Writing And Listening To Music. Computers. Web Page Design. Futurama. Red Vs. Blue. Cooking. Time. Quantum Mechanics. Quantum Physics. Freedom of Artistic Expression. Third Dementional Ideas. Looking deep down inside, finding the true person and how and why he sees the world like he does. Space and why we are here. the origins of the begining. to look past what society says is true. and find your own truth.
I'd like to meet:
Someone who knows what they want out of life. is'nt afraid to stand up for themselves. Someone who knows how to have a good time, and enjoy themselves. Someone who thinks, 'outside' of the box. Someone who is their own person, and does'nt care if other people approve or not. Someone that can make me laugh, and say words with just their eyes, Someone who likes to be held tight. Someone who does'nt fear change. Someone who does stuff. because they want too.. not because they feel its what they should do, or others want them too. Someone who is Trusting, and Trustworthy. someone who is'nt obessed about how they look, or their weight. Someone who can look in the mirror, and be happy with who they are. Someone who is Creative. Someone who does'nt let Religion, or People, Dictate how they feel, or what to think.. Someone who likes to go out.. but also likes to stay in.. and watch movies.. or listen to music...
Anymore, i'm tired... tired of looking... For what could never be found... Tired of missing every sound... Tired of growing old.. with nothing to show... The one i've looked for does'nt exist... and never will.. This life i hold so true... and alone i'll be, till its through... Gone away, forever, one in the same... Alone 'Till the sunsets.. realizing.... With every breath, I'm that much closer to death.. and as i'm burried in the earth... Will i remember the wrong choices i've made... will i move forward, or vanish into obscurity?.. my last wish, would be to forgotten... like i never existed.. because at that point, it won't matter, anyway. Till Death do i wish.. life would come take me away... cannot the kingdom of salvation take me home and set my soul free.. to fly away from this horrid place... I've lost my way, with nowhere to go.. all choices, brought me to who i am, and where i'll end up... and i've died one last time tonight.... watching the blood slowly.. flow.. as I lay down, to never arise again... whispering... I don't need anyone, or anything... No Grave Could be deep enough.. Down to hell if I was Able..
Random Babalings From Raving DevXen Mind:
If I got lost in your eyes.
Would you turn and walk away?
And then as I realize..
What you would say.If I Fell for you?
What would you feel?
If I sang you these words
What would you Hear?
And did you feel it too.
When I said that I Love You.
- DevXen 11.06.2007
If Life is what you make of it.. Why would'nt you choose to make it Better?
If time is against you.. Why would'nt you work with it. insted of against it.
If death is The Final End for everyone. Why Fear what can not be stopped?
If Hope never Fades Away... How could you fear losing it?
- DevXen
Don't say you know, just what life holds.. Don't say you care about what to share.. Don't say you love, what is unknown... Don't say you think... about me while you sleep, Don't say you have.. what you could never hold... Don't say you miss.. that lonely kiss... Don't say you fear.. what is hidden out there... Don't say you'll live without anything to give... Don't say you'll move on From the times that are so hard... Don't say you'll remember me... after the years tore us apart... Don't tell me you love me.. I just don't want to know ... - DevXen
The love I once had.. The faith i can't grab... What is out there for me?.. has my time here, been nothing more then a waste?.. living day to day.. Accomplishing nothing. After I've gone, will I just be forgotten as the fool who could'nt make it in this world?.. and when it gets too hard, what is the right thing to do?... What is the path to choose, what way do i go?... at this point all I can say is Goodbye.... Don't think of me.. and if you do.. please don't Cry. ... - DevXen
Too have your own Thoughts and Ideas. Not knowing what's Ahead As we slowly mend our bridges of two hearts that bled. I've been hurt, and lied too. Been in love before. but I know i'll pull through. And my heart will Restore. I've got faith in myself Too Be in Love, So Sweet. These Songs won't live on the shelf. And just who will i meet? Chords Ring from the Guitar Lyrics of Emotion sung, out loud. But no one hears them at all. It does'nt matter, i'm still Proud. And If I met you today. Maybe we could run away. Would you want to stay? And The Pain would drift away. I'd always listen to what you'd say. Tomorrow and the next day. - DevXen On 08/08/2007
So when I feel what life has held.. and I remember what you said.. I can't help but think of times wasted away.
