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About Me

"Then you haven’t been hugged properly. It’s like an emotional Heimlich. Someone puts their arms around you and they give you a squeeze and all your fear and anxiety come shooting out of your mouth in a big wet wad and you can breathe again." -Anna Friel as Chuck on Pushing Daisies"Whether it's true or not, the fact that you believe it to be so is all that matters." -me, myself and I
group huglovefriendshopetragedy26simpleovercomingone of the greatest nights in historyinspirationchildhood fantasydestinylessonsirritationsplendourchildish hopesworst day of my lifemomsurrealself-realizationmemoriesgrowing upmarriagetoo cool for school?comfortlonelysinglepaina lifetime ago"i beg you...to have patience with everything unresolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves as if they were locked rooms or books written in a very foreign language. don't search for the answers, which could not be given to you now, because you would not be able to live them. and the point is, to live everything. live the questions now. perhaps then, someday far in the future, you will gradually, without even noticing it, live your way into the answer..." -rainer maria rilke"We must be willing to get rid of the life we've planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us." -Joseph CampbellLinus wonders, "If you work real hard, and you get everything you've always wanted, is it worth it?"
Snoopy responds, "Not if your dog doesn't like you.""Age is an issue of mind over matter. If you don't mind, it doesn't matter." -Mark Twain"Destiny is not a matter of chance, it is a matter of choice; it is not a thing to be waited for, it is a thing to be achieved." -Winston Churchill"I have to make this picture...because I think I'm an interesting woman when I look at myself on screen, and I know that if I met myself at a party, I would never talk to that character because she doesn't fulfill - physically - the demands that we're brought up to think that women have to have in order for us to ask them out...there's too many interesting women I have not had the experience to know in this life because I have been brainwashed. [choking back tears] That was never a comedy for me." -Dustin Hoffman near tears as he talks about his role in Tootsie during the 10th Anniversary edition of AFI 100 Years 100 Movies"Why can you not stop saying what is in yours? Why must you lead when I want to lead? If I want to dance, I will ask you to dance. If I want to speak, I will open my mouth and speak. Everyone is forever plaguing me to speak further. Why? What good is it to tell you you are in my every thought from the time I wake? What good can come from my saying that I sometimes cannot think clearly or do my work properly? What gain can rise of my telling you the only time I feel fear as others do is when I think of you in harm? That is why I am on this porch, Ivy Walker. I fear for your safety before all others. And yes, I will dance with you on our wedding night." -Joaquin Phoenix as Lucius Hunt in The Village"If she dies, they can close this whole show of a world. They can cart it off, unscrew the stars, roll up the sky and put it on a truck. They can turn off this sunlight I love so much. You know I love it so much? Because I love her when the sun shines on her. They can take everything away - these carpets, columns, houses, sand, wind, frogs, ripe watermelons, hail, seven in the evening, May, June, July, basil, bees, the sea, courgettes..." -Roberto Benigni as Attilio de Giovanni in The Tiger And The Snow"I take a problem and chew on it until all the flavor's gone, and then I stick it in my hair." -Ellen Burstyn as Viviane Joan Abbott Walker in Divine Secrets of the Ya-Ya Sisterhood"So much of what I see reminds me of something I read in a book, when shouldn't it be the other way around?" -Meg Ryan as Kathleen Kelly in You've Got Mail"My god, you are Cole Porter in panties. Of course, having said that, Cole Porter probably did wear panties." -Hugh Grant as Alex Fletcher in Music & Lyrics"I've spent much of my life outrunning the past, and now it floods all over me." -Ian McKellen as James Whale in Gods and Monsters"We don't read and write poetry because it's cute. We read and write poetry because we are members of the human race. And the human race is filled with passion. And medicine, law, business, engineering these are noble pursuits and necessary to sustain life. But poetry, beauty, romance, love these are what we stay alive for." -Robin Williams as John Keating in Dead Poets Society"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, 'Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?' Actually, who are you not to be? Your playing small doesn't serve the world. There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. And as we let our light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we're liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others." -Nelson Mandela"To love oneself is the beginning of a lifelong romance." -Oscar Wilde"Whenever you find yourself on the side of the majority, it is time to pause and reflect." -Mark Twain"It has been my philosophy of life that difficulties vanish when faced boldly." -Isaac Asimov"Anyone who lives within their means suffers from a lack of imagination." -Oscar Wilde"If you believe yourself unfortunate because you have loved and lost, perish the thought. One who has loved truly can never lose entirely. Love is whimsical and temperamental. Its nature is ephemeral and transitory. It comes when it pleases and goes away without warning. Accept and enjoy it while it remains, but spend no time worrying about its departure. Worry will never bring it back. Dismiss, also, the thought that love never comes but once. Love may come and go, times without number, but there are no two love experiences that affect you in just the same way. There may be, and there usually is, one love experience that leaves a deeper imprint on the heart than all the others, but all love experiences are beneficial, except to the person who becomes resentful and cynical when love makes its departure." -Napoleon Hill, Think and Grow Rich"Ginger Rogers did everything Fred Astaire did, just backwards and in high heels." -Ann Richards, 1933-2006"Physical love only rarely merges with the soul's love . . . There is nothing rare about the merging of the bodies of two strangers. Even the union of souls may occasionally take place. What is a thousand times more rare is the union of the body with its own soul in shared passion." -Milan Kundera, The JokeI can't wait to see this:
I got this off my friend's page. I can't help but laugh out loud every time I see it...especially at Prince Harry's expression.

