Robert

I got to thinking the other day about my life, and I decided that, in a really weird way, my life has been a complete success. It's all about desire. WHAT did I want in my life? Well, nothing. I never REALLY wanted anything in my life. What did I get? Nothing, of course. I wanted nothing, and I got nothing. Success! The few things in my life that I decided that I REALLY wanted, I got. I wanted to sober up. I did. I haven't drank more than twice in the last 8 years, and when I did drink, I didn't get drunk. I wanted to stop living on the streets as a homeless bum. I did that too. I haven't had to sleep outside in a damn ditch in almost 8 years. (About the same time I stopped drinking.......?)I don't give a damn about too much in this world. That was beat out of me as a kid, and I've never recovered. My damn uncle (who raised me) always told me that I was a worthless piece of shit and I always would be. Maybe he was right. Maybe I made him be right. As much as I hate that bastard, (Burn in hell, Bert, burn in hell.) he did somehow manage to instill strong values in me. I'm too honest. I'll tell the clerk if they are about to UNDER-charge me. I don't steal. I look at it as I don't want anything that doesn't belong to me. I don't give a shit about the newest, fancy piece of shit thing that EVERYONE just has to have, either. I used to be very loyal, but I haven't had anyone to be loyal TO in so long....Nah, of course I'm loyal. Once again, I don't want anything that doesn't belong to me. That includes people.