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When a butterfly is born from its cocoon, does it remember its life as a caterpillar? When a butterfly sees a caterpillar, does it have a known or unknown understanding or compassion for it? Or has it forgotten? Is the life of a caterpillar and butterfly the same life, or two separate ones? Is it possible that the caterpillar thinks? If it is, is it possible that it thinks that it dies whence it weaves itself into its cocoon? Are there possibly caterpillars that rebel its thought death by not weaving itself into a cocoon? Maybe there are some caterpillars that fear the cocoon. Unbeknownst to them there is flight on the other side. Butterfly Exist! Let me start by saying it's not a gun. It doesnt have bullets, it doesn't shoot anything, so where did anybody get the idea to call it, and to continue to call it, a gun? Guns are used in war, in target practice, to kill cops, to rob and pillage from the wealthy, to get revenge, but never to do a tattoo. Its called a machine. Moving on... USED TO HAVE A HUGE (possibly excessive) ABOUT ME SECTION, THEN FOX BOUGHT MYSPACE, THE REST IS HISTORY. SO IF YOU WANNA KNOW, I SUGGEST YOU JUST ASKah, fuck it, Ive got a million excuses to be active...Can you say neurotic? Often mistaken for as Schizophrenic. I am way too much for you. Dont even bother. Youll never understand me, nor do I expect you to. All Im good for in your world is my dedication to tattooing. Dont try and take it any further than that. I am a Sagittarian, which would explain my flighty, childish, dream-like state of being. Im am completely obsessed with art and with my mind. I put tattooing into the category of life love. I consider it a living entity to whom I love with every ounce of me. Everything outside tattooing, with exception to my family and real friends, comes second. I am a recluse. I enjoy being alone. I require at least 80 hours a week to be creating artwork, mostly undisturbed. I have no time for games, in fact I hardly have time for things that matter. I dont do drama, I dont shower girls with gifts, I am not rich, and have no intention whatsoever to be, ever. Ideally, I'll live my life using as little government money as possible, bartering and trading my way through my necessities. I take care of my mind before anything else. I trust only those who are trustworthy. I am far to 'out there' for most of you. Most people like me, but mostly just the surface level me. Once they start looking below the surface, they are intimidated and back off. I usually come off as cocky to the outsider, and once inside, you'll realize I am not. I am aware of the collective consciousness that binds us all, so in that sense, I am cocky, for I am all of you, and we are god. There are also a few good things about me....Welp, my best attribute is that I can make myself laugh all day long, which is great, because Im always entertained. Is anyone really gonna read this shit? Seriously, I wrote this shit so you'll read it, so then I dont have to type it again later. You see, when I work all day long, aw fuck it, never mind.... I like pistachios...tattooing...my sister...my friend(s)...see that kari?haha...i like my pain in the ass dog...he smells, I should give him a bath...monica hill...i like to paint stuff...and tattoo...i like organic vegetables only...I eat once a day, at best, usually after 10pm...my fridge is empty, cept for however many rockstars i got in there...I eat junkfood every day, I'll probably die from it one day...speaking of death, I'm gonna go young...i never leave the house, other than to eat or buy tattoo supplies...I live alone...weird people always find me...I work 12 hours a day, 6 to 7 days a week...i dislike our current president...I travel a lot...hang out and work with amazing artists who give me unending inspiration...get tattooed frequently...shit hurts...inwardly selfish(not outwardly)...pot...hang on......I listen to the same CD's over and over until my customers hate me and my music...i like to tattoo monica hill, my sis...i have like 8 personalities, but we're all the same and all work well together...im a wanna-be vegetarian...i wash my hands obsessively...I avoid phone calls like the plague...my voicemail is backed up for days...theres a lot more...Borderline psycho, driven by creative force, non-human stuck in a human world. Longs for death, but loves every aspect of life. Stuck in constant thought, always pondering, figuring, wondering, inventing, searching. Loves anything that brings him closer to his spirit. Anything that brings him closer to his God. Assisted by many incredible cosmic fields and forces. Loves nothing more than the artist and the arts. Mathematically inclined. Sees everything in numbers, formulas, graphs, geometrics,the all-knowing, underlying mathematical energy grid,constantly computing. Scientifically inclined. Has hard time understanding most of humanity. Cares nothing of money, material objects, society or social status. Dreams of complete freedom, from all, including the heavy, restricting spiritual tumor referred to as the human body. Loves to read/study. Overwhelmingly fascinated with the universe. Intrigued with the human mind, the pineal gland, and its interconnectedness with the spiritual mind frame. Believer of everything. Very sensitive to energies, uncontrollably so. Causes him to withdraw from crouded places, sometimes all people. Wants nothing more than to teach people to love each other(everyone) though some kind of creative/artistic force unknown to him as of yet. Man, I sound like a goddam hippie! Other than all that shit compiled with endless madness to follow, Im just some dude who lives basically, to tattoo, or at least until I have something else. I work primarily from home. I also sell my product, which I invented for the good of mankind, from my place of residence. I work from home, and do a lot of traveling to tattoo coventions, guest spots, and the like. I am currently focusing most of my attention on my art, for money will always be readily available, and is best spent on myself, on my career. So- most of the money I make goes into