25 year old australian girl who still feels like she's 18. I'm scared of growing up and scared of responsibilities. I want so much in life but honestly can't be assed more than half of the time. I'm waiting for my life to just happen.
In the meantime, my days are spent working in webdesign/traffic, my evenings are spent at the gym and my nights are spent on MSN, watching tv, drinking copious amounts of red wine and/or cider - usually doing all three at the same time. My weekends are spent recovering from binge drinking sessions the night before, laying on the couch watching Buffy/Angel/Firefly/Arrested Development/Scrubs/Hex/Lost/Veronica Mars/NipTuck/Dawnsons Creek DVDS, more MSN/red wine and tv. Rinse and repeat.
I smoke roll-your-own cigarettes (rolled by hand) I recently gave up smoking (26th April), have a fear of doing number 2's in any toilet but my own, change my hair cut and colour fairly often, and hate high heels (despite needing to wear them - I'm short), and am totally head-over-heels for a guy I've been dating since July 2005.
I've had a website since end of 2000, but it wasn't til 2001 that I really got involved in the whole camscene. I was on Camwhores back when it was Stileproject Portal 9. I read and occasionally posted on Vidville (alas my dial up prevented me from posting too often). I was addicted to Survivorcam 1, and ended up coming second in Survivorcam 2. I chatted to, or knew all the cool cam kids- Sheila and the whole Chickenlegs gang, Jansson, Charismama, Chelle when she was Chellecam, Daign... I was there when Nay was Mija.nu.
*does ANYONE even know what I'm talking about anymore? Does anyone else remember the net back then?*
And now almost 5 years on, everyone has grown up or moved on to a real life, every 16 year old girl has a website and is fluent in html and css, and community sites like MySpace just don't make sense to me.
I'm not hip or young or cool. I feel old, and for a camgirl I am. I miss the days when the E/N pwned the web, Stileproject portals weren't full of hard core amateur pornography, the term 'camwhore' belonged to the camgirls and the whole community had this awesome vibe about it.
Perhaps all the kids now feel this way about the net, where as my time is over and I just feel out of it now.
Anyway, I'm trying to relive my glory days or reclaim my youth or something like that, so that's why I finally got onto MySpace.
My website: www.muntedmess.com
My webcam:
