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4billion sq mi of blood will he cuase to spill :(

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About Me

I am a follower of the way! I hate religion and belive God himself dose I stoped following him as a Christian who thought he was and found out its still possible to go to hell and be a "christian" so I fixed that. I droped all the religious crap! and Got into a relationship with him. I died that day and in dying found joy in my sorrow.
People are always asking me why im so sad and in response im gonna tell you why. I mourn for the apathetic state of which this world has taken. It is passive in its belifs and dosent care about truth anymore. It has even gone so far as to say there is no such thing as truth that its all relative and dosent matter. I mourn in regret of my past of which i deeply regret. I mourn for the thought of all who are going to hell! I mourn at all the tragedies that plaug the world, and I mourn of my own sin which is numerous cause im far from perfect.
I dont think its bad to be sad and depressed or mourn alot. I see no where in the bible where it says it is wrong to be sad, and i see no place where it promises happines if i follow Christ. The only promise the bible makes me is that i will be hated and cast out by the world because it hated God first. It says heaven will be a place unimaginable by the biggest imagination and it says that im to inhearit it. "Matthew 5:3"Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. 4 Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted." So all this to say tho I may be sad and morose often dont worry im truely blessed and will someday come to ihearit the kingdom of heaven and somday I will becomforted and its that hope that I live for.
I love four things more than anything thing:
1.God
2.Family
3.Friends
4.Music
Theses are 4 things i could not live without and three things I pray i always have. I also enjoy writng songs and poetry. I often use metaphores and write aligoricly sometimes even in middle english. So it may not be the easiest to understand all the time or sound diffrent from what it truely means.
I am going to be a pastor somday and hope to help many with what I have gone through and that which i havent with Gods advice and not what i heard Dr.phil say cause he didnt save my life, Christ did!
If you have any questions comments and lastly but most importantly Prayer request I would Love to hear them. I will pray for those who ask and I will do my best to answer any questions I can, be fore warned my standard is the Bible and its a dangerous book! Just ask everyone who is to scared to read it;)


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My Interests

sk8ting photography photoshop hot-n-readys music concerts especialy and hardcore dancing =} i love to have fun so if its fun ill prolly do it so long as it dosent cross my boundaries. Monster energy drinks and vitamin water along with hangin out at grounded with my buddies

I'd like to meet:



Jesus and anyone who is hurting! I love the outcast and the rejects because they are who i was and am by manys standards. I can wear a suit and tie but thats not me so doing that would make me a hypocrit. I am one who is hurting and in need of Gods love and grace. I want to meet all who dont have it so I can show it to them and give them even but a glimpse of hope in this damned vile world. I also belive that they are who Jesus would befriend. If you look at Jesus his friends were the prostitues, tax collectors, and fishemen who were the outcast of society at that time. I belive that Jesus I never saw the prostitute who was his friend as a prostitute tho I think he saw them as his child who he loved despite there blemishes.

THIS CHURCH IS AMAZING

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Music:

~~INDUSTRIAL=LOVE~~
~~GOTH=AMAZINGNESS~~
~~METAL=BRUTAL~~
~~DEATH/THRASH/SPEED/BLACK METAL=eXtreemly SWEET~~
~~ROCK=COMMON~~
~~PUNK=PUNK RAWK SHOWS~~
~~TECHNO=DANCE~~
~~RAP=CRAP 99% of the time~~
~~SKA=FUN~~
~~HARDCORE=PITS~~
~~CLASICAL=RANDOM~~
~~WORSHIP=FAV~~
BANDS
A.W.A.S.

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www.AWAS-MUSIC.de
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AUGUST BURNS RED

AS CITIES BURN

ARMED CONFLICT
AS I LAY DYING
ALICE COOPER
ANICCA
ACOUSTIC TORMENT
ADMONISH
ANTIDEMON
ASBUK
ALOVE FOR ENEMIES
ART238

BURDEN OF A DAY

BALAAM'S ASS
BENEVOLENCE
BENEATHTHESTREES
BILLY TALENT
BATZZ IN THE BELFRY

BLACKEND SUN
BECOMING THE ARCHYTYPE
BLINDSIDE

BRIDGESHADOWS
BEAUTY FOR ASHES
BRIDE
BELIVER
CRUXSHADOWS

CORIOLIS
CHASING VICTORY

CRIMSON MONLIGHT
COMBACK KID
COOL HAND LUKE
CANDELIGHT CHAOS
DIES
DEAD POETIC
DAEMON GRINDER
DARKFEILD ILLUMINATOR
DEAD PHARASIE
DELIVERANCE
DEATH POEMS
DEAFAID
DEPENDENCY
DEMON HUNTER

