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About Me


I never feel like there is much to say about myself when one is asking, I feel that it is easier to answer a pacific questions then a general one….such as life. But I shall attempt to answer the timeless question that is always asked…. Myself……
If I had to describe myself in one word it would have to be purple....purple is my favorite color, and I think of my self as a passionate outgoing person and I see all that in purple....how, I couldn't tell u..
My life seems to change from day to day, the people who choose to stay a part of my life to the people who choose to stay out of my life. I am always hoping to make new friends and drop enemies. I know there are people in life that will make decisions affecting life in positive and negative ways… but some how I keep choosing to fill my life with the ones who never want to change it for the good, and when they do they always find a way to reverse it.
Such events in the past always seem to change people’s opinion about me… I don’t understand how you can judge a person by how other people treat them. Take an outgoing girl who loves life and loves people and to make them happy. Put her in a relationship with a person that she feels she wants to be with forever then drop her on her face… she is left heart broken trying to put back her life and figure out what she did wrong. And on top of it add people she thought were friends mock her behind her back, call her pathetic, ohh pour baby. Why can’t she just get over it already? So she is forced to put on a mask and carry around a broken heart hidden with a smile….
Sometimes it gets hard to deal with... luckily through all the mess I am having to clean up and sort through I have found that I have some really great friends.… for the first time people that I can actually call friends and know that if I died tomorrow they would be there….
… That is a good feeling to have.
March
Attractive personality.sexy. Affectionate.Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented.Loves special things. Moody.

My Interests

...The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return...

Sally's Song Lyrics

I sense