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JiLLian

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About Me


I am not interested in meeting people from here, so don't think about e-mailing me asking me to hook up or to meet up for drinks.
If you send me a sweet little e-mail asking me how i am doing than I might respond back...
Just when I think my life is on the right track something knocks me off...and sets me back 5 steps.
I am still not sure if I am coming or going most days.
But I do know a few things about myself that are true everyday...
I am a nerd at heart, I love to read and play video games.
I crochet
I can never watch Star Wars enough.
I know a lot of useless facts.
I want to learn about everything and anything.
There is never enough stuff to learn.
I am pretty open and honest about how I feel.
Usually when I see something that I want I go straight for it.
I usually say whatever is on my mind
I am a true friend to the end, just ask any of my top 4 friends down below.
Just because I don't call you doesn't mean I am not thinking about you.
I can be bitchy and a bit crazy at times, but what girl isn't?(at least I admit to it)
I am unforgettable.
check me out on inked nation... I am much more cooler on there =) http://www.inkednation.com/m0urningstar
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My Interests


Sex, Piercings, Tattoos, Music, black & white photos, Food, Being with good people, Sleeping, Ordering room service, Reading a good book, Watching a good movie, having a great time with my friends. Oh and shopping...it is my therapy.

I'd like to meet:



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Music:

Tool, Static-X, Mindless Self Indulgence, Nine Inch Nails, AFI, Alice in Chains, My Chemical Romance, Manson, A Perfect Circle, Godsmack, 30 Seconds to Mars, Incubus, Sevendust, Soulfly, System Of A Down, Dry Kill Logic, Red Hot Chili Peppers, Deftones,The Cure, H.I.M., Hatebreed, Killswitch Engage, the Distillers, DropKick Murphys. Most new bands these days suck they all sound the same, so i am really picky about my music.

Movies:

Silence of the Lambs, Fast Times at Ridgemont High, Interview with the Vampire, Vampire Hunter D, Saw, All the Harry Potter Movies, The Lord Of the Rings Trilogy,The Cider House Rules, Stranger than Fiction, The Notebook, Dummy, Forrest Gump, American Beauty, Legends Of the Fall, The Crow, Elizabeth, American History X, Running Scared, Eurotrip, Nightmare before Christmas, Tim Burton movies, All Star Wars movies, The Disney version of Sleeping Beauty, Butterflies are Free, The MirrorMask, Grandma's Boy.

Television:

The Simpsons, Sex and the City, Nip/Tuck, Dexter, Family Guy, American Dad, Frasier, Ugly Betty, Grey's Anatomy, Robot Chicken, Tales from the Crypt, CSI, and Law & Order.

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Books:

Angels & Demons, The Da Vinci Code, All the Harry Potter books, Odd Thomas, Electroboy, Running with Scissors, The Lovely Bones, White Oleander, Go Ask Alice, Life Expectancy, The Taking, Tietam Brown, The great Gatsby, The Carrier, Memoirs of a Geisha, A View from the Bridge, Sold, Heart Shaped Box, Twilight, New Moon, Eclipse, Breaking Dawn, The looking glass wars.

Heroes:

Looking up to someone will only let you down.

My Blog

anything that could go wrong...did go wrong

Here i am...running away from problems...and yet when i finally get to my so called "safe place" here I get a million more problems that come catching up with me.My flight was actually pretty good......
Posted by JiLLian on Sat, 04 Oct 2008 05:41:00 PST

Happy?

Lately it seems like I don't know what that means.It has been so long.I know every other emotion but that one. Sadness...I cry almost every nightAnger...at myself for being so stupidFear...for the way...
Posted by JiLLian on Fri, 19 Sep 2008 09:28:00 PST

Rehab

Every relationship starts out new, and exciting.  Like trying drugs for the first time.After a few weeks you decide you can't live without each other.You need itYou want itYou try to go without e...
Posted by JiLLian on Fri, 05 Sep 2008 07:41:00 PST

smitten

Why does love and something that hurts always go hand in hand?smit·ten - adjective1. struck, as with a hard blow.2. grievously or disastrously stricken or afflicted.3. very much in love.I really...
Posted by JiLLian on Fri, 29 Aug 2008 09:30:00 PST

no words

Sometimes nothing needs to be said.Sometimes our actions do speak louder than words.A hug - Simple. Kind. Can be a nice hello, I missed you, Nice to see you again.  But, also goodbye, nice knowi...
Posted by JiLLian on Wed, 27 Aug 2008 08:47:00 PST

my city...

My city...my life...my home...I walked my city today...it has so many smells, so many people, so many memories...and so many tourists.  I look at all of them and I just smile.  When i was i...
Posted by JiLLian on Sun, 24 Aug 2008 08:56:00 PST

move on, hold on

Why is it that certain things are so easy to hold on to? Old baseball cards, clothes, random things you accumulated from many adventures in life. And other things you just have to get rid of... ...
Posted by JiLLian on Mon, 18 Aug 2008 04:17:00 PST

depression = creativity?

As i sit in my room I couldn't  help but think.  (I always let my thoughts get the best of me.)  Depression is the best kind of art form. When I used to be depressed or just really upse...
Posted by JiLLian on Fri, 15 Aug 2008 09:25:00 PST

smart?

I was bouncing around myspace at some of the people that I went to school with and it seems like everyone I knew is having a kid.  Or already has one.  WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON?  I kn...
Posted by JiLLian on Sat, 12 Jan 2008 10:47:00 PST

millennials?

Me a Millennial?  I have heard of anything like that before.  But apparently now it is being used.  People of my generation.  I didn't think I could be classified into a category.&...
Posted by JiLLian on Mon, 19 Nov 2007 11:52:00 PST