take who is coming with me.
+I'm infected by you. (tell me before you go, that you're infected with me).
+When I hit the ground, with bloody palms i raise, the arms that pick me up convince me there is no better place.
+I am not what you see, not much more than a slave I want to be.
+You know, i can't seem to breathe when you're here.
+ I patiently wait... for you.
+ And so I am the prince,
of sounds that make ears ring.
My princess kiss me with your sweet lips and lo,
my heart will sing.
If art is in yourself,
or in a class at school,
if art is ego and selfishness, and at the mercy of primitive tools
We sing sweet good-byes in screams, and screeches,
and bury these knives in your heart.
no paintings, or poems, to let you live on we've seen the last of art
As servants and lovers we wash your feet and cry out into the dark
The noise, the beauty,
the love you bring me stabs these knives right into art
art is not the world,
art is in our hearts.
Stab art to death... +I still love you. I swear. I always will.
+And I'm a monster when I sink my teeth into her, when I don't love her.
+I don't want to come back here to this place.
+I admit that I'm just a fool for you.
+I'm not invisible like you.
+We live, we love, we, forgive and never give up. +I believe in loving you at first sight.
+I will try and find my place in the diary of Jane.
+So you know that you're never on your own.
+I'll give you candy, give you diamonds, give you pills- ANYTHING you want. + Tonight- I'm seeing stars.
+And I will never see the sky the same way.
+I miss your hair in my face.
+I know why no one else knows, just why I'm here alone agian.
+If I sounded insecure its because i wasn't sure you were really there.
+ I believe in silence our hearts speak the same words.
+I said I'm not coming back, but I'm coming back (and you'd better be alone!)
+I'm further from myself when I'm next to you.
+I will fade.
+We're a new hope generation.We can see the wasted lives in your faces. But we can see Messiah rise in these places until the tears are gone
+I love the way you look at me, the way you look into my eyes, and show me everything is alright.
+Landslide inside, fear wants to take my peace of mind. I won't run or hide, I will life my hands up high.
+I mourne for those who never knew you.
+My favorite color is shame.
+This is the last night in my body.
+Friend to friend, I'd do anything to make it end.
+I will break into your thoughts.
+I've been waiting for a revelation, a moment of clarity.
+We are directed youth.

Get a scroll BoxPS- I own your scene.Dear You: I love you. Plain and simple. I think you're beautiful and brilliant and precious and worth every good thing there is. I think about you all the time, and can't stop thanking God and finding new ways in how he has used you to bless my life.You're amazing. And don't let anyone tell you different, Or let the world get you to believe otherwise.So I'm pretty much in love with that whole God thing and that Christ guy, he's pretty much my one reason for living- and on somedays that means more than a lot. I try, and fail miserably, but God is God and he is love ("God is love, and love is real") so even when i screw up (and sometimes on purpose) he still has his arms open and tells me:You're beautiful, my favorite, I love you more than any of my creations. I never leave you, And there is nothing you can do to make me go away.And i live my life to follow Christ. And he has this unconditional self sacraficing love. I ache to show that love just a little bit in myself. I'm so in love with him that it seems impossible not to love you. This savior of mine who i put my everything into sees nothing but beauty in you and is SO IN LOVE WITH YOU, a love that i can't seem to wrap my head around or think about without breaking down, that if i for a fraction of a second use his eyes to see through when i look at you- i want to fall and kiss your feet and beg to know everything about you.You're amazing and beautiful, and no flaw of yours darkens any of your light. And i'm sorry when i get mad or say things at you that aren't nice- because that isn't love. I'm human so forgive me for not being able to forgive right on the spot and for sometimes responding with words that aren't encouraging and "love-sounding", or if I cut you down in anyway. I'm trying to break myself of worldy love but its a lot harder than i think it to be sometimes.But i love you as far as I can. And have every intention of loving you always. always.anyway.I love you. I LOVE JESUS Religion destroys. Religion is man made. Religion creates wars between nations. Religion causes divorces. Religion splits friends apart. Religion puts a barrier between loved ones. Religion causes confusion. ~ We are not religious, We are followers of Jesus Christ ----untitled skateboards---- I love emery. A lot. More than a lot. A lot a lot. Yea. I pretty much love Emery. can't deny that. Nope. you can't.I edited my profile with Thomas' Myspace Editor V4.4