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Jordan

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About Me



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I grew up fierce, but I wanted to be soft. I have lived most of my life alone, but always hungry for family. I grew up afraid of my beauty, but more afraid to be without it. What I want most is to create a world where everyone knows the truth of their divine nature, where no one doubts that they are loved, and where our dreams dictate our reality. I want to give up worshiping my pain, like it was my creator. I am ready to find where love was always the reason.

My Interests

Structuring sustainablity. Creating structures in my life and in the world that will sustain over time. This isn't easy, and the process is beginning with me. Our brains are moldable structures and the possibility for neuronal connections in each human brain is greater then the number of atoms in the universe to the power of 2, which basically tells us that the human brain has limitless potential. I am exploring this potentential in a non traditional fashion. I am exploring the concept of human worth when not tied to external sources. I am examining what it is at the core of all things that connects us to everything so that I can understand why we came to exist. I live to learn and grow and question and love and then to create from these spaces.

I'd like to meet:

People who want to grow and make the world a place worth living. People who aren't afraid to look at themselves honestly and bleed a little bit with the pain of the world so that healing can begin.

Music:

Bjork. Built for the Sea. Minipop. Eryka Badu. Jill Scott. Tool. Portishead. Prince. Blondie. Ciabo Mato. MIA. Radio Head. Perfect Circle. System of a Down. Morcheeba. Mozart. The White Stripes. The Gorillaz. Foo Fighters. The Counting Crows. The Pretenders. Mazzy Star. PJ Harvey. I love old jazz vocals, stand up bass, and classical guitar. I really like Cat Stevens. David Bowie. Simon and Garfunkel. The Beatles. The Silversun Pickups. Lauren Hill. Donna Summers. Modest Mouse. Ani DiFranco. Pharcyde. Kanye West. Missy Elliot. 50 cent. fabalous. T- Pain. Jimmy Eat World. The Yeah Yeah Yeahs. The Cure. The Violent Femmes. Le Tigra. The Smashing Pumpkins. Sound Garden. Alice in Chains.

Movies:

The Scent Of Fresh Papya (this movie is a quiet meditation of beauty, cinematography, and the musical score is astounding. I love this movie): American Beauty (this movie changed my life): The Fifth Element(hot, funny, creative, and fabulous!): Hedwig (I saw it six times in the theatre and the live play, and I play the soundtrack really loud in my car and sing it at the top of my lungs): Sean of the Dead(this is the only movie about zombies I have ever liked): Faranheit 911(this movie made me cry for two hours): Pretty in Pink(I'm still waiting for my prom to end like that): Princess Bride(because I am a cheesy romantic): The Labrynth(David Bowie was the first gender queer I ever saw, and I found him amazingly hot!)Elizabeth(sometimes in my head I imagine that I'm her. It brings a regal moment to the otherwise mundane. And my god the woman is hot): The Goonies: Elephunt(The movie is done is continous takes and is amazing. The cinemetography astounding, the material a little harsh), Mi Vie en Rose(pretty pretty boy), Pipi Longstockings(this movie is the reason that I know I can be anything I want, and it taught me that little girls can be strong and smart and have mismatched tights and still be cool), Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind (although I blame this movie for keeping me a month longer in a relationship then I otherwise would have):Samurai Jack(Brilliant. Brilliant. Brilliant): Shakespear in Love(I'm not sure why I love this film, I think its the costumes. Gwenyths breasts and Jeffry in tights, Yummy): But I'm a Cheerleader (there are just too many wonderful things to say about this movie.)The Never Ending Story.

Television:

I used to watch way too much of the Simpsons. Project Runway, and I was facsinated for a short time by the Simple Life.

Books:

The Passion: Midnights Children: The God of Small Things (Arandati Roy is miraculous). Their Eyes were Watching God: The Color Purple: Where the Sidewalk Ends: Anne Of Green Gables: Little Women: Jude a comedy of Justice: the Harry Potter series, Said the Shotgun to the Head.

Heroes:

Big ballsie people who never let the word "crazy" stop them from changing the world.

My Blog

Choose the Happy

My mom wrote to me lately and told me after reading a few of my blog posts that I should "choose the happy." I've been dealing with alot and processing through my blogs has been really helpful fo...
Posted by Jordan on Tue, 10 Jun 2008 01:13:00 PST

Thoughts from Saturday afternoon

I cannot pay my rent. Entering my house when I know I have no legal right to be here is filling me with shame I haven't felt since I worked at the Lusty Lady. Its weird how when I was working there I ...
Posted by Jordan on Mon, 09 Jun 2008 12:27:00 PST

Driving for Love

I love driving alone, although my sister is one of the best driving companions, as she is capable of sitting for long periods of time without talking. We head out in any direction, with no particicula...
Posted by Jordan on Thu, 29 May 2008 02:38:00 PST

Honey Comb

So that this songs meaning isn't taken out of context, I thought I would give it some background. I wrote this song a few years ago. It is written from the butch/male perspective. I wrote this after e...
Posted by Jordan on Thu, 29 May 2008 02:19:00 PST

Something Old

Written 1.26.01 I can see painFeel it like rain on my neckCold trickling down my backLike fear Do you ever feel lonliness Holding you down with the truth? Our bodies bind our soulsAnd leave us life lo...
Posted by Jordan on Tue, 27 May 2008 12:12:00 PST

Recycling

Three of my favorite blog posts ..TR> Life After Death There was a day when the need for me exceeded all of my need to runawaySo I was thereThere was a time when watching my mother hit my sisterC...
Posted by Jordan on Sun, 25 May 2008 04:31:00 PST

How to change the world in 90 days

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Posted by Jordan on Fri, 23 May 2008 01:23:00 PST

Timeline

10:00 am wake up - Eat the remainder of the bag of chocolate covered pretzels.Take shower. 10:20 hair and make-up, get dressed11:00 Make milkshake with high calorie protien powder and soyrizo burrito1...
Posted by Jordan on Thu, 22 May 2008 01:25:00 PST

Because we there was a time when we only talked with our eyes

I wrote this song quite a little while ago, but recently I have found a knew love for it. Not because it reminds me of anyone who is Japanese and very naughty. God's little note I wrote my life on pos...
Posted by Jordan on Wed, 21 May 2008 01:34:00 PST

How to have great sex - The guide to better living

First of all I don't want anyone responding to this telling me about how they had to whack off after reading this. When women talk about masturbation its erotic, when men or masculine women do it's re...
Posted by Jordan on Tue, 20 May 2008 01:57:00 PST