D.A.S.
DARK VALENTINE
DIVIDING THE LINE

EMERY

EDENS GRAVEYARD

ETERNAL DAMNATION
EXHORT
EZERA
EKKLESIA
ETHERAL SCOURGE
EXSPIRATION DATE
ETWC
ELIGBBOR'S
EVA O
EAST WEST
EXTOL
FROST LIKE ASHES
FIGUREINES
FEAST ETERNAL

FAITHBOMB
FOG
FLYLEAFE
FREEZPOP
FALLING UP
FF5
FLATFOOT56
FURTHER SEEMS FOREVER
FLEE THE SCENE
FOREVER CHANGED
GOTH MINISTER
GOLGOTHA
GOREDEATH
GRETCHEN
GODSCARE
GRIM
HORDE
HE IS LEGEND
HEARKEN HASTE THE DAY
HILLSONG UNITED
I-DRAGON-I
IRIS
IMOGEN HEAP
IMMORTAL SOULS
IMPERIUM
IMPENDING DOOM
INVERSION
INCARNATION
IMPLACABLE
JONEZETTA
JASON UPTON
JERREMY RIDDLE
KITW
KEYS 2 EDEN
KEKAL
KREAMATOR
LACRIMOSA
LEPER
LIVING SACRIFICE
LAMENT
LYRICYST
Lo-Ruhamah
LE RUE DELASHAW
MORBID SACRIFICE
MAINSTAY
MAXIMUM PENTECOST
METANOIA
MENTAL DESTRUCTION
MORDECAI
MATCHBOOK ROMANCE
MEWITHOUTYOU
MIDNIGHT SYNDICATE
MANGLED CARPENTER
MXPX
MANIC DRIVE
MAYLEEN AND THE SONS OF DISATER
MATT MCCOY
MOURNFUL VENGANCE
MORTIFICATION
NORMA JEAN
NECROMANICIDE
NARNIA
NO INNOCENT VICTEM
NOIZ
NO IDOLITRY
NO LONGER MORTAL
NEGATIVE THIRTEEN
NIHILIST
OUR CORPSE DESTROYED
ONCE NOTHING
OBLIVION
ONE THING
OBJECTIVITY
PAWN
PANTOKRATOR
PARAMECIUM
PRONOUNCED DEAD
PROPHECY INC.
RACKETS & DRAPES
REPENTANCE
RED UMBRELLA
ROPER
RELIANT K
RESISTANCE
RISE AGAINST
RLD
ROMANTIC WARFARE
RISE ABOVE
SLEEPING AT LAST
SAVIOR MACHINE
SHOWBREAD
SACRIFICIUM
SANTIFICA
SLICK SHOES
STREACH ARM STRONG
SELF AGAINST CITY
SATANICIDE
SATANS DOOM
SCREAMS OF ABEL
SATURATE
SEVENTH ANGEL
SKY GLASS BLUE
SIX FEET DEEP
SLAMCAT
SORID DEATH
SPIRIT BREESE
SILENT AUCTION
SIDES OF THE NORTH
SPITFIRE
SO LONG FORGOTEN
SEND OUT SCUDS
SICK OF CHANGE
SOULWHIRLINGSOMEWHERE
SHADOWS OF VANITY
SOLA FIDA
SYNTAX THE TERIFIC
THE AWAKENING
TWELVE GAUGE VALENTINE
THRICE
THE WOUNDED SOCIETY
THE LAST DANCE
TESTIMONY
THE GROANING
THEOCRACY A.D.
THUNDERSTORM
TORMENTED DEATH
TRIOMIC
THE CASUALTIES
THYINE SCABARD
THE DOG AND PONNY SHOW
THE AGONY SCENE

THE CLASIC CRIME
THE BURNING ISSUE
THE HAVOC
THE CHARIOT
THE WEDDING
THE NINETYFIVE THESIS
TBR
THE REIN
THE SHOWDOWN
THY BLEEDING SKY
TORTURED CONSCIENCE
TODAY FOREVER
THE LAST HOPE
THE VIOLET BURNING
THE PERFECT ADDICTION
TOURNIQUE
THE ALMOST
THE UNDESERVING
TDWP
THE TAPES
THE MIRACLE OF YOU
TINFOIL
THE 69 EYES
THE SEND
UNDEROATH
VENGANCE
VENGANCE RISING
VIRGIN BLACK
VITAL DESICION
VITALITY
VIXIVI
VOMITORIAL CORPULENCE
WITHING
WITH BLOOD COMES CLENSING
WINGED CREATURE
WOMB OF AZURE
WORSHIP FACTORY
WHALES ROAD
xDEATHSTARx

