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I A M N O O N E

About Me


this thanksgiving i am thankful for many things. besides family and friends, which obviously dont suck (for the most part.). i guess... i am thankful that i can see. and that i can still HOLD my pee... thankful i still have all my fingers in working condition, (but you know, i still dont have any artistic ambition.) although life at most times is a jerk- i can still work. i shouldnt complain, im still walking, still giving, although i wish that my life would quit living.
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i USED to do----
i found what i thought i was looking for, now i exist only for it. i dont do anything, think only injuring thoughts, and what i used to be is a coveted memory. i dont even dream anymore.
i feel more --- (and more like a hack)
----------------------------------------------------- i am like you, you fucking shit. a human being. one thing does not regulate, rule, what or who i am as a whole.. a whole is too much to speak upon... a completED thought never fucking existed.... AND IT NEVER WILL.
"all of my words are second hand and useless in the face of this".
"NO ONES HEARD A SINGLE WORD I'VE SAID, THEY DONT SOUND AS GOOD OUTSIDE MY HEAD"
whats going to happen now?
am i finally adapting?
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"we cant paint any pictures as the moon had all our brushes."
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My Interests

i USED to collect:
insects (non living), bones, animals (non living), (at some point in time they were living. .. maybe i helped them along a little.) teeth, dried flowers, books, scientific instruments, dolls, mannequins, rusted things, bottles... things i like.
http://www.nightmarezone.de/cinemastrange/Main.html
deathrock.com
"This is the place where death rejoices to teach those who live." Latin ("Hic locus est ubi mors gaudet succurrere vitae")
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i USED to create:
art - visual, emotional, drawn, painted, 3-d, bring to life figures made of clay. how vauge can i be.

i (USED TO) have a brain, or i USED to think so. but now, i dont know anymore. NO, know i know, and i dont know anything anymore.

i (USED to be)interested in people who can hold a conversation. who have something of a brain, with thoughts that consist of more than 15 or so words. (but now i cant keep up, nothing is worth sharing anymore.)
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god damn it.
being depressed? oh ha ha ha. i am so funny. but i am serious, fuck you if you think anything otherwise. there is so much that goes into that. why should i go into it. its almost as though i need to be depressed to be myself.

i cant fucking wait to get an art studio. maybe then, i will not feel like i am literally wasting everything. to see more of my interests, if you're sincerely interested, go to deviantart.com i am "nemo-is-dead" -

I'd like to meet:

NO ONE.

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Music:

===PARDON MY ANTI-ORDER=== (favorites in all capital letters)- (i like more music than this, but in my own opinion, i feel it necessary for ME to own at least an album to claim i am in like with a group.)
-Industrial music
-NINE INCH NAILS (the fragile and before... none of the new... shit, i suppose.)
-CINEMA STRANGE-LEATHER STRIP
-pigface
-rammstein
-DEPECHE MODE
-the cure
-CHRISTIAN DEATH
-smashing pumpkins
-prodigy
-the dresden dolls
-u2
-new order
-nina hagen
-some marilyn manson
-BAUHAUS
-radiohead
-THE SISTERS OF MERCY
-SIOUSXIE AND THE BANSHEES
-PINK FLOYD
-violent femmes
-old old jazz
-skinny puppy
-some instrumental, like rachels..
-classical
-otis redding
-necrophagia
-THERE IS JUST TOO MUCH TO LIST, I QUIT.
-Dead Kennedys
-(and fuck if i cant remember the rest, because just as when i want something, i dont have the information ready. just like when i go into a music store, i forget everything i came there for)

Movies:

**i give credit to friends (and chris, specifically) for exposing me to some movies that i would have otherwise never seen without their aid. some of these movies are for art sake, and mean something important to me. i cant explain what i mean. ** YOU know what movie was really fucking depressing? the trial, it was made in the 50's i think.. black and white. based off of franz kafkas short story. I FUCKING HATE that movie. it was too depressing. that has never happened before. me to get this way over a movie.-PINK FLOYD THE WALL
-a clockwork orange (book is better... well, let me expound upon that thought.. the book and the movie are revered in my mind as seperate entities, because each of them has its own quality that the other doesnt really touch base upon. for what the book is, its great. and for what the movie became, is great.)
-VANILLA SKY
-Der Todesking
-rocky horror picture show
-edward scissorhands
-aftermath
-faces of death
-beetlejuice
-planet of the dinosaurs
-dellamorte, dellamore
-DAHMER
-CANNIBAL
-EL TOPO
-the city of lost children
-akira
-donnie darko
-the cabinet of doctor calligari (b&w)
-dr.jeckyl mr. hyde (b&W)
-jacobs ladder is awesome.. if you liked silent hill you should fucking see this, ass, for you know not of what you miss.
-virtual assassin there dan i did it
-the stuff (pitifully done, makes it hilarious.)
-se7en
-CANNIBAL HOLOCAUST
-jesus christ vampire hunter!
-fear and loathing in las vegas
-pulp fiction
-may
-mirrormask
-the 1979 version of the little mermaid by starmaker, where her sisters cut off all their hair to cut a deal with the sea witch, and she turns into sea foam in the end, and the prince knew then only after she died that, as he found her hair barette and fish scales, it was her the whole time. that makes me cry every time. and yet i can enjoy the sight of other things, that have made other people sick, and they have no effect on me..
its right here. a clip, spoken in french.-eraserhead
-Singapore sling (fucking awesome)-street trash!
-uzumaki
-a tale of two sisters
-the original hills have eyes
-citizen toxie
-red neck zombies
-NEKRomantik (thanks to chris for showing meee)
- and more...