traveling to the next convention, laser surgery, tattoos, artwork, music, my new house, my tattoo studio,etc. I live with the most intelligent animal alive, my dog. he is a talented, telepathic, and incredibly loving mutt. (rot, chow,sharpei) What makes me tick: Tattooing, Painting, anything creative, really, my family, quest for higher intelligence, god, jesus, buddha, einstein, spiritual influences, artistic influences, alien influences, space, freedom, my inner child.Otherwise, Im ready to die and move on.I am on a quest to determine what happens to me when I die. How much freedom I will obtain, and to what extent. I will occasionally expand my mind with mind-altering substances, but not for pleasure. I use them for inventing, creating, self-discovering, and sometimes for meditative purposes. Other than mj, which is more of a constant practice, so that I can deal with the likes of you people! I am a huge fan of Timothy Leary and his teachings. I am also very fond of similar scientific psychedelic psychologists such as Aldous Huxley and Rick Strassman A huge fan of conspiracies, I study works on all things unusual. Aliens are a favorite topic of mine. Metaphsical studies are also a favorite. Any of Carlos Casteneda's books. Anything on the Illuminati and/or other secret societies. However, I take none of these as fact, for I know there are no facts. "Facts" are only particles or fragments of information, mostly false, that can get in the way of an open mind, which is unarguably the most important state of mind to maintain when searching for creativity... I dislike: green olives...poor thing...mayo...mindless people...people who are incapable of carrying on a conversation worth having...LA traffic...all traffic, actually...racists(of all types)...paying bills... Cocky Arrogant Repetative(get it?) Sarcastic (get it?) Obnoxious Narcissictic...............On Religion: Is it not possible that the wrong christians are right, and vice-versa, or that the bible is nothing more than a good metaphoric story about a good man? Is it not possible that my views on the world and spirituality are closer to correct than the words of the bible? Is it not possible that weve all got it all wrong? Is it not possible that god is a female, and the male god people pray to is actually the devil? After all, the devil is the trickiest guy out there, I wouldnt be surprised if he somehow tricked a bunch of people into thinking he is god. Or how bout that were all correct, if only we combine beliefs? Is it not possible that Buddhists are onto something? How bout that heaven and hell are simply whether or not you have a body? Christianity doesnt fit into my life, into my way of thinking. I think there are definetely some truths in all things, including the bible, but I not only think its misunderstood, I also believe its entirely out of context. I believe god is a female. That doesnt fit into any religion, but Ive seen her, many times. I have strong mind, but mostly because I know Im wrong, dead wrong. This world and life and exsistence is far too beautiful for any man to fathom, I think. Man gives himself too much credit. We are wrong, plain and simple, my opinion. And yet everyone wants to be right, why, I dont know. Why would anyone wanna know any answers about something so infinite? Doesnt that put a damper on open-mindedness? If you think you have the answer, would you continue to seek truth? If you already know it, then no, you wouldnt. There is no roof on this one, in my opinion. The bible provides a roof, a level of perfection that isnt there. Perfect as a word is undefinable. Try it. There is an entry-level perfect (i.e. its gotta be at least...), which puts a floor on it, but still no roof. If you reach perfection, then what? Stop evolving, stop growing? Pefection is not for me. There are far too many things that happen and have happened to me that make any one religion feasible. They all have some truth, but none will ever have much of it. Again, my opinion.The thing is, I have a right to be alone in my opinions and even to be respected for them. I am no less 'right' than the next guy, no more, no less. No matter how hard we try, we will never understand god. Or life, or the world, heaven and hell, life and death, etc. With any luck, well find out some of it when we die. Hopefully not all of it though, or else life will suddenly get very boring.Here is one other problem I have with Christianity:They really do think they are right. all of them. Even the ones who think their religion has been hacked up by priests and misunderstanding people, etc., they still think they are right. Why do we have to be right? Honestly, were not smart enough to be right, not ever, and especially not on god and life matters. I am quite strong in my beliefs, but I know Im wrong. I couldnt possibly be right, besides, tomorrow something new will come up to prove me wrong once again. I have no problem being wrong. I will forever be wrong, and I dont mind. I mean, shit, Im still trying to figure out if murder is wrong or if its gods will. Chances are its gods will, in which case we shall not judge the person, or god for doing so. We cannot understand that but there is a reason people kill. My point is, whenever someone tells me that their opinion or religion is right, I suddenly lose interest in the conversation, and sadly, in the mind of the person as well. It makes me sad that most people put a brick wall around their beliefs, making it impossible for adaptation and growth. Scary. Infinity is a hard thing to define, especially with a finite book or thought.In my mind man isnt smart enough in a finite mind to understand any part of an infinite universe.I will never understand why anyone would wanna know the 'absolutes' about life. I would never wanna know and I hope to god there are no absolutes in spiritual exsistence.I hope you understand I am only trying to support my mind, and that I realize I cant be right on this one. No one can. Every word of this bulletin is only my opinion, and I know I am wrong. But spirituality without speculation, observation, debate, and open-mindedness just seems plain silly to me.