and dreams passed by. all in the wake of the minds eye.
will we remember what life holds or would fate's hand fold.
for playing us a bad card. that makes life seem so hard
but hold your head up. and you'll make it through Just remember, i'll be there to help you. and smile cuz life is great all because of our fate. - DevXen on 08/30/2007
Insanity is No Friend of mine. Do you even care, or Am I Falling Behind?. Madness seeking out the visions, Screaming for Release. - DevXen
Scars are the wounds that we must show. Time only heals if you let go. - Savatage // There Comes a time you decide, what from your life, will be real. What Scars you will keep alive. What you are willing to heal. - TSO // Choices We make today affect who we are tomorrow And The Next Day. - DevXen
When you close your eyes.. what do you see.. When I hold you close, how do you feel.. And when you know its me, could it be real.. I want to take away your pain.. hide it.. all away... I want to see you, every day... To get lost inside your beauty.. and loose track of all time.. Cuz you're such a cutie.. and will be.. All Mine..
- DevXen On 10/27/2007
Quote of The Day:
01.02.2008:
The first step towards getting somewhere
is to decide that you are not going to
stay where you are.
- Unknown
10.21.2007:
Picking up the pieces of my life
With no direction for re-assembly.
The one that lays beside me
Is sharing scars of my broken yesterdays.
Will tomorrow find me hypnotized? crying?
Mother mary in control,
Domineering stranglehold
Sowing destructive seeds
For the scavengers to feed.
Driving the nail into my head,
Memory flows like a river.
- Queensryche
10.21.2007:
I am no one to say.. that tomorrow i'll have a child inside me. And if you want me for a friend, Go change the world but dont forget your brother. And if you need me to be there, just run the chain and dont forget to choke me. I Am No One.. Make Me Someone.
- Pist.On
10.20.2007:
To those who understand, I extend my hand.
To the doubtful I demand, take me as I am.
Not under your command, I know where I stand.
I won't change to fit your man, Take me as I am. - Dream Theater
Music:
My Favorite Bands:
Savatage /
Pist.On /
Circle II Circle /
Trans-Siberian Orchestra /
Jon Oliva's Pain /
Al Pitrelli /
Chris Caffery /
Megadeth /
{DevXen} /
Dream Theater /
Queesnryche /
Wildside /
Southgang /
Idiocracy /
Tantric /
Angel Dust /
Velocity /
Union /
Thunder /
L.A. Guns 2 /
Killer Dwarfs /
Iced Earth /
GodSmack /
Bruce Dickinson /
Corabi, John /
Pantera /
Shredmill
I also enjoy the following bands:
AC/DC /
Aerosmith /
Alice Cooper /
Anthrax /
Vinny Appice /
Babylon A.D. /
Bar Seven /
Reb Beach /
Black Crowes /
Ritchie Blackmore /
Black Sabbath /
Bon Jovi /
Bret Michaels /
Britny Fox /
Britton /
Bush /
Chris Caffery /
Cataklyzm /
Cinderella /
Gilby Clarke /
Collective Soul /
Fred Coury /
Creed /
The Cult /
Danger Danger 2 /
Dangerous Toys 2 /
David Lee Roth /