My Interests

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RAIN!!! autumn; spring; boundaries (Good fences make good neighbors. -Robert Frost); the sound of an orchestra tuning just before the performance; ladybugs; smiles; tall, gangly boys with good jawlines and nice smiles; laughter; the smell of old books; waking up on my own; individuality; napping; reading (words can be delicious); writing; films (sometimes movies and TV can make me feel things that I never feel in everyday life); Mozart's in Austin; Earl Gray tea with milk and sugar; running; dancing (including shaking my bootay with the girls, and two step, polka, waltz if there's a boy who knows how to lead); the phrase "I will end you"; volunteering; antiques; porch swings; swings (Like on the playground); Bailey's and hot chocolate; rocking chairs (especially on a porch or deck); wide open spaces; city skylines; charity work; pinwheels; Judaism; Kabbalah; sushi; beer tequila; yoga; golf; history; Ireland; the UK; World War II (especially the Holocaust - I know it's morbid, but I'm fascinated by it.); the "Old West"; Egypt; geography; the Roaring 20s; Jimmy Stewart; Clark Gable; Paul Newman; Rex Harrison; tattoos; picnics; warm towels out of the dryer; quality over quantity; full moons; the part of Fix You by Coldplay right before the end; words like "spot on" and "grand"; being surrounded by friends and loved ones; studies/cigar/smoking rooms; pubs; archive/special collection areas in university libraries; boats; shores; knots; suspension of disbelief; believing in the unbelievable; cooking; nutella; BBC; cheesecake; stargazer lillies; gerbera daisies; yellow roses; sterling roses; sunflowers; lampposts the smell of gas burning in a kerosene lamp; lighthouses; music; honeysuckle; wrap-around decks/porches; art; photography; baseball (Yankees); football (Aggies, Fightin' Irish, Longhorns, Cowboys); basketball (Spurs); horse racing; sirius radio; travel; kindred spirits; fairy tales; happy endings; irony; fate; destiny; contradiction; the smell of cigar and pipe smoke; Garfield comics; Norman Rockwell paintings; intelligence (major turn-on); passion (another major turn-on); soft, deep, husky, scratchy, resonant voices; and I really want one of these .

