oh! im sick of this world, sick of the same shit over and over again. sick of feeling the need to change my whole being just in order to fit in and satisfy people. sick of not getting what i really want, either material things or just plain happiness at all. sick of hanging out with the same losers whom i thought i consider my friends which i dont even know if they fucking care about me. sick of not finding a new job and being a bum all the time. sick of listening to the same music everyday although UNDEROATH really appeals to me lyrically. sick of calling her all the time and not getting an answer. sick of Tabitha Raine as of two months ago.you are such a liar and a pathetic dumb bitch. sick of calling Aracely, eventhough we rarely talk. sick of Melissa calling me.she's another one on the "bitch list". sick of fastfood, although Mcghetto's is the only shit i could afford to pass my starvation. sick of buying and collecting action figures though im really addicted to it sick of not being happy anymore. sick of not getting the attention i deserve. sick if getting attention.sometimes i just want to be left alone. sick of being here in the bluescreen monitor typing this damn blog but its my pet peeve. sick of me being in a state of psychological distress, yeah it realy is one of my sickness. sick of fucking cutting my left arm, although it doesnt pain me as much as it used to. sick of taking this damn anti-depressant pills.i only overdose it to knock me out. sick of liveing in this world. sick of thinking " i wanna die..fuck this world" but its just the way it is. sick of going back to my "loner" roots. sick of being emo/looking emo/sounding emo/writing emo/living the whole goddamn emo-lifestyle. lyrics/listening to emo/posing emo. sick of being my real self. sick of masturbation sick of watching the same porn over and over again sick of not changing my underwear every two days sick of not smoking weed for a long ass time sick of drinking gin sick of chatting in the internet with the same robotic whores. sick of being broke sick of the stupid vocal class that i mistakenly took sick of boredom. sick of playing the same videogames over and over although i cant beat it. sick of taking the damn public transportation. sick of almost breaking every joint from skateboarding.damn i need to learn to skate decently. sick of me having a bad breath although i brush like 5 times a day. sick of not eating breakfast and waking up late everyday. sick of not sleeping enough hours at night. sick of the goddamn Filipino Channel that they watch at home. sick of the fucking culture that i came from. sick of that same people also. sick of my asshole Mexican and Filipino neighbors who loves to show off what they have. sick of that same old stupid eeryday bulshit i encounter at home. sick of doing this damn boring pointless homeworks. sick of being in a social/public place. sick of not drinking and getting fucked up in awhile, although im sick of the taste of gin. sick of smoking cigarettes but i cant quit. sick of doing the same routine everyday sick of living in the city although i wanna try how its like to live in a coffin. sick of dying my hair with cheap ass colors. sick of not having my coolest friends around me to smoke some joint with. sick of kiddie porn. sick of collecting action figures and turning them into dust magnets. sick of rap/hiphop/r & b and all that black music shit.its not real music at all. sick of the mainstream radio/mtv/fuse tv/corporate media. sick of your stupid band that is not even mainly part of the local scene. sick of hearing all about that war in Iraq all the time. sick of your stupid president. sick of not being able to exercise everyday but jacking off does burn some calories. sick of my english class. sick of going to city college sick of my parent's bitching and whining about me. sick of reading comicbooks that i never even heard of. sick of not dating that one girl from San Jose because I am broke. sick of not seeing some of my coolest friends and exband mates somewhat. sick of watching the mainstream television. sick of the same crap that hollywood produces everyday. sick of this scenester poser kids.ughhh!!! you fuckers disgust me just like my friend. sick of hanging out with those lovebirds coz they consume my worthless time by boring me to death sick of missing this girl from San Mateo every once in awhile. no not really.maybe not. sick of not even close to hanging out with her, but whatever. sick of whatever shit i could think of. sick of thinking i feel sick. ahhh fuck this.YOU MAKE ME SICK....
Amy, that ever wondeful girl who stabs every tear into my heart and always leaving me forever gratified by this feeling.Just to tell you this...Im not your knight in a shining armor...Im just a stoned kid with a fucked up adam's apple..then this cool girl named Paris who's so ever so sweet to me. Kelli....the whole inspiration behind that pending side project Kelli/Rae/Disorder/ although it doesnt exist anymore because of my stupid friend Nathan....that nice girl from San Mateo but she doesnt live there now, who i have learned so much in life, thanx for being the best inspiration in life, were still gonna be fake imaginary friends...my future band mates in NO DISPLAY OF EMOTIoNS....and yeah of course my dear Bernadette; isnt she awesome ?THE Fuck you's goes out to :Tabitha Raine (not anymore) Karrah Amy Falin jEN Andrea Cortez FALLOUT BOY PANIC! AT THE DISCO THE KILLERS MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE AIDEN TAKING BACK SUNDAY Micheal Jackson Brad Pitt sugar ray David Hasselhoff KORN limp bizkit BON JOVI GUNS AND ROSES WEEZER INCUBUS YOUR MOM THE USED Saliva AFI JUMPING FAGS NICKELBACK CREEED YOUR FILIPINO Neighbors
PUNK/HARDCORE/METAL/THRASH/INDIE ROCK-POP/EMO-CORE/SKA-CORE/ SCREAMO-CORE/OLDSCHOOL/EXPERIMENTAL ANYTHING THAT HAS A CORE and ANY OTHER BAND THAT HAS NOT BEEN SIGNED TO A MAJOR LABEL YET NOR HAVE NOT BEEN SHOWN ON MTV/FUSE/VH1/ ahh bulshit... Music Video Codes By VideoCodeZone
another state of mind (social distortion and youth brigade documentary) the birth of death metal emo-holocaust vol 1 live at cbgb's part 1 super joint ritual live at cbgb's victory records video vault vol. 1 ramones mania the clash goes broadway motorhead; the best of Weed the movie detroit rock city gummo the best of smashing pumpkins social distortion live at orange county slayer : war at the warfield strapping young lad dvd throwdown Ichi the killer Akira Angel Sanctuary The Princess Blade Sakura Wars Gundam Seed Gundam Mobile Suit Gundam Wing Gundam-G Nadeisico The Devil Man Lupin the 3rd Transformers Beast Wars X Ultimate Avengers Daimos Mazinger-Z Daiguard Voltron Voltes-V Project Arms Nightmare Before Christmas Corpse Bride Happy tree Friends Fist of the Northstar G-Special Please! Teacher Love Hina EATMAN Battle Angel Alita The Getbackers Full Metal Panic Initial D DNAngel Vanguard Ninja Scroll Ninja Resurrection Kite Yu-Yu Hakushu Fushigi-Yugi Magic knight Rayearth Angel Link Samurai X Samurai Showdown Nightstalkers Samurai Champio Record of Lodoss War Berserk! Golgo13 the getbackers A! Street Fighter II-V
I DONT LIKE WATCHING TV EVEN THOUGH IT'S KINDA LIKE A CHEAP FORM OF ENTERTAINMENT. WELL AS LONG AS THEY SHOW TOO MUCH SKIN AND PROVOKE GORY,BLOODY STUPID NONSENSE VIOLENCE DONE IN AN ARTISTIC WAY, WELL I'D LOVE TO WATCH TV 24/7
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I am a fucking superhero!!!! thats why they call me dysfunctionalkid idiots!