Twisted Sister /
DevXen /
Bruce Dickinson /
Def Leppard /
Dokken /
Dream Theater /
Duff McKagan /
Enuff Znuff /
Everclear /
Faster Pussycat /
Firehouse /
Faith No More /
Fates Warning /
Fozzy /
Fred Coury /
Jack Frost /
George/Lynch Mob /
Great White 2 /
Guns 'N Roses /
GodSmack /
Sammy Hagar /
Hayseed Dixie /
Rikki Rocket /
Ritchie Blackmore /
Rob Halford /
Axl Rose /
Halochaust /
Iced Earth /
Motorhead /
Iron Maiden /
Jackyl /
Jake E. Lee /
Jason Hook (BulletBoys) /
Jeff Pilson /
Europe /
John Corabi /
Journey /
Judas Priest /
Killer Dwarfs /
Kip Winger /
Kiss /
Krokus /
L.A. Guns /
Led Zepplin /
Limp Bizkit /
Lita Ford /
Lizzy Borden /
Love/Hate /
Lynard Skynard /
Mark Kendall /
Marvelous 3 /
Megadeth /
Metallica /
Methods Of Mayhem /
Michael Schenker /
Funny Money /
Motley Crue 2 /
Mr. Big /
Vince Neil /
Nelson /
The Newlydeads 2 /
The Offspring /
Ozzy Osbourne /
Pantera /
Jizzy Pearl /
Pink Floyd /
Pist.On /
Poison /
Ted Poley /
Queensryche /
Quiet Riot 2 /
Rammstein /
Ratt /
Rikki Rockett 2 /
David Lee Roth /
Saigon Kick /
Samantha 7 /
Savatage /
Scorpions /
Sebastian Bach /
SilverChair /
Skid Row /
Slashs Snake Pit /
Slaughter /
Slayer /
Sleeze Beez /
Eric Singer /
Steve Vai /
Stone Temple Pilots /
Stryper /
Symphony X /
Tantric /
Tesla /
Thunder /
Trans-Siberian Orchestra /
Tuff /
Joe Lynn Turner /
Union /
Van Halen /
Velocity /
Virgin Steele /
Vince Neil
Vinny Appice
Warrant /
White Lion /
Whitesnake/David Coverdale /
Winger /
Yngwie Malmsteen /
Zakk Wylde
And Some More Bands as I Just Can't Get Enough:
Ayreon /
Azagrath /
Blind Melon /
Bonehat /
Brainstorm /
Coprofagia /
Darkeden /
Death/Control Denied /
Deathline /
Deception Of Dreams /
Demolition /
Darkside /
Demon /
Destiny's End /
Drain STH /
Emperor /
Event /
Faceless /
Feels Like Rain /
Goliath /
HateEternal /
Shadowvale /
Ill Logic /
Impellitteri /
Torn /
Ivory Knight /
Juniper Hill /
Kamelot /
Kovenant /
Lillian Axe /
Lion's Share /
Luxx /
Marilyn Manson /
Mayadome /
Metal Church /
Midnight Orchestra /
Mike Campese /
Mindscape /
Morbid Angel /
Nevermore /
Nile /
Nocturnal Rites /
Novembers Doom /
October Thorns /
Opposite Earth /
Paradigma /
Phantom's Opera /
Premonition /
Princeless Bride /
Rage /
Raven /
Reason Sleeps /
Respiration Has Ceased /
Skarred For Life /
Serviam /
Shadow Gallery /
Something Wicked /
Sore Seven Reflex /
Supreme Majesty /
Testimony /
Tritonus /
Twilight Kingdom /
Web's Voices /
Wolverine /
Wraith /
Yeah Huh? /
Zandelle /Circle Of Nero /
Destiny /
Division /
Dreamchild /
Dreamline /
Evergrey /
Faceless /
Firegarden /
Hammerfall /
Jag Panzer /
Metalium /
Mischief /
Mystic Cross /
Mystic Force /
Prowler X /
Vicious Rumors /
Widow /
Accept /
Adam's Revenge /
American Angel /
American Pearl /
ANARTIK /
Anvil /
Atello /
Aura K /
Bangkok Shock /
Beautiful Creatures /
Billy Sheehan /
Blue Murder /
Bubble /
Burning Rain /
Crimson Glory /
Cyber-Jack /
D.A.D. /
Devil's Nite /
