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lillibean//

About Me

if we choose we can live in a comfortable world of delusion.

to love & to be loved
lets just hope that is enough


JANET as definition:
writing at the laundry mat. being inspired. reflections of high heels in cicular objects. obscurity in 'maturity.' fascinated by peoples hands. listens to people breathe at night. rolling around on floors. leopard print underwear. squirrel detective. poor shop-a-holic. lover of sushi. one day you & i wil live on the moon. listening to freezepop & feeling infinite with loved ones. timid faery. literature & art junkie. bleeding heart. teenage angst. predictiable person wishes to be unpredictable. see the world. space case. see the universe. nude & a little crude when alone. furry animal costume parties. inspired pessimist. wants perfect date in hot air baloon. another overly emotional depressed person. petite & itty bitty titties. distress always goes wrong. new music junkie. tea timing fool. lover of strange things. random phrases. fingerpainted portraits. individual.
i am more than an anonymous face in a crowd. if i were an inatimate object i would be a book that shouldn't be judged from its cover.
i am everything i wish to be.
i will become everything i aspire to be.

My Interests



my livejournal.
deviantart.

i immensely enjoy good literature & discovering new words, pondering abstract concepts & quoting shakespeare [total bookworm]. i often dance in my underwear, listening to the real kind of punk rock while wearing long & fake eyelashes then lay down to write some thoughts in exhaustion. fashion is a passion as well as ART & collecting rubber duckies. i break porcelain dolls, too. i'm interested in animal rights & the environment & all sorts of different cultures & existentialism & hope to change the world. i like to run long distances & read philosophy. i love love & following hearts desires.

I'd like to meet:



Music:



BRIGHT EYES;
"when all was gold & you two touched & felt the flutter underneath your skin. you stood in glowing rooms, the light dripping from both of you & nothing since has felt as radiant or real."
NEUTRAL MILK HOTEL;
"i'm not afraid of a love parade in my daydream old men with kazoos and beating drums but i awake and i see the streets are ice cream it's just you and me and oh dear our life has just begun everything is beautiful here it's spinning circles around my ears i'm finally breaking free from fear and it's fading oh beautiful smiles won't you stay awhile we could close the door and sleep all day it's a september sky with pretty pictures in my mind that's lost its feeling of so afraid."
THE FLAMING LIPS;
"love in our life is just too valuable oh to feel for even a second without it but life without death is just impossible oh to realize something is ending within us feeling yourself disintegrate."
THE MAGNETIC FIELDS;
"i went out to the forest & caught a hundred thousand fireflies as they ricochet round the room they remind me of your starry eyes someone else's might not have made me so sad but this is the worst night i ever had."
SIGUR ROS;
"she is with the sun and it's out here. but where are you...? go on a journey and roam the streets. can't see the way out and so use the stars he sits for eternity and then climbs out. she's the glowing sun. so come out. i awake from a nightmare my heart is beating out of control. i've become so used to this craziness that it's now compulsory. and here you are... i'm feeling... and here you are glowing sun... now that you're awake everything seems different i look around but there's nothing at all."
"i draumi fann svo eg hékk á koðnun? með sólinni er hún og er hún inni hér en hvar ert þú.... legg upp í göngu og tölti götuna sé ekk(ert) út og nota stjörnurnar sit(ur) endalaust hún og klifrar svo út. glósóli-leg hún komdu út mig vaknar draum-haf mitt hjartað, slá ufið hár. sturlun við fjar-óð sem skyldu-skrá. og hér ert þú... fannst mér... og hér ert þú glósóli... og hér ert þú glósóli... og hér ert þú glósóli..."

Movies:



Books:



Heroes:

i swear my best friends are GOLDEN and i love them more than words could ever convey.

My Blog

lets pretend.

She hesitates before pressing her fingers onto the keyboard. The cigarette in her ash tray, lime green with the lyrics "waiting for superman" that she wrote in a green sharpee marker, is blowing smoke...
Posted by lillibean// on Wed, 11 Apr 2007 08:44:00 PST

translation.

i can remember when i was a little kid & i watched two people argue in another language. you don't know what they're saying but you can still see the pain in their faces & in their v...
Posted by lillibean// on Fri, 16 Mar 2007 09:15:00 PST

collective raw emotions.

inside yourself a dugout where your true feelings wish to hidepeer through but you haven't seen the truth gives you the everyday blues pretend you live in a scuffed up shoe where your dreams can come ...
Posted by lillibean// on Tue, 23 Jan 2007 07:45:00 PST

i love my friends.

suddenly i was in the mood to think of my friends & all the ways they've affected me this past year. muchos grande love to all of them.megan: for showing me the true meaning of beauty & helpin...
Posted by lillibean// on Sun, 07 Jan 2007 06:23:00 PST

glossy dreams & silent screams.

i see puffy clouds of insignificance.i drink strawberry soda of sorrow.& smoke cherry cigarettes labeled as sweet dreams.my eyes are glossy & my lipstick lies to my lips.the way ones glasses l...
Posted by lillibean// on Fri, 08 Dec 2006 12:45:00 PST

damn katrina.

Once you've been tagged, write a blog including 6 weird, habitual or interesting things about yourself, then choose 6 lucky mofos to be tagged and list their names at the end. Then, leave a comment o...
Posted by lillibean// on Mon, 27 Nov 2006 06:42:00 PST

question mark.

i feel more than ever that i want to connect & understand my friends but it seems impossible under all of these layers of perceptions & inconcievable realities that others are in. everyone see...
Posted by lillibean// on Tue, 31 Oct 2006 09:12:00 PST

carbon gas meets venus.

i love the planet venus because it symbolizes love & beauty but it's atmosphere is entirely made up of deadly gases. if i could find my way there & have my body burn away into neon lights &...
Posted by lillibean// on Wed, 18 Oct 2006 11:22:00 PST

where you'll find me.

 i have ruby red slippers.just like in wizard of oz.they're fantastic. sparkly.if i tapped them togetherand asked to return homei wonder where they'd take me....
Posted by lillibean// on Thu, 12 Oct 2006 09:03:00 PST

essence of beauty.

floating amist the vibrant colors of life and freedom of breath. a beating heart triumphant with the success of another beautifully configured moment in time. a heart full of expressive love while the...
Posted by lillibean// on Tue, 02 May 2006 11:58:00 PST