ZOMBIE GUTS
ZAO

Movies:


lotr
potc
tommy boy
♥better off dead♥
batman begins
almost round 3
zero new blood
Disciple
project86
cars
ice age
flip yeah right
good guys wear black
crocadile dundee
first daughter(for lo lo)
napoleon dynamight
Every young mans battle

Television:

NUMB3RS

Books:

most importantly the BIBLE
the welkening
the oath
monster
its all down hill from here
in the presence of my enimies
revivals golden key
The Circle Trilogy
COMES A HORSEMAN
How now then shall we live
battlecry fr my generation
revolution in world missons
anything that appeals to me at the moment

Heroes:

TO ALL MY AMAZING FRIENDS WHO HAVE HELPED ME THROUGH SO MUCH CRAP THAT I HAVE GONE THROUGH IN THE PAST COUPLE OF YEARS. I OWE YOU MY LIFE YOUR ALL THE REASON IM STILL ALIVE.

JESUS FOR DYING FOR ME SO I DONT HAVE TO GO TO HELL, AND JUST LETTING ME BE HIS FRIEND HES MY SUPERHERO!

Benjamin my Broha you have helped me out so much truly you are a blessing beyond words i hope we shall meet again someday soon
to all the rest of the IWT crew you guys are amazing and may God continue to bless you in your work and in your lives
Jason Upton you have shown me many things though your worship you have tought me most importantly that in my life there are many idols that are between me and God that i must trash if i am to be in his army
thanks to all of you above and the countless that i didnt have time to list for all you have helped me though and with mentaly physicaly and spiritualy i pray that God blesses you all for it

My Blog

The Corupt Church

This small portion that i have taken out of revelation 2 amazes me for diffrent reasons this one portion of revelation 2 realy just make me think of the amount of churches of which this has ...
Posted by 4billion sq mi of blood will he cuase to spill :( on Sat, 19 Jan 2008 08:24:00 PST

Suicide almost Took my life but im a survior!(the darker side of me a true story)

This is the story of my life i will warn you it dosent hold back on details much and it is very depressing but i have thought about it and after being asked and a seeming intrest in my last Blog i fel...
Posted by 4billion sq mi of blood will he cuase to spill :( on Wed, 16 Jan 2008 09:09:00 PST

7 KINDS OF SUICIDE

Death you wisper, Decay you scream. Dead you will be when I am through. 7 kinds of suicide I give you. Malice you portray, torment you face God will bow to me, so dont bother to pray. 7 Kinds of ...
Posted by 4billion sq mi of blood will he cuase to spill :( on Tue, 15 Jan 2008 08:35:00 PST

If I fell not to rise!(song)

If i went to sleep never to rise. Would you find the streangth. The streangth to survive the fire. And if I fell this time not to rise. Could you find the heart. The heart to carry on.   Cause th...
Posted by 4billion sq mi of blood will he cuase to spill :( on Sun, 13 Jan 2008 08:19:00 PST

burning this day

have mercy mercy please im screaming screaming end this torture im bleeding bleeding my sins the pirce me like nails this day my hands are nailed to the cross today my side is pirced by spears this d...
Posted by 4billion sq mi of blood will he cuase to spill :( on Thu, 03 Jan 2008 05:50:00 PST

New years DAY

A biting sting from the year gone past and dreams for happiness in years yet to come its new years day here i sit alone with a sadness creeping over me midnight a party then the year seems to die for ...
Posted by 4billion sq mi of blood will he cuase to spill :( on Wed, 02 Jan 2008 08:23:00 PST

Drug I cant shake

Your lipstick like morphene You beauty like speed Your a druge that I cant shake You grab my bloodied hands I stain your robe You call your son to wash it He did as he was told...
Posted by 4billion sq mi of blood will he cuase to spill :( on Sat, 29 Dec 2007 04:37:00 PST

Jezebell

yeah im not feeling so good right now so sry if this scares you this is just what is on my heart right now and kinda exsplains the monser i have become   Jezebell you bitch you have wrecked my li...
Posted by 4billion sq mi of blood will he cuase to spill :( on Fri, 28 Dec 2007 09:56:00 PST

Inside

My children my Bride My Love Fought after with Pride My children my Bride Why must you make me die My lovers My delight Why is it you cry My lovers My delight I will weep this night My servants my fri...
Posted by 4billion sq mi of blood will he cuase to spill :( on Fri, 14 Dec 2007 07:20:00 PST

fadeing till dead

I chaseth the life with all mine heart Grasping despeatly groping blidely for the wind To hope of happiness tis obsurd Thou art fading, fading till dead Anger was destroyed with a simple thought ...
Posted by 4billion sq mi of blood will he cuase to spill :( on Fri, 14 Dec 2007 07:11:00 PST