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I'll draw three figures on your heart one of them will be me one of them will be me as a boy and one

About Me


What you did yesterday is your reputation; what you do today is your future . . . I've finally done it. I have had the same basic layout for YEARS. It's as if my life was like frozen in time or something, as if my sense of self would be questioned if I changed the words on the page, as if by changing the words I changed the memories and changing the memories meant losing them, or worse losing myself. Wow. I've finally decided to start over. If you really want to know about me, ask me or click here to READ MY BLOGS!!!!!!! I do get back to people, normally, but none of my friends do. I am pretty hard on myself, but I try not to take myself too seriously. I'm kind of a walking contradiction. I cry at sappy movies or when I hear beautiful language. I do not speak a foreign language (maybe a little Spanish), but if you do I'd like to hear. I love the smell of rain and the scent of a woman (take that as the beautiful comment that it is and please don't pervert it). I'm pretty damn confident, flirty, spontaneous, talkative, moody, and sensual. . . normally. I have my days where I just feel like the world is caving in, though. My friends are my everything. I have life ADD in that I have a significant amount of interests and I'm constantly trying to balance them all. I've had some AMAZING experiences, things I thought would NEVER happen to me. Everything that happens to me, everyone that comes into my life is there for some reason. Sometimes things happen and I see stars--stars that pop behind my eyes and I have to remember to breathe. "Accept and move on," so says Melissa. I know someone is out there that's my kind of crazy, or maybe someone that will make me a little more sane. I like me, though. Maybe I'll like you...
I created my layout at KillerKiwi.net

My Interests



You Are An ENFP
The Inspirer

You love being around people, and you are deeply committed to your friends.
You are also unconventional, irreverent, and unimpressed by authority and rules.
Incredibly perceptive, you can usually sense if someone has hidden motives.
You use lots of colorful language and expressions. You're quite the storyteller!

In love, you are quite the charmer. And you are definitely willing to risk your heart.
You often don't follow through with your flirting or professed feelings. And you do break a lot of hearts.

At work, you are driven but not a workaholic. You just always seem to enjoy what you do.
You would make an excellent entrepreneur, politician, or journalist.

How you see yourself: compassionate, unselfish, and understanding

When other people don't get you, they see you as: gushy, emotional, and unfocused What's Your Personality Type?

Exploring my passions, which change often. I love challenges, and perhaps I'm slightly masochistic in that way. I am increasingly interested in photography and photo editing. I take pictures of myself, what of it? Sometimes I share. I love to travel. I've been called a workaholic, but right now I'm unemployed and I wouldn't go back to work if I didn't need the money. I've been cured! Looking for a job that I can stand behind and enjoy has become a full-time job in itself. I'm suddenly into cooking...this from a girl who five years ago could only make mac & cheese. I love looking at things in a new light. Just when I think I know who I am, I find out maybe I didn't know. Thank God I have fantastic friends to help me realize that it doesn't matter. I like roadtrips, music keeps me breathing. I like mixing roadtrips and music and singing along to songs in the car. I write, but always doubt my abilities. I'm an imperfect perfectionist, and that is NOT easy. Coffee, tea, wine, pretty much anything you can drink and discuss. I will throw myself into something I believe in. I like quotes. Music, clearly. I'm just me.

I'd like to meet:

People holding signs that help me see which way to go. People holding mirrors that help me see who I am. Friends that become family. Honest and heartfelt individuals. Anyone who can help my dreams become reality, and will be there with me all the way there and beyond. People who don't just tell me what I want to hear, but what I need to hear. People that make me laugh, that make me cry, that make me angry, the whole shabang. Someone to sit with me at midnight and listen to music, to dance in my underwear with, to take silly pictures with, to jump up and down with, and who will stand up for those who can't stand . . . And Joan Jett, Joni Mitchell, Chrissie Hynde, The Bangles (I don't want to talk about it lol), Maya Angelou (I did see her speak once), and Hillary Clinton (doesn't mean I'm voting for her). Preferably together. All in the same room at the same time. That could be interesting. LOL.

