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R.I.P. Chris Jack - This is now only a memorial

And All That Could've Been....

About Me

Once there was a child that stood beneath the surface... watching, observing, and waiting for his time to be something great. He decided at an early age to take the path less traveled and expierence as much of his precious life as he could. He knew he wasn't like other people around him. He was an outcast, something different. Listening to the winds whisper dreams into his deepest being, he wandered away from all conventional thinking. He pushed himself to see the man behind the curtain... only to find out that mans will usually wear a mask bearing all the fears of his soul. Crying out to the man, the child slowly realized that his tears he had shed were done so in vain... for the screaming of the mask was too overwhelming.This made the child realize how important indifferece would be in his life. What was good for some became evil to others. Although he knew red, yellow, and blue since the first moment his eyes gazed upon the physical world... he knew there would be no grey; just black and white stains on an empty canvas.After discovering this, there would be a thousand miles to be walked. Marching with the sands of time, drifting from the Mother Earth, his eyes graced upon the horizon of a different plain of existance. His purpose was clear: Every action he would take would effect anothers life, so he must touch everyone he meets in some way. What a debt to have to pay for this prcious gift of life. Such a heavy burden for a child to bear, knowing this would be both his gift and his curse.As he grew older, the fire grew inside his heart. The line between what his vision of the world that is, and what it should be, started to blur. All the happiness he knew as a child turned into pain in his adolescence. Forgetting what his purpose was, he just questioned everything. Why did he have to see things like this? What was this leading to? When would it end? He had seen enough to know we need to burn this all down and start again with the charred bricks that remain. To rise from the ashes of our failures, like a phoenix. He could be the messenger... here he is, send him. He feels like he is ready. He drew himself away from the prying eyes of society, and vowed to only let a select few in.The evolution of his fellow man sickened him. He watched as friends came and went. Love turned to hate. Ambitions turned into flaws. It was as if common sense and logical thinking were replaced with poor judgement and mental detainment. Even our advances in technology seemed to be dulling our instincts for survival. We stopped depending on ourselves, and put our faith in machines and manufacturing. When would he stop feeling this animosity? When would he be able to open his eyes, and look past the smoke and mirrors again?He now realizes he has seen the up and down. The few and far between. Motion isn't meaning, but it is a constant phenomenom that will plague our lives. One touch, one word, one thought from him will pass through the histories of existance; echoing throughout all of time and space.Does this man think he is a God? No. Does he think he is better than his fellow man? No. He has carried his cross, like many other around him, and walked the path that was in front of him. The one he chose long ago, when he was a child. He has stood by his true convictions, and wears his sins on his shoulder. Again, what was right for some will be wrong for others.Everyone has the ability to become. To put your selfish thought aside and see things the way they MIGHT/COULD be, instead of the way you have made them. We are all one in the same... much like the conventional thought of Heaven and Hell. There will be a day when one and one will come together, and we will all start at zero. We will destroy ourselves, and what will you have done to touch those around you? What mask will you wear when he comes to see you?

My Interests

The world interests me more than anything. I have only lived in America, so the mystery of what else is out there on this level of conciousness is beyond me.I am also extremely interested in meeting other people like me. Not afraid to be themselves. Not afraid to hurt someone feelings with the truth. Someone strong enough to never crumble, but human enough to fall apart.I love to draw in pen and pencil. One day I'll post some of my work on here, so people can see it. I mostly draw characters or objects for some reason. The deatils of a landscape always seem to be too detailed and constantly changing for me to completely focus my abilities on.I love to journal my thoughts and feelings. I do write poetry. There is no better way to strike an emotion into someones life than with the sincerity of someones deepest sentiments being transcribed in a way only the reader will see. I am going to randomly post some of my writings in the 'BOOKS' section of my page, since I am writing a few books at the moment.There is a lot more to me. If you would really like to know more, ask.

I'd like to meet:

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Music:

I have very strong feelings about music. Both musically and lyrically, it is another for of communication that can holds meanings to those that wrote it... and those that listen. I DO NOT endorse listening to the radio, but will listen to something that you can HEAR on the radio. Kind of like how I feel about television.My prefernce in music is anything that sonds good to me. I'm a very moody person, and you can usually tell how I feel by just listening to the synphonious bliss I surround myself with. If I seem to be gripped with wordlessness and lost in the bewilderment of the harmonic assembly behind me, you will know it has struck a chord somewhere deep inside me. Let me have my moment. You will notice the change.I am also working on the playlist for my wake/funeral. Sounds bleak, but anyone that knows me will understand why it's necessary.My favorite band is, and will always be, Nine Inch Nails. From Purest Feeling to the present, Trent Reznor has changed the entire music world by constantly evolving his own talents and ideas. The best way I can explain this is to tell you to go listen to Pretty Hate Machine, The Downward Spiral (try to do the Dual Disk 5.1 version with surround sound if applicable), and Year Zero. Yes, in that order... even if you don't like that kind of music. Then read a little about each album, and maybe watch a few videos, to learn more about the style/insight behind his work. This stuff gets better with every SONG, let alone album.Here is something you may find crazy, and will probably doubt, but when there is a new NIN album/song/dvd/tour that is announced something major in my life is happening... and these things will also share some kind of significance. Example:The Fragile came out the month my oldest son's mom left me. The day it came out was on my 21st birthday (literally). 9/21/1999. Ninth month, 21st day/bday, year 999. I met her when The Downward Spiral came out. My sweet Alpha and Omega...The coincidences (as most people would call them) get worse and are evident if you look closer...

Movies:

I love to watch movies. I haven't been able to GO to the movies in a while, though. I usually like to go on a Sunday night, last showing... or a first showing on a Tuesday morning. That way I don't have to put up with people, and I can sit where I want without anyone within five seats of me.The only downside to going to the movies now is all the advertising BEFORE and DURING the movie. Sure... it's still entertaining, but why can't it be about the film?Marketing is the sister of propaganda, and it is everywhere.