I'd like to meet:


William Petersen; The writers and cast of Grey's Anatomy; David Milch and the cast of Deadwood; Joss Whedon and the cast of Firefly and Serenity; Hugh Jackman; Taylor Hicks; Ashley Judd; Bono; Sarah Jessica Parker; Peter Sarsgaard; Elijah Wood; Norah Jones; Julia Roberts; Liev Schreiber; John Travolta; Robert Duvall; M. Night Shyamalan; J.R.R. Tolkein; Maeve Binchy; J.K. Rowling; Harry Connick Jr.; Ian McKellan; Julia Stiles; Robin Williams; Bill Engvall; Ellen Degeneres

Music:

Top Ten:
(1) Let Go -Frou Frou
(2) Desire -Ryan Adams
(3) Open Your Eyes -Snow Patrol
(4) Cannonball -Damien Rice
(5) Here With Me -Dido
(6) Mississippi -Train
(7) Set Fire To The Third Bar -Snow Patrol
(8) Somewhere A Clock Is Ticking -Snow Patrol
(9) Hide and Seek -Imogen Heap
(10) Bartender -Dave Matthews Band
My status as an ex-drum major and band dork makes me love this way more than I should. But I'm ok with that:

I am currently infatuated with Snow Patrol: Get up, get out, get away from these liars
'Cause they don't get your soul or your fire
Take my hand, knot your fingers through mine
And we'll walk from this dark room for the last time
Every minute from this minute now
We can do what we like anywhere
I want so much to open your eyes
'Cause I need you to look into mine
Open Your Eyes by Snow Patrol Pandora is fantastic!
In no particular order: Death Cab for Cutie (I'll Follow You Into The Dark); Ella Fitzgerald; Louis Armstrong; Frank Sinatra; Harry Connick, Jr.; Michael Buble (Home); Norah Jones (Sunrise); Jason Mraz; Rob Thomas; Matchbox Twenty; Train (Mississippi); Gomez (How We Operate); Jamie Lidell (Multiply); Ray Lamontagne; Keane; Franz Ferdinand; Sarah McLachlan (Wait); The White Stripes; Crystal Method; Linkin Park; Marilyn Manson; Stone Temple Pilots; Blue October; Ryan Adams (Desire); Junior Boys; Joshua Radin (His voice is magnificent); Amy Winehouse; The Fratellis; The Killers; Dave Matthews Band (Grace is Gone); Cory Morrow; Scott Joplin; Pat Green; Paula Cole (Tiger Lily); Cross Canadian Ragweed (Alabama); David Gray; Radney Foster (God Knows When); Damien Rice; Frou Frou (Let Go); Coldplay; Anna Nalick; Jem; Roisin Murphy (Ruby Blue); The Fray; cheesy 80's stuff; 3 Doors Down; Lifehouse; Default; Nickelback; Fleetwood Mac; Creedance Cleerwater Revival; KT Tunstall; Snow Patrol (Open Your Eyes); Jackson Browne; Steve Winwood; Dido; Annie Lennox; Sting; The Postal Service; Chris Isaak; Eric Clapton; The Eagles; The Beatles; Ben Folds; Leona Naess; Lenny Kravitz; Alanis Morisette; U2; Elton John; Nizlopi; I'm the queen of soundtracks. If I really like a movie, chances are I own the soundtrack. Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to lie
Life taught me to die
So it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannonball
Cannonball by Damien Rice

Movies:

Top Eleven (each of these movies changes my life every time I watch it):
(11) Return to Me
(10) Sliding Doors
(9) Paradise
(8) Love Actually
(7) French Kiss
(6) Garden State
(5) The Crow
(4) There Will Be Blood
(3) My Fair Lady
(2) Dear Frankie
(1) It's a Wonderful Life

The Ghost and Mrs. Muir (I love Rex Harrison!); Miss Potter; A Good Year; Equilibrium (1000 times better than The Matrix); The Professional; 40 Year-Old Virgin (I adore Steve Carell!); Finding Neverland; Pan's Labyrinth (moving/powerful/disturbing/touching); A Slipping Down Life; Mind the Gap; City of Angels; Lord of the Rings Trilogy; Harry Potters; Serendipity; Emma; Love Me If You Dare; Closer; The Boxer; Stay; The Wendell Baker Story; My Big Fat Greek Wedding; The Saint (Love Val Kilmer!); Everything is Illuminated; Philadelphia Story; Gone with the Wind; For Love of the Game; Blast from the Past(I love the dancing scene at Club 40s!!); Someone Like You; The Sting

