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giasono

Sure, it'll hurt later.....but right now it feels REAL GOOD!!!!

About Me

I am on a journey to the land of me- a place of true solace, and riotous laughter, filled with amazing experiences and emotion in its truest sense. It has been a long road, but for some reason, the biggest bumps seem more manageable, and as I continue on this trek, I find that my smiles are longer lasting, my breathing is fuller, and my heart is more fervent. Defeat is beginning to seem impossible as I have finally FINALLY begun to love this journey- with all of its unexpected turns, setbacks and falls, for now I remember that the voyage of a thousand miles starts with a single step. I joyfully move forward, yearning to hear my beautiful soul's voice, and knowing fully that I know nothing at all, embracing that void with open arms and widening my eyes to see the goodness in all things. May I keep on this path- the wants of others have delayed my parting too long, and I've wearied of the commonality of my former self, and while the newness of the unknown is unsettling, the vibration within its seams is somehow lulling and leads me on. Any travellers I find on this journey are most welcome- a walk is nothing without the guidance of friends and loved ones, and maybe, just maybe, we'll be on this journey together forever. But if not, know that you have made an indelible footprint in my conscious, no matter how brief our encounter. Jason --
[noun]:
A real life terminator
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You are Storm!You are very strong and very protective of those you love. You are in tune with nature and are very concerned with justice and humanity. Unfortunately, certain apprehensions and fears are very hard for you to overcome, and can often inhibit you when most need to be strong.
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Your favorite thing to say in the bedroom is: Its hammer time
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"Trouser Anaconda"
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[noun]:
A master of sexual gratification
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how jedi are you? :: by lawrie malen
You Are a Dreaming Soul
Your vivid emotions and imagination takes you away from this world
So much so that you tend to live in your head most of the time
You have great dreams and ambitions that could be the envy of all...
But for you, following through with your dreams is a bit difficult
You are charming, endearing, and people tend to love you.
Forgiving and tolerant, you see the world through rose colored glasses.
Underneath it all, you have a ton of passion that you hide from others.
Always hopeful, you tend to expect positive outcomes in your life.
Souls you are most compatible with: Newborn Soul, Prophet Soul, and Traveler Soul What Kind of Soul Are You?
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My Interests

Hot dogs, spiritual awakenings, good friends, singing opera, awesome sex, great literature, Antiques Roadshow, Humor, Excitement, Quinley, Benubi, Katie, Audrea, being more and more myself everyday Jason Jackson will go to jail for ...

Making sweet love to a religious symbol

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I'd like to meet:

I think I've already met him.
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Music:

Furh die duhr dee doo buhrlipadoo... beehrm beduhrdimbadee BJORK BJORK BJORK!!!!! I'm an opera buff and am getting back into singing it, and I think I can actually say that I like a representative of every musical style, even heavy metal- THANKS CARSON!!!

Movies:

Brokeback Mountain, American Beauty, Philadelphia, Dancer in the Dark (BJORK BJORK BJORK), Stewie:the Untold Story, The Color Purple, Crash, and ALL Y'ALL GAS GUZZLIN GREEDY SONS O' BITCHES NEED TO WATCH AN INCONVENIENT TRUTH!!!!!!

Television:

LAME!!!!!!!! That pretty much sums it up- yep. Except for: The Weather Channel, The Discovery Channel and the like, PBS, and Cartoon Network (ADULT SWIM ANIME ROCKS MY BOX!!!!)

Books:

Right now, I am reading a book of collected readings by Khalil Gibran- it is such beautiful and brilliant emotion on paper- it is something that we should all aspire to. I am also reading Same Sex Unions in Pre-Modern Europe, and The Tenth Insight, as well as Angels and Demons. But, I'm not getting very far in any of them.

Heroes:

JEM!! Jem is truly outrageous, truly truly truly outrageous!!! WHOA JEM!!! JEM the music's contagious....Jem is her name, no one else is the same, Jem is her na- WE ARE THE MISFITS! OUR SONGS ARE BETTER!! Those whores! they could never compare to Jem. Incidentally, did anyone ever stop to think that Jem and the Holograms walked around naked all the time? I mean, their outfits were just holograms. Now THAT'S truly outrageous! JEM!!!

My Blog

ultra-sensitivity

So, lately, I have become a pretty sensitive guy- to a point that I haven't been, really.  And it has to do with my race.There have been a few jokes made that aren't really that bad, but they did...
Posted by giasono on Mon, 09 Jun 2008 10:34:00 PST

the anniversary

It is officially the one year anniversay of my father's death.I still can't believe he's gone sometimes.  That old grief cycle just keeps cycling and cycling and cycling.  I feel extremely w...
Posted by giasono on Sun, 01 Jun 2008 11:59:00 PST

a new and serious frustration

Do any of you know about Sean Bell?  Well, if you don't, let me tell you about him.Sean Bell is a guy who was shot by the New York Police Department.  50 times.  In his car, on his wedd...
Posted by giasono on Sat, 26 Apr 2008 02:58:00 PST

the space between

Today I have another birth anniversary, and I find alot of conflicting feelings stil pervade. I feel extremely sorrowful, and hopeful, and confused, and angry, and adored, and anxious. I find myself q...
Posted by giasono on Mon, 24 Mar 2008 10:49:00 PST

what do you do....

..... when you know no one understands and you feel ashamed to grieve in front of anyone because you feel like you have to keep their feelings in mind?..... when someone says the word "fag" as a joke ...
Posted by giasono on Sun, 09 Mar 2008 10:16:00 PST

happy birthday dad

today is Dad's birthday.I feel profoundly sad.  I haven't cried this much since the week of the funeral.  I cried alot on Tuesday night, and on Wednesday, and Thursday.  And some on Fri...
Posted by giasono on Mon, 03 Mar 2008 04:21:00 PST

the newest phase

So, the latest part of my grief?Dreams.I have had three dreams about my Dad in the last week and a half.  I actually just had one today during a nap.  Man- I keep breaking into tears thinkin...
Posted by giasono on Wed, 06 Feb 2008 12:10:00 PST

another first

So, another blog about how I'm dealing with my father's death.If you don't want to read this, fuck you, don't read it.But I'm gonna write it.A bit harsh, you say?  well, yeah, it is.  I feel...
Posted by giasono on Fri, 01 Feb 2008 10:44:00 PST

drinking can sometimes bring clarity

This one will be short.So, I went to the bar.  I was depressed and I had a couple of drinks and I realized something.  It made alot of sense, and kinda gave me a sense of, well, peace, for l...
Posted by giasono on Fri, 18 Jan 2008 12:19:00 PST

What do you do when....

.....you realize you don't like someone of your own family?So, I finally talked to my brother.  It started off with us yelling.  He said the same things he had been saying before, except, he...
Posted by giasono on Fri, 18 Jan 2008 05:46:00 PST