Dik Trickle /
Doro Pesch /
Doug Aldrich /
Drivin N Cryin /
Fifi Larue /
Fuzzbubble /
Gene Loves Jezebel /
Gorky Park /
Guttersluts /
Hanoi Rocks /
Heavens Edge /
Helix /
Helloween /
Iron Horse (Ron Keel) /
Jamie Rowe /
Jason Bonham /
Jester /
John Christ /
John Sykes /
Keel /
Kenny McGee--Julliet /
Kings X /
Krystal /
Laffy Lines /
Leatherwolf /
Lee Aaron /
Liege Lord /
LION'S SHARE /
Lunatic Zoo /
Michael Sweet /
Mick Sweda /
Mister Natural /
Mitch Malloy /
Mourning Widows /
Neil Turbin /
Norway /
Nuno Bettencourt /
Oz Fox /
Paul Shortino /
Perfect Tommy /
Phantom's Opera /
Pretty Boy Floyd /
Primus /
Psyco Gypsy /
Robert Sweet /
Ron Keel /
Rough Cutt /
Roxx Gang /
Savannah /
Shameless /
Sin Dizzy /
Skold /
Soaked /
Solitary /
Soulmotor /
Spiritfall /
Spit Brothers /
SteeviJaimz /
Steve Vai /
Stuart Smith /
Subway /
Suicidal Tendencies /
Surrender /
The Glorious Things /
Adam's Revenge /
Trippin On Dolls /
Tyketto /
TYRANT /
United Fools /
Uranium 235 /
Vain /
Vaughn /
Vinnie Chas /
West World /
Zebra
My CD List can be found at:
Http://loadsoft.bravepages.com/aoalbums.html
Favorite Local Bands:
Idiocracy /
Shredmill /
Katagory V /
DownFall /
RipChain /
Meat /
Allyptic /
Blessed /
{DevXen} /
Eye II Eye (RIP) /
Shadow /
Osiris /
Sunset Strip /
Royal Bliss /
Massacre at the Wake /
Post Riot (RIP) /
The Street /
Tommy Had a Vision /
Monarch /
Clifton /
Aerial /
Signal /
Still-Born /
Disorder /
Megattack /
Hard Rockin' Johnsons /
The Ozzmenz /
Jezus Rides A Riksha /
ThunderFist /
Unsound Mind /
Shattered Earth /
TearsOfTheDeparted /
Torque /
Eleventh Hour /
Blue Fix /
Empyron /
Masters of Reality /
M.A.I.M. Corps /
ShredbettieOther Local Bands:
Super So Far /
Diseased Machine /
3X Denied /
8 Points of Chaos /
Adapt /
Arsenic Addiction /
BadGrass /
Balance Of Power /
Beneath Red Rock /
Beyond This Flesh
Cave of Roses /
Composition B /
DaisyWreckedIt /
Dark Haven /
Devoured Alive /
Drown Out The Stars /
Frustrations Gripp /
Gods Amongst Mortals /
His Boy Elroy /
Hooga /
Id /
If All Else Fails /
Ill Conceived /
In Silence /
Kohabit /
Last of The Bloodline /
Locke 'N' Load /
The Management /
The Miranda Project /
MS DOS And The Machine Guns /
NumbSkull /
Oxido Republica /
Peace & Quiet /
Red Bennies /
Redneck Mafia /
Red Sun Rise /
The Rest /
Run the Red /
Schwa Grotto /
Seperation of Self /
Silent Fate /
Speed of Dark /
Viscera /
Within The Ruins /
Zuesophobia
If You want your band listed here, Send me a message. I will only accept Utah Bands, or Bands that Really Blow me away and seriously impress me. - DevXenBands I Have Seen:
Airborne /
Anthrax /
Bullet Boys /
Cinderella (2) /
Coal Chamber /
Days of The New (2) /
Def Leppard (2) /
Dio /
Dokken /
Doro Pesch /
doubleDrive /
Dream Theater /
Endo /
Firehouse (2) /
Five Finger Death Punch /
Forigner /
Great White (2) /
Jerry Cantrell /
Kansas /
KoRn (2) /
L.A. Guns (Tracii Guns) (2) /
L.A. Guns (Stacey Blades) (1) /
