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(not a groupie)

Keep calm and carry on.

About Me


I am just Jill. Nothing to get excited about. I like music. Okay, I'm a spaz. This playlist will say more about me than my mouth ever will ...
I don't talk much. I was disciplined for it growing up with check marks on a blackboard or mornings in detention. Lessons learned I suppose. I like to talk, but I'm more of a listener/observer. If you see me at a show, I'll probably be by myself with arms crossed and foot rhythmically in motion, just taking it all in. I do not have a poker face. The lines on my face, the shape of my brow and the curve of my lips are pretty easy to read. I try to be a lover and not a fighter; unless you try to wrestle me, then I get kinda mean. I grew up playing football and had wrestling team friends, so I instantly get defensive. There are maybe three fields I haven't worked in: real estate, law and medicine. I've done pretty much everything else. I was born on the Sag/Cap cusp which doesn't help with the identity crisis. I've pretty much been summed up as a one of the guys girl next door rocker chick indie nerd. Yeah. Uhm. I have several physical ailments that no one in my family has had. I think I was adopted and my real father is Paul McCartney. Sometimes all I want is love. Sometimes all I want is a cigarette and a stiff drink. People keep telling me that I'm a writer. I don't really know what that means, but I'm trying to figure it out ... along with everything else.
I occasionally submit reviews on NashvilleRock.net. Click the banner below to see my INDIE BRAT column about the locals.
Mostly I manage a few dot coms, write press releases and bios, create concert flyers, assist with venue booking and talent sourcing, critique work tapes and rough mixes, attempt to write lyrics and listen to music nearly every second of every day.
With every battle there is a protest song, with every wall there is a wrecking ball, and with every youthful heart there is an uneasy rhythm that has to be expressed. A voice of revolt and defeat whispers with a megaphone in my flickering synapses.
Overall, I am just Jill. Somebody has to be.

My Interests



FAQ's
Q: What's the deal with your display name?
A: When I was living with the my folks a few years ago and would leave every Thursday to visit Music Row, my mom would say "Bye groupie! Be careful." Later, a few girls and I were talking about trying to get on Kings of Leon's tour bus, by saying "But we're not groupies!" So the groupie moniker stuck after that, but I attend lots of concerts as a fan, writer, curious member of society, not a groupie nor a sycophant.

Q: Do you compose music or play an instrument?
A: No. I write what I call random streams of consciousness, not particularly poems or lyrics, and mostly when I need to release a thought or two. I was in the beginner stage of guitar when a wrist accident ended my strumming days. I sold my guitar because I couldn't bear looking at it and not being able to play it. I've been told that I'm a natural drummer, but the wrist just won't allow it.

Q: What is your middle name?
A: Jill.

Q: What is your favorite color?
A: Green.

Q: Who is your Top 3 of all time?
A: The top two never change, Led Zeppelin and The Beatles, while number three changes every few years, having been REM, Stroke 9, Lenny Kravitz, Nirvana, Coldplay, U2, and is currently Radiohead.

Q: Why do you care about music so much?
A: My folks, as great as they are, pretty much left raising me to my ability to entertain myself, so most of my youth was spent listening to records and singing songs alone in my room. Not having the best interpersonal skills, my artistic talents and music knowledge became my niche - the things that others came to depend on me for - my identity if you will. So while I cannot create music, I am constantly searching for the songs that say what I can't, which ignites my curiosity about the artist, their work and music history as a whole. I'm still listening and learning.

Stumble It!

I'd like to meet:

Paul, Ringo, Thom, Bono and Robert.

Music:


If I get old, I will not give in, But if I do, Remind me of this, Remind me that, Once I was free, Once I was cool, Once I was me, And if I sat down, And crossed my arms, Hold me into, This song, Knock me out, Smash out my brains, If I take a chair, Start to talk shit, If I get old, Remind me of this, That night we kissed, And I really meant it, Whatever happens, If we're still speaking, Pick up the phone, Play me this song.
- "A Reminder" by Radiohead

Eargasms:

As for the locals:

Movies:


To all of (not a groupie)'s readers: I am NAG (aka Jill)'s pal Danny. I have decided to create a list of movie qualities that all come together to be, what I have often jested with Jill to be a "Jill movie." These qualities are as follows: - Several characters who's stories inter-twine, often ending in tragedy (I BET she loved 'Crash') - A gay couple in the film, but not ALL THE TIME - Drug and/or alcohol abuse by parents and/or characters who just should not use these things - An appearance by Eric Stoltz, or some other actor who is good (maybe from the 80's or 90s), but not truly recognized (Eric is just a damn good example) - Someone is "coming of age" at some point in the movie and/or they are doing negative things to prolong the "coming of age" part - There is some sort of death, either at the beginning, or at the end, and it is key to the plot - Everything seems to somewhat tie together at the end to create some kind of point, but they kind of let you figure you out - Every character appears normal on the outside but is completely F'd up when you get to know them a bit... That's my Jill... And I love her movies.
Watch over and over:

Television:


Good for watching movies on ... now that I work from home, I usually wake up with The View, catch a little Oprah, then cap the night off with whatever crime or family dramas are on. If nothing else, I pop in my Dawson's Creek, Weeds or Flight of the Conchords DVDs ... or I just turn the wretched thing off.