Television:

I don't enjoy watching television. I feel it's too controlled by different organizations to force you to watch what they want.I do rent some shows on DVD. I like to watch stuff from when I was a kid and compare it to the shows on the tele now. It would shock you if you REALLY realized how stifled your viewing enjoyment is.Why do you think only a handful of your favorite shows growing up will EVER be released on DVD?Building a better America, one tele-hyptnotized household at a time...

Books:

Here is the prelude page to my nonfiction I'm working on...PreludeThis has been happening over the course of the last year. One victim after another, grizzly scenes of torture and methodical slayings have been discovered throughout the city. It has been my life for the last 364 days, and I still don’t feel any closer to catching this guy. No pattern, no real evidence, and worse of all... no witnesses. It’s almost like this guy doesn’t exist. I have had profiler after profiler come in and try to identify with this guy, but no luck on that end. Thanks to the press, the nation is watching this guy get away with one of the worst murdering sprees this world has ever witnessed… and I’m the detective letting this slip through the cracks.“No one has seen anything, like usual. You would think that with all the complaints we get about us NOT keeping these things from happening someone would say something about this! You can’t do this to someone and not make enough noise to arouse some kind of attention. The news has more info on this guy than we do.”“Yeah, but have you ever seen anything like this? It’s not like this is the first, and I’ve seen enough to know…”“You’re right. The thing that doesn’t make sense is nothing has happened to the few witnesses you have had in the past. So why are they afraid to talk to us now?”“Afraid? You think these people are afraid? Hardly. Did you not notice who that was in there?”“All the more reason to start to worry a little more about this guy. Start small, and then you go big. Isn’t that how you make a name for yourself? He’s also moving fast… we don’t even know what he’s going to do next! Fuck!”Yeah… fuck... stumped. That’s just what the world wants to see. The general opinion of the masses about the police isn’t exactly stellar. There have been too many cops in the past that have worn out our welcome by being corrupted, or abusing their authority. Hell, most don’t even do anything to the real crooks. They are too busy harassing the local residents and feeding this distaste for us.I can’t get the vision of this particular murder out of my head. His eyes, his mouth… the expression on his face was nightmarish. This time I could see it was personal. It almost looked like he was crying while he was being slaughtered, but there was still a smile on his face. I wonder what the other guy looked like…

Heroes:

Trent Reznor would be the closest thing to a hero to me. I guess that is because our existances seem to crash through each other, without either of us ever knowing one another. I don't believe in heroes, or idols. I do believe in wisdom and inspiration. So to those out there that have helped me realize what I feel to be real...Thank you, and I love you.

My Blog

Everyone Has Their Limit

And I feel as if I've reached mine. As of today I am single again, but this isn't only about a girl. It's about ALL of the people in my life, what I've been going through, and the deciosion that ...
Posted by R.I.P. Chris Jack - This is now only a memorial on Fri, 30 May 2008 03:14:00 PST

Screw the sample... Chapter 1: Daedalus

Go here to see the beginning of my Animated MOVIE (not music) Video!!!!! Let me know what you think... even if it sucked. I'll be making more parts PUBLIC once they finish posting.... 24 total (23 wil...
Posted by R.I.P. Chris Jack - This is now only a memorial on Thu, 29 May 2008 05:38:00 PST

The Advent Alchemy Children.... One LONG AMV!!!!

So... I feel like I did something incredibly cool, and equally amazing. I know what some of you guys will think: "You are the biggest nerd.", "You have too much time on your hands.", "What's so cool a...
Posted by R.I.P. Chris Jack - This is now only a memorial on Wed, 28 May 2008 10:59:00 PST

For The Love Of My Life

I guess there really is no end to the world you make All the things you want to change All the things you come to hate   And when it all passes you by When you had it all figured out It scrapes ...
Posted by R.I.P. Chris Jack - This is now only a memorial on Sat, 17 May 2008 08:53:00 PST

Surrender

I long to feel the earth wash over me Like the vultures that fly lower to bleached bones The sun baking the chills down my spine And the smoke buries the mirrors in the stones   A façade of love...
Posted by R.I.P. Chris Jack - This is now only a memorial on Sat, 17 May 2008 08:39:00 PST

Life, Liberty City, and the pursuit of Super Powers!!!

Lately things have been looking different through the eyes of this man. The line that has always divided the real from my dreams have begun to blur, and everything around me seems so trivial. I never ...
Posted by R.I.P. Chris Jack - This is now only a memorial on Sat, 17 May 2008 07:46:00 PST

The Halo Phenomenom

No, for once I'm not talking about the video game when I mention 'The Halo Phenomenom'. I am speaking about Nine Inch Nails... and the fact that there is a new Halo dropped everytime something happens...
Posted by R.I.P. Chris Jack - This is now only a memorial on Mon, 05 May 2008 09:37:00 PST

Found that inspiration Ive been looking for

So after all the stupid self-loathing, and confusion with what to do with my life, I found the inspiration to pick myself up off the ground so I can punch everyone that has been kicking me in the face...
Posted by R.I.P. Chris Jack - This is now only a memorial on Mon, 05 May 2008 09:39:00 PST

Child Of Dust

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Posted by R.I.P. Chris Jack - This is now only a memorial on Tue, 15 Apr 2008 12:15:00 PST

Come All You Weary

Come All You Weary  Come all you weary with your heavy loadsLay down your burdens find rest for your soulsCause my yoke is easy and my burden is kindI'll take yours upon me and you can take mineC...
Posted by R.I.P. Chris Jack - This is now only a memorial on Tue, 15 Apr 2008 12:10:00 PST