Laidlaw /
Life of Agony /
Load Point Pull /
Megadeth (3) /
Metallica (2) /
Motherlode /
Motley Crue (3) /
No Doubt /
No Quarter /
Operator /
Ozzy Osbourne /
Poison (3) /
Queensryche (5) /
Quiet Riot /
Ratt (2) /
Reo Speedwagon /
Riot /
Rob Zombie /
Scorpions /
Sixx:AM /
Slaughter (2) /
Slayer /
Social Distortion /
Styx (2) /
Sum 41 (2) /
Swirl /
The Used /
Tommy Lee's Elctro Mayhem /
Unearth /
Velocity (2) /
Warrant (3) /
Weezer /
Wildside (2) /
XYZ /
Yngwie Malmsteen /
Movies:
Cube, Cube 2: Hyper Cube, Cube: Zero, The Matrix, The Matrix 2: Reloaded, The Matrix 3: Revolutions, The Terminator, Terminator 2: Judgement Day, Saw, Spiderman 1-2, Airheads, Hard Target, Merlin, Orgazmo
.... I also have the following DVDs ....
8 Mile * Abandon * American Pie * American Pie 2 * Amos & Andrew * Amry of Darkness * AntiTrust * Armageddon * Assassins * Bad(der) Santa * Batman * Batman Returns * Batman Forever * Batman And Robin * Beavis And Butthead: Do America * Beautiful Mind * A * Bedazzled * Beverly Hillbillies * The * Bill & Ted's Excellent Adventure * Bill & Ted's Bogus Hourney * Billy Madison * Blade * Blade II * The Blair Witch Experience * Blankman * Bruce Almighty * Buffy the Vampire Slayer * Bulletproof * Cat's Eye * Celebrity DeathMatch: Greatest Hits * The Cell * Chill Factor * Creep Show * The Crow * Dark City * Desperado * Death To Smoochy * Detroit Rock City * Dogma * Don't Tell Mom The Babysitter's Dead * Drop Dead Gorgeous * Earnest Goes To Jail * Evolution * Eight Legged Freaks * End of Days * Exit To Eden * Face Off * Femme Fatale * Final Destination * Flubber * The Adventures of Ford Fairlane * The Forsaken * Freddy Got Fingered * The Game * The Glass House * Glory Daze * Godzilla * The Golden Child * Gone In 60 Seconds * The Haunting * Heavy Metal * Highlander * Highlander 3: The Final Demension * Highlander: End Game * Hollow Man * Hot Shots! * Hot Shots! Part Deux * House On Haunted Hill * Independence Day * Iron Monkey * Jumanji * Kevin Smith - An Evening With * Laser Mission * Last Action Hero * The Lawnmower Man * The Lawnmower Man 2 : Jobe's War * Liar, Liar * Litte Nicky * Love Potion .. 9 * Man On The Moon * Mask of Zorro * Me, Myself & Irene * Mixed Nuts * Monkey Bone * Mortal Kombat * Mortal Kombat 2: Annihilation * The Mummy * The Mummy Returns * My Stepmother Is An Alien * Nightmare on Elm Street * Nightmare on Elm Street 2: Freddy's Revenge * Nightmare on Elm Street 3: Dream Warriors * Nightmare on Elm Street 4: The Dream Master * Nightmare on Elm Street 5: The Dream Child * Nightmare on Elm Street 6: Freddy's Dead - The Final Nightmare * Nightmare on Elm Street 7: Wes Craven's New Nightmare * Nightmare on Elm Street: The Nightmare Incyclopedia * Freddy Vs. Jason * Point Break * Prey For Rock & Roll * The Punisher * The Quest * Raising Cain * Rapid Fire * The Real McCoy * Reindeer Games * Rockstar * The Adventures of Rocky And