Books:


Living and dying (fiction or non), music, pop culture, ethics, philosophy, psychology text books and case studies. In the midst of: The Craft of Lyric Writing.

Read over and over:

Heroes:


Eric Stoltz, Holden Caulfield, Scout Finch, Susanna Kaysen, Baby Houseman, Joey Potter, Wolverine and people who make music.
"Without music, life would be a mistake." ( Nietzsche )
"Q: What's it like having a writer's block? How does it work in practice, or doesn't work in practice? Thom: What's it like? (long silence) It's like losing someone you love!"
"The whole point is the music flows over you. Music is basically like mathematics, you know, and basically you're trying to form patterns, patterns that make you understand what is around you and patterns that help you get through the next day. Like when I listen to the radio and stuff and when I hear a new piece of music that I know I just got to get a hold of it because I know it's going to help me get through a particular thing until the next one. It's life affirming. The whole point of music is it's life affirming."
"Music is the most important thing in my life, and I have no wish to be chickenshit."
"A lot of creative people hear voices, a lot a creative people have crazy thoughts, a lot of creative people want to jump off bridges. So fucking what?" ( Thom Yorke )
"You have to lose. You have to learn how to die if you wanna wanna be alive." ( Wilco )
"Yes, there are two paths you can go by, but in the long run there's still time to change the road you're on." ( Led Zeppelin )
"The world demands to be described, and so painters, poets, journalists, pornographers and sitcom writers, by accident or by design, are just following orders, whether from high or low, to describe the world they're in." ( Bono )
"Me? I'm scared of everything. I'm scared of what I saw, I'm scared of what I did, of who I am, and most of all I'm scared of walking out of this room and never feeling the rest of my whole life the way I feel when I'm with you." ( Baby Houseman )

My Blog

small town nashville

I've been a Nashvillian for nearly two months now, and it's slowly but surely beginning to feel like home. My first week here I earned a ticket for not going through a yellow light fast enough. My sec...
Posted by (not a groupie) on Thu, 16 Oct 2008 08:54:00 PST

debate drinking game

This Wednesday evening, Obama and McCain will meet in Hempstead, New York, for their final debate. If these events have started to blend together, why not grab a bottle or two of your favorite tipple...
Posted by (not a groupie) on Sat, 11 Oct 2008 07:04:00 PST

good case of the mondays

Happy Monday!! I'm giddy and excitable today after spending yesterday in bed. My allergies condemned me with swollen lymph nodes, a scratchy throat and an ear ache, oddly all on the left side of my he...
Posted by (not a groupie) on Mon, 06 Oct 2008 11:59:00 PST

reviews

so it's wednesday and i have neglected my weekly sunday blogs. i haven't had much to report. i've been kinda down and out about christopher pizza closing and the effect it's had on my cash flow. i was...
Posted by (not a groupie) on Wed, 01 Oct 2008 03:58:00 PST

[this] much closer to thom

At noon tomorrow, David Byrne of Talking Heads will be at Grimey's to meet fans and sign autographs before his Ryman show that evening ... which means if I go, I'll not only be in the presence of indi...
Posted by (not a groupie) on Sun, 21 Sep 2008 10:27:00 PST

CPC is CLOSING

From our esteemed blogger Max Beizer: This is not a test-- Christopher has decided to close the Christopher Pizza Company.After 5 years of keeping the lights on, we will be closing the doors for ...
Posted by (not a groupie) on Mon, 08 Sep 2008 02:38:00 PST

blog for danny (feat. MGMT)

Hi Danny! Last night you said that my last blog didn't really inspire a comment from you per usual, so try this one because I miss making you listen to music against your will!! This song is at the bo...
Posted by (not a groupie) on Wed, 27 Aug 2008 12:41:00 PST

cocktail napkins and mr. jones

Last night I had several options of entertainment to choose from; but no matter what I chose, I was going solo. I did not want to sit at home nor did I want to hang out where I work. I showered, dress...
Posted by (not a groupie) on Mon, 25 Aug 2008 06:05:00 PST

be aggressive. be-e aggressive.

"There's always something to write about. If there's not then you need to live life more aggressively."  -Min Kim"The point of blogs is not to write them but to read them." -Don't RememberSo if t...
Posted by (not a groupie) on Tue, 19 Aug 2008 04:59:00 PST

just so you know

1. I looked at a room for rent in Nashville today. The location is right. The rent is right. It looks like I'm headed for the "big city" again in a few weeks.2. I've got a new gig with a record label....
Posted by (not a groupie) on Wed, 06 Aug 2008 11:37:00 PST