Music:

Music plays a huge part in my life. I love finding new music. I want to feel, I want to move. The one I always go back to, the one I've been listening to the longest, when I go to bed, when I'm driving, the one that's been there through so much even though she has no idea, is CharMar (Charlotte Martin). Since then, I've my top 3 (whom I know personally), and after those introductions I'll finally attempt to create a list. :-/

My friend Rebecca Harris is absolutely brilliant (she's Becky No! on myspace).

Porcelain is absolutely electric. I am totally addicted to them. Die hard Porcelain fans/friends/family have all dubbed ourselves the "Porcelain family." Join us. Click here to be directed to the Porcelain Street Team page . More show photos in my "This is My High" album.

Cindy Alexander a.k.a. pnut is a beautiful person, a fabulous musician, and you will love her. Visit her in my top friends AND check out her ReverbNation page for even more info and more songs.

If You'd like to be on a mailing list for any of these bands, let me know. I can make it happen. I promise you won't get spammed. The lists are EXTREMELY well-managed and the artists are totally respectful. :-)

"Tell me why do you move so fast where did you hide your past
Tell me what does your true worth cost?
How did you get so lost?
Baby I know its late outside
But dont let your daydreams die!"
Porcelain, "Desert Dressed in Lights"


"Isn't this the best part of breaking up? Finding someone else you can't get enough of?" --Liz Phair, "Why Can't I?"

"Why not then come out friend and show me to what ends you are willing to go?"--Becky No! (fka Rebecca Harris Band), "Feel You"

Okay . . . sigh . . . here goes . . . Cocteau Twins, The Pretenders, Melissa Etheridge, Sarah M., Sarah Fimm, Regina Spektor, Tori Amos, Dan Fogelberg (memories), Terra Naomi, John Denver, The Bangles, Tracy Chapman, Britney Spears sometimes, (can't believe I'm saying this, BUT) James Taylor, Joni Mitchell, Kate Bush, Texas, Concrete Blonde, Scarlet, Missy Higgins, Bif Naked, Natasha Bedingfield, M.I.A., Madonna, Mandi Perkins (who btw is playing with Porcelain at the Troubador in June 2008), Postal Service, Dave Matthews Band, Martina McBride, Loreena McKennitt, Enya, Alanis Morissette, Afro Celt Sound System, Ani Difranco, Annie Lennox, Ashely Matte, Badly Drawn Boy, Ben Folds, Belinda Carlisle, Bette Midler, Beth Orton, Blondie, Celine Dion, Charlotte Martin, Diana Ross, DJ Tiesto, Edison Gem, Eve 6, Jes, Jewel, Joan Jett, John Hiatt, oh God Joan Osborne of course, Katy Perry, Ken Andrews, Lily Allen, M.I.A., Muse, No Doubt, Pink, Nouvelle Vague, Paramore, Pat Benatar, Patty Griffin, Portishead, Royksopp, Sandi Thom, Siouxsie and the Banshees, Sophie B. Hawkins, t.A.T.u., Tara King, Tara MacLean, . . . um yeah. I'm sick of this game already . . . lol. I'll try again later. I have a HUGE range of taste. I like chick singers yes but that's not ALL contrary to popular belief. I like rock. I like electronica. I ADORE mashups. I dance. I'll continue the list later. It's a WIP, ya know? :)

Movies:

Kissing Jessica Stein. Even reading the quotes on imbd is FANTASTIC!

Television:

No thanks. I'd rather be with friends or on the computer or listening to music. Don't get me wrong. I have a television. It's just not my favorite past-time.

My friend Moby's blog!

