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... DoNT DREAM iT ... BE IT ...
Im JENNA. I never sit still. i constantly fidgit. i am always dazed but yet still aware of EVERYTHING going on around me. I wish i was famous but still think i am. I always have to have the last word which gets me in trouble. I am a headcase.. yet completely one of the most sane people i know. I cry for no reason.. but when i have a reason to cry .. i don't. NOTHING PHAZES ME ANYMORE. I never want to grow up but still cant wait each year till my birthday. Its hard for me to love...and im hard to love. I HATE TO BE ALONE. I am terribly scared of the dark. i love to watch people.. i am intrigued with people. old pictures make me happy. i like to take the "scenic route"... even if its the long way... History amazes me... I am My own IDOL... i never sleep... but i never wake up... I AM SMARTER than YOU think... i know what breaks people... i get vibes... from everyone...most of the time bad ones... in kindergarden i was in timeout everyday... and i was proud of it... EVerything you do is an accomplishment..even if its nothing... i would rather regret doing something... than regret not doing it. everything thats meant to happen... eventually does... watch out. .
"i know that i can't please everyone.
but i please myself.
thats all that matters." JB
She has the daylight at her command
She gives the night its dreams
She can uncover your darkest fear
And make you forget you feel it
Once you put your hand in the flame
You can never be the same
There's a certain satisfaction
In a little bit of pain
I can see you understand
I can tell that you're the same
If you're afraid, well rise above
I only hurt the ones I love
I made a vow that I would never need.... Another person ever .... Turned my heart into a cage ... A victim of a kind of rage
Life and death, energy and peace. If I stop today it was still worth it. Even the terrible mistakes that I made and would have unmade if I could. The pains that have burned me and scarred my soul, it was worth it, for having been allowed to walk where I've walked, which was to hell on earth, heaven on earth, back again, into, under, far in between, through it, and above.
she's lost in coma where it's beautiful
intoxicated from the deep sleep
do you wonder what it's like
living in a permanent imagination?
sleeping to escape reality, but you like it like that
"People are afraid of themselves, of their own reality; their feelings most of all. People talk about how great love is, but that's bullshit. Love hurts. Feelings are disturbing. People are taught that pain is evil and dangerous. How can they deal with love if they're afraid to feel? Pain is meant to wake us up. People try to hide their pain. But they're wrong. Pain is something to carry, like a radio. You feel your strength in the experience of pain. It's all in how you carry it. That's what matters. Pain is a feeling. Your feelings are a part of you. Your own reality. If you feel ashamed of them, and hide them, you're letting society destroy your reality. You should stand up for your right to feel your pain.”
i am the needle in your vein
i am the high you can't sustain
i am the pusher i'm a whore
i am the need you have for more
i am the bullet in the gun
i am the truth from which you run
i am the silencing machine
i am the end of all your dreams
i take you where you want to go
i give you all you need to know
i drag you down i use you up