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About Me

I am me...patient with the right people...apathetic cold-hearted cunt with others. I wont tolerate certain pains anymore... Because i can't worry about caring about shit i shouldn't care about anymore. I realized that if i spend all my time striving to make every single person i meet happy then i will not only be constantly miserable but also extremely burnt out. I dont play games...i just am...and i wish others would be this brutally honest. (Though i will say i'm probably too honest sometimes)Constantly seeking to reach new depths of living. Everyday is an adventure whether i am seeking one or not. Each thought brings one more step foward, two back and 16 sideways. I want to travel this world and forgo an ongoing adventure of constant exploration remaining cautious but open minded. These days i'm the stronghold to a salon...and it's odd because beauty and pampering bullshit is usually the last thing on my mind, and now i'm forced to make it a huge part of my life just so i can make enough money to get out of Shit Petersburg. Everytime i play video games now it's late at night before i go to bed and i just fall asleep playing :(. But I just can't wait until i'm living somewhere other than florida...america's sunniest coffin and quite possibley the strangest way to slowly corrode your soul ever. My graphic novels are coming along, but that's all i'll say for now. Some may call me an artist; musician; writer; poet; or a combination of these. I say i am just a creative mind trying to disconnect herself from the world while finding a way to remain in sync with the masses to gain some sort of accomplishment in the future. I think i'm beginning to do this well. I deconstruct and reconstruct and pick meticulously through a lot...i am also known to blur through a lot of life with hopes of everything just happening...and somehow working out. I enjoy the visually pleasing...and the visually obscure.I like the mind...and all of it's quirks...and enjoy conversations with interesting people. I believe that you should live the life you want to lead....freely...(a laughable statement)Oh on a side note...i love apocolypitic conspiricy theories so if anyone knows some good ones feel free to let me know.

My Interests

Aspirations Tattoo Artist...(that's the first step) travel the rest of the US and move over seas finish graphic novel(s) that's right...it's turned into multiples...go figure...(and these are all short term goals)and...if you couldn't already tell...pretty much everything and anything.

I'd like to meet:

If you can hold a good conversation full of some kind of substance than YOU ...you are the one i'd like to meet. Oh and anyone who's not selfish and trying to be something else, i'm done with that shit.

Music:

Music...it's what you make it.

Movies:

I love 'em...if it's good. Cheezy horror is one of my favourites...there's only a few horror movies that have ever made me slightly scared. Zombie flicks...because you never know when you'll need to be ready. And of course anything phsyco analytical that i can wrap my mind around.

Television:

Oh...you mean the sweet sweet idiot box?....Rots your brain worse than candy or cocaine to teeth. It's a horrible horrible thing...that i choose not to watch very often.

Books:

Invisible Monsters, Man of the Modern Age, Mockingbird....(no...NOT to kill a mockingbird), Requiem For a Dream, The Myth of Mental Illness, I am America and So Can You, anything tom robbins or chuck pallinauk....etc...etc...i've way more to read...way way more.

Heroes:

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My Blog

Extinction can be Harsh.

Life is (like) a crazy tourniquite fucking the easy flow to make way for the cascade complete with it's deluge of possiblities... complications... not enough neurons to handle the...
Posted by Stergy... on Thu, 15 Mar 2007 03:41:00 PST

Dizzy

I used to chuckle to myself when a friend used to speak of being spun around in circles for pretty much everything he did. Now i feel that way...... I'm giving myself up ... (to myself) I'm pathing a ...
Posted by Stergy... on Wed, 14 Mar 2007 12:06:00 PST

ahh.

I give my all... I no longer think of myself as a pessimist...but i'm having my very life force sucked out of me. It's painful and uncomfortable.
Posted by Stergy... on Sun, 04 Mar 2007 08:41:00 PST

Bullshit to somebody

Incredible crazes of comatouse-like(catatonic) stages The bell blinks once the rattle fills you ears Dull sensations and irrational fears ~~~ Sometimes i think it'd be better than a bullet in ...
Posted by Stergy... on Wed, 07 Feb 2007 10:03:00 PST

My writing

So i've realized that most of the time when i actually feel compelled to write is a time when i'm in the most fucked up undescribable moods....the ones that make me feel like a frustrated, b...
Posted by Stergy... on Sun, 04 Feb 2007 08:19:00 PST

Fuck it.

the world is one big continuously fucked up cycle.People giving and taking, coming and goingfaster, slowermore pieces gonemore false ones gained.Falling up climbing downA parasite and the calm recieve...
Posted by Stergy... on Sun, 03 Dec 2006 04:20:00 PST

Shakes

She's shaking the whole world downcrumbling around herand if she doesn't stop soonshe'll find darkness surround herthey tell her there's more so she does itthey show her the door so she kicks itthey t...
Posted by Stergy... on Wed, 13 Sep 2006 11:26:00 PST

Update...

It's been a while since i've discussed anything and i've realized since my last entry that i've figured out quite a bit. I have not abandoned my family...I am currently in my shitty home town of St. P...
Posted by Stergy... on Wed, 02 Aug 2006 10:54:00 PST

Wandering Onward.

I've decided wandering is the best option for me...although i've met so many wonderful and radical people here in new england. I hope that my travels send me back to this place in the future, but for ...
Posted by Stergy... on Fri, 14 Apr 2006 08:52:00 PST

Wasted Life

Grrrr. I fucking hate everything. At this point i really hate myself. I wrote it better but this fucking journal put in an earlier draft...which was like one line. Grrr. Anyway...I'm almost 19...in ab...
Posted by Stergy... on Mon, 27 Mar 2006 09:10:00 PST