Television:

i hate tv. but some stuff that i dont hate that happens to be on it..... adult swim is good, some of it. some of it however, is stupid as hell. i do like squidbillies alot, though, they have managed to capture the "true essence and unfortunate reality of some red necks" i use the television for movies, or video games. oh yes, video games are very good. silent hill 2 is the best game i have ever played. of course there is final fantasy 7, which is a close rival, and ico (beautiful everything, not the dolphin game, but the boy with horns who, for that specific ailment, is sent away to be sacrificed, but instead he manages to escape.... and there is more). list: fatal frame, mortal kombat (old versions, not this new shit) castlevania (old sega version) old mario games, pac man, silent hill 1, 2, and 4, part three was humiliating to human kind, tecmos deception, i dont remember at the moment what else. oh, wait.. TETRIS.

Books:

THE CATCHER IN THE RYE - J.D. Salinger
the bell jar - sylvia plath
siddhartha - herman hesse
brave new world - aldous huxley
clockwork orange - dont remember
night / dawn - eli wiesel
american psycho
franz kafka's short stories
emily dickenson poetry
shakespeare
GREAT EXPECTATIONS
poe
jeremy jewells poetry... where is that kid nowadays?
joy luck club - amy tan
MEDICAL ANOMALIES AND CURIOSITIES OF MEDICINE
science textbooks - yes...
serial killer encyclopedias
literature textbooks
art books
go ask alice
their eyes were watching god - zora neil hurston?
maybe its not a book, but i thuroughly enjoyed reading armorfelix2001's replys on deviantart.
YOSHITAKA AMANO's collected prints
neil gaiman the sandman graphic novels
neil gaiman - the comical tradgedy, or tragical comedy, of mr. punch.
the tarot cafe
neil gaiman the sandman dream hunters
DAVID MACK's KABUKI (amazing art)
ranma 1/2 - rumilo takahashi
vampire princess miyu (the original, not that new crap)
THE MARTIAN CHRONICLES - ray bradbury
crime encyclopedias, serial killer books, old medical books, DICTIONARIES (i like those.)
at the end of the year in high school, i would go to all the lockers that were left with no locks and take selected textbooks, or library books, or whatever others were left behind.
i have a library of my own, but i dont have time to read as much anymore. (yet i have more so lately..) and this is my fault, that i dont do anything.

Heroes:

i dont have any heroes.

My Blog

some well needed advice given, should have been to me.

i dont know either. and i am not saying anything i do is correct, but i TRY to just be a good person to others and MYSELF too... then, if there is a god, then i am ok. and if there  is not a god ...
Posted by i dont know anything on Thu, 01 Nov 2007 08:26:00 PST

whats this neat

www.doll-house.jp/el.html
Posted by i dont know anything on Fri, 21 Sep 2007 07:16:00 PST

i take some things seriously.

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Posted by i dont know anything on Fri, 15 Jun 2007 09:40:00 PST

how, how i wish you were here........

type the 1ST thing that comes to mind whenever you hear these 37 things. (and i am looking not at format, but at something else. its not noticeable. or maybe i give things like this too much credit. b...
Posted by i dont know anything on Sat, 26 May 2007 05:55:00 PST

of a killing dream - and the answer is yes, and no. again.

dream.all i can remember:in the woods, very, very dark. me and chris. and perhaps some kids wandering the woods, they might have been doing drugs, they were being loud - brought about by a story told ...
Posted by i dont know anything on Mon, 30 Apr 2007 10:53:00 PST

Maceration - Using bacterial action to clean bone and Dermestids

Notes:Maceration - Using bacterial action to clean bone This is the simplest method of cleaning bone. Remove any remaining tissue or hide from the boneImmerse the bone in a containe...
Posted by i dont know anything on Fri, 20 Apr 2007 07:14:00 PST

for all you Conglomerate Entities out there...

prompted by an email someone sent me asking how the good life was treating me. interesting imagery, i want to make this fountain. i do. i do. ----good.. life...? same sentence?! i dont understand the...
Posted by i dont know anything on Fri, 30 Mar 2007 10:08:00 PST

brings a tear to my heart..

7] Who's on your mind right now? sarah(:my seester.
Posted by i dont know anything on Thu, 29 Mar 2007 04:03:00 PST

pig heart

heeey......my friend justin, whom i work with at michaels, came in yesterday, as i was calling him to explain an order he took that i didnt know what to do with, and he said hey i got something for ya...
Posted by i dont know anything on Fri, 02 Mar 2007 09:25:00 PST

i am an ox

what i am NOT, i highlighted with red ... *excerpt = (i actually make a conscious effort to understand others. and i am sucessfull.. so this part is not me. not that i take this stuff literal, but the...
Posted by i dont know anything on Sun, 18 Feb 2007 08:44:00 PST