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ADD.MESSAGE.COMMENT.NEWW BLOGG. alex: "a free person who's plagued with a lot of shit she doesnt need".
i dont believe that anyone feels the way i do about you now

im alex; and i will deepen your dysfunction. im not exactly a simple concept to grasp but goodluck trying. im naturally unlike others. i have a way with words. im riding the wave of self destruction. i dont feel much these days. at this point, im only looking for something or someone to make me feel even the slightest bit better. i hate being left alone. skepticism runs through my veins. i have both a manic and addictive personality. ima hell of a lot better with a pen or a keyboard under my fingers than i am in person. trust me. i have an opinion about everything. im racked full of selfdoubt. i only look forward to corey's visits. my head is filled with people and things it doesnt need. i blame myself for everything-hence all the apologies. ive become immuned to things not working out and people walking out. i am predictably unpredictable. i treat people the way others have treated me so be careful. i have no use for recycled phrases and i dont swoon over cheesy words so save them all for the next girl you come across. i think the worst of everyone. i can be completely unemotional at times. i never stop pondering what could have been. hell, i never stop pondering period. i still believe i can save someone and im still hoping someone will save me. i listen to dcfc like its nobody's business. im afraid of major things and severe changes. i hate and suck at making decisions. i know my limits but it doesnt hurt to live on the edge. i can be difficult but i am never too much to handle. i can talk about music and independant films for hours. my profanity level has gone up a couple of notches; however, i still never cuss near adriana; you need to do the same. i live to explore and experiment. there's nothing easy about me. i still have morals; respect them. whether you believe it or not, im not made out of stone. i seem to care most for those who care less. dont take me out for a testrun-im not a fucking car. you're either with me or you're not. huge egos and arrogance disgust me. i never feel like im good enough. i hate being underestimated. i stay strong for the people around me. i get treated like shit by the people i give my all to. i'll sacrifice my happiness for yours every time. the few people i love mean the world to me and then some. all in all, im just a mere puppet on a lonely string.
"i would rather make good records than good relationships."
everynight is a funked up dream
life is nothing more than what you, yourself can make it.
realize your beauty, your point in life & know that people will always be there for you;
and if they arent then you have to:
do whatever it is that makes you as happy as you deserve to be.
you have inner & outer beauty that shines in the darkest of light.