Bullwinkle * Runaway Jury * Serial Mom * Short Circuit * Show Girls * Show Time * Shrek 2 * Shriek If You Know What I Did Last Friday The 13th * Sleepwalkers * South Park: Bigger * Longer & Uncut * South Park: Volume 1 * South Park: Volume 2 * South Park: Volume 3 * Spawn - Director's Cut * Stan Lee's: Mutants, Monsters & Marvels * The Stand * Star Trek: Generations * Star Trek: First Contact * Star Trek: Insurrection * Star Wars: Episode 1 - The Phantom Menace * StrangeLand * Stealing Harvard * Strange Days * Street Fighter * StripTease * Suburban Commando * Super Mario Brothers * SwordFish * Time Cop * Tomb Raider * Total Recall * Toys * Trick Or Treat * Tripple XXX * Universal Soldier 2: The Return * Vanilla Sky * Vampire Journals * Volcano * Wet Shorts: The Best of Liquid Television * WishMaster * WishMaster 2: Evil Never Dies * The Wraith * X-Men * X2: X-Men United * Young Guns
My DVD List is found at:
http://loadsoft.bravepages.com/dvds2.html
Television:
My Favorite TV Shows:
Futurama /
Red Vs. Blue /
Chris Angel's MindFreak /
Celebrity DeathMatch /
Prison Break /
Viper /
Highlander /
Nova /
Naked Science /
The Universe /
MythBusters /
Aqua Teen Hunger Force /
Space Ghost - Coast To Coast /
Tripping The Rift /
Stripperella /
Clerks: The Cartoon /
Family Guy /
American Dad /
The Simpsons /
South Park /
Dharma And Greg /
Grounded For Life
Unhappily Ever After
Beavis And Butt-Head /
In Living Color /
Married... With Children /
MTV Unplugged /
Metal Mania /
Pop-Up Video /
Monster Garage /
American Choppers /
Fear Factor /
Yes, Dear /
Becker /
24 /
Birds of Prey /
King of Queens /
Anything I Can Do /
Blue Collar TV /
Saturday Night Live /
Mad TV /
Tales From the Crypt /
The Outer Limits /
Tales From The Darkside /
Freddy's Nightmares /
The Twilight Zone /
Sarah Silverman Show /
How It's Made
Modern Marvels /
Dirty Jobs /
House /
Hell's Kitchen /
Kitchen Nightmares /
Iron Chef America /
Eureka /
Reaper /
Dead Like Me /
Crank Yankers /
Metalocalypse /
Robot Chicken /
The Brak Show /
Harvy Birdman /
Drawn Together /
Transformers /
Darkwing Duck /
TaleSpin /
Rescue Rangers /
TMNT /
Quantum Leap /
Stargate: SG1 /
Star Trek: TNG /
Star Trek: Voyager
Books:
The Instruction Booklet, Motley Crue's - The Dirt, The Soul's Code - In Search of Character And Calling.
Heroes:
Orgazmo /
Bender /
Church /Zachary Stevens /
Geoff Tate /
James LaBrie /
Chris Oliva /
Jon Oliva /
Dave Mustaine /
Al Pitrelli /
Chris Caffery /
Jeff Plate /
Cliff Burton /
John Petrucci /
Jack Black /
Yngwie Malmsteen /
Zakk Wylde /
Randy Rhoads /
Ludwig Von Beethoven /
Eddie Van Halen /
Bruce Dickinson /
Rob Halford /
Sarge /
Zoidberg /
Drew Hannah /
Mark Simon /
Jimmy D /
Brent Woods /
Phillip J. Fry /
Nibbler /
John Corabi /
Stevie Rachelle /
Alex Skolnick /
Tucker /
Kevin Smith /
Chris DeGarmo /
I'm Realizing more and more that my Brother Got me into music.. I've just taken it to the next level..