Books:

I'm a Literature major. *gasp* Don't worry. I can speak to non-reading people, too. I mean, hopefully you're at least LITERATE. I don't do much reading right now, but I do have some favorites: Written on the Body by Janette Winterson, Bastard Out of Carolina (mostly b/c I enjoyed studying it in school), Wicked, Jane Austen, Shakespeare, Kissing in Manhattan, Dangerous Angels, The Unholy Bible, all of the Ken Blanchard books on management, Pages for You (silly romance), Generation of Vipers, The Little Prince, Learning to Fly by Sam Keen, Life of Pi by Yan Martel, Feast of Love by Charles Baxter, The Man in my Basement by Walter Mosley, David Sedaris, The Four Agreements (thanks, Dad), self-help books ("personal enrichment books" sounds so much better. haha) . . . When I was younger I always read books about women in peril. I don't know. What can I say--I'm a savior. I used to write stories and poems, but lately I use email as a kind of journal. Sometimes, i don't even send the emails. Click here for Letterineversent.com My favorite reading material lately, though, has been emails from people I love. It's like a high--hearing what others are thinking about and learning how they process things and what's going through their heads.Um let's see . . . Don Delillo (sp?), You're Not from Around Here, Are You?, essays about relationships, literary theory, philosophy, and gender studies. Things that are original and raw. Works in progress. Poetry. Enda St. Vincent Milay.

Heroes:

My dad. Seriously. All of my friends--past, present, and future. People who stick up for what they believe in, whether that's something I agree with or not. People with opinions. People who are true to themselves. People who overcome illness or have loved ones who are suffering. Anyone who questions things. And of course pnut.

My Blog

Hypnotized!

Something been bouncing around in my little head the past week or so . . . hypnosis. I seem to have some inner struggle about this whole job thing. Still. I mean, I think it's understandable. The way ...
Posted by instant Jenification on Thu, 12 Jun 2008 12:16:00 PST

Check out this event: Cindy Alexander @ Hotel Cafe

This is going to be amazing . . .Cindy puts on quite a show at Hotel Cafe. Plus, they keep redecorating. LOL.Hosted By: Cindy Alexander When: Sunday Jun 29, 2008 at 9:00 PMWhere: Hotel Cafe 1623 1/2 N...
Posted by instant Jenification on Thu, 12 Jun 2008 10:32:00 PST

"non-competition"

I was thinking about joining up on a blog site that will actually pay me for my blogs (based on impressions mostly). BUT how would I decide what to post? Whatever I post on that site couldn't be poste...
Posted by instant Jenification on Thu, 12 Jun 2008 05:10:00 PST

Finish the month of right WITH ME

The last weekend in June is going to be awesome! I'd like to direct you to my calendar and invite all to join me and my incredibly talented friends:June 27th . . . PORCELAIN @ the Troubador in LA. Pla...
Posted by instant Jenification on Wed, 11 Jun 2008 07:11:00 PST

Avoidance

I'm supposed to be editing something down. I need to shave 100 words. Instead, though, I'm listening to music, folding laundry, making guacamole . . . I needed some space from my words. Maybe next tim...
Posted by instant Jenification on Tue, 10 Jun 2008 11:38:00 PST

new twist on the High Shcool Reunion thing

I'm always having calendar conflicts, but this one is pretty good.Pride is the same weekend as my high school reunion. Both will cost me about the same, once all is said and done. So what's a girl to ...
Posted by instant Jenification on Tue, 10 Jun 2008 04:40:00 PST

Todays Lessons . . .

1. I AM VALUABLE!2. I love this commercial! It reminds me of Greg, among other things: 3. "To forgive" means letting go; "to reconcile" means patching up. Two different things. There's NOTHIN...
Posted by instant Jenification on Mon, 09 Jun 2008 03:16:00 PST

sobbin

Just watched an ABC Family movie called "Uptown Girls." Cried and cried and cried. Just struck a nerve. Or ten....On that note, here's some "Stop Your Sobbing" one of my favorite Pretenders songs: ...
Posted by instant Jenification on Mon, 09 Jun 2008 05:41:00 PST

no quizzes?

Just a random thing I've noticed lately . . . nobody does quizzes anymore. There used to be AT LEAST twenty bulletins an hour with answers to quizzes. No more quizzes. It's really rare. Maybe my frien...
Posted by instant Jenification on Sun, 08 Jun 2008 09:55:00 PST

the cat saga continues

This morning I washed his ears AND put drops in them. He hissed but he dealt with it. I put him down, he runs for his life, I pour my coffee, walk over to my CLEAN clothes to find something to wear, n...
Posted by instant Jenification on Sat, 31 May 2008 04:04:00 PST