Boondock Saints (Love the flashback scenes that show how they killed everyone.); No Reservations; Steel Magnolias; Because I Said So; Hitchhiker's Guide To The Galaxy; A Prairie Home Companion; Confidence; Band of Brothers; Lucky You; Under the Tuscan Sun; The Lake House; Runaway Bride; The Goodbye Girl; Pretty Woman; Life is Beautiful; Hairspray; Superman Returns; You've Got Mail; Laws of Attraction; Kiss Kiss Bang Bang; The Greatest Game Ever Played; Phenomenon; The Family Stone (I adore Luke Wilson's character, Ben!); Remember the Titans; Spanglish; Jarhead; Walk the Line; The Holiday; Last of the Mohicans; Raising Helen; Gods and Monsters (I adore the last scene where Brendan Fraser goes walking down the alley in the rain like Frankenstein's monster.); The Cutting Edge; Field of Dreams; Gladiator; The Departed (The blood spatter was a little too realistic, but that made it awesome!); Little Miss Sunshine (Kinda like Garden State for the 25 year-old me); Shakespeare in Love

The Mummy; American Beauty; The Untouchables; Moulin Rouge; Grosse Point Blank; Big Fish; What's Up Doc? American History X (Ed Norton is brilliant!); X-Men; X-2; X-Men: The Last Stand; Sleepers; Hope Floats; Becoming Jane; Good Will Hunting (fabulous, fabulous movie!!!); Tombstone; P.S. I Love You; Thunderheart; Old style Disney cartoons. The Pixar movies are cool, but these will always be my favorites: Robin Hood; Sleeping Beauty; Lady & The Tramp; Cinderella; The Sword in the Stone; The Breakfast Club; Inventing the Abbotts; V for Vendetta; The Village; Pride & Prejudice
Favorite Actors/Actresses: Ashley Judd; Lee Pace; William Petersen (I heart Grissom!); Ewan McGregor; Clive Owen; Julia Roberts; Hugh Grant; Natalie Portman; Hugh Jackman; Gwyneth Paltrow; Ian McShane (superb in Deadwood); David Duchovny; Gerard Butler; Joaquin Phoenix (love him in The Village); Julia Stiles; Luke Wilson; Brendan Fraser; Ian McKellen (Pure genius!); Leonardo DiCaprio ( Blood Diamond was every bit as brilliant as I thought it would be!); Djimon Hounsou; Russell Crowe; Paul Giamatti (great in Lady in the Water); Richard Gere; Kevin Kline (loved him in French Kiss); Val Kilmer; Jeremy Piven; Sandra Bullock; Kevin Costner; Sarah Jessica Parker; Ron Livingston; Elijah Wood; Liev Schreiber (intelligently hot); Hugh Laurie; Lisa Edelstein; Meg Ryan; Reese Witherspoon; Daniel Day Lewis; Robert Downey, Jr. (loved him in Kiss Kiss, Bang Bang); Josh Lucas; Minnie Driver (love her!); Diane Lane; Rachel Weisz; Steve Carell; John Hannah; John Cusack; Sandra Oh; Katherine Heigl (love her as Izzie in Grey's); Jeffrey Dean Morgan; Christian Bale; Rufus Sewell; Edward Norton; Pierce Brosnan; Greg Kinnear; Julia Ormond (stunningly beautiful in the remake of Sabrina)

Television:

Pushing Daisies; Moonlight; NCIS; CSI: Las Vegas; Grey's Anatomy; How I Met Your Mother; The Big Bang Theory; The Office; CSI: NY; House; Life; Private Practice; Scrubs; Coupling; Deadwood; Firefly; Sex and The City

Books:

Harry Potter! Bachelor Girl (totally opened my eyes to some stupid stereotypes that I unknowingly bought into...fabulous book!); Outlander (absolutely amazing!); Shopgirl; Castle in the Attic (I so wanted my dollhouse to come to life like his castle did!); The Glass Lake; Echoes; Evening Class; Chronicles of Narnia; The Rescue; Horse Whisperer; The Poisonwood Bible; Smoke Jumper; Message in a Bottle; Lonesome Dove; Streets of Laredo; Dead Man's Walk; Comanche Moon; Gone with the Wind (I adore Rhett!); Scarlett; The Da Vinci Code; God Wears Lipstick; The Red Tent; The Romanov Prophecy; The Rainmaker; Memoirs of a Geisha; Divine Secrets of the Ya-Ya Sisterhood; Scarlet Feather; Quentins; The Great Gatsby; White Oleander; Bookends; Brave New World; Tess of the d'Urbervilles; Joy Luck Club; Beloved; The Relic; Reliquary; Spellbound; Anne of Green Gables Novels; A Kiss of Shadows
Favorite Writers: Maeve Binchy; Larry McMurtry; Shonda Rhimes; David Milch; Bryan Fuller; Nicholas Sparks; Aaron Sorkin; J.K. Rowling; Jane Green; M. Night Shyamalan (He makes me speechless.)

Heroes:

Queen Elizabeth I, Beatrix Potter, Dr. Seuss, Pietro Ferrero, anyone who moves to the beat of their own drum without regard for what anyone else may think of themThis is awesome!

My Blog

it’s been awhile...

...so I just wanted to let everyone know that I'm still posting blogs on Culture Feast.  My most recent one is about Definitely, Maybe, and you can see all my postings here. Thanks for reading ...
Posted by ash on Wed, 14 May 2008 07:36:00 PST

brainwashed?

The slightly cynical side of me that switched my major from political science to journalism in the fall of 2002 because I realized that all I was ever going to do was sit around and talk about the pro...
Posted by ash on Tue, 04 Mar 2008 07:38:00 PST

enigma

I don't get it.  I'm a huge romantic, and I love cheesy books and movies in which everything really does end up happily ever after.  I mean, when I went to see The Lake House in the dollar t...
Posted by ash on Fri, 21 Sep 2007 07:30:00 PST

Gloating and Vindication

This is totally silly, but I love the song Grace is Gone by Dave Matthews Band.  The first time I heard it, I was riding back from the Houston airport upon my return from London, and I promptly d...
Posted by ash on Tue, 14 Aug 2007 11:52:00 PST

creepy dude

Ok, so the dude from match.com who's been staring at me all day is really bugging me.
Posted by ash on Tue, 10 Apr 2007 12:19:00 PST

words of comfort...words of wisdom...words of joy

"i beg you...to have patience with everything unresolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves as if they were locked rooms or books written in a very foreign language. don't search f...
Posted by ash on Tue, 10 Apr 2007 08:29:00 PST

Singin' in the Rain

Ok, so yeah, it's not even close to raining, but my iPod just graced me with this song, and it always puts a smile on my face, so I decided to share with y'all I'm singing in the rainJust singing in ...
Posted by ash on Thu, 05 Apr 2007 08:56:00 PST

No Grey's...yet...

I didn't watch it tonight. I went to the Stars game for free, and they won! When I watch it, I'm sure a blog will follow shortly thereafter...sorry for the delay :( Amuse yourselves with whatever c...
Posted by ash on Fri, 16 Mar 2007 09:24:00 PST

More Grey's

I finally got around to responding to everyone's comments from yesterday, so if you want to read my responses, and comment some more, check it out....
Posted by ash on Sun, 25 Feb 2007 05:29:00 PST

for Danielle...

...and all the other Grey's lovers...this one has to be short because I'm really busy at work today, but here goes... Denny and Izzie made me ball at the end.  For some reason, Meredith and Ellis...
Posted by ash on Fri, 23 Feb 2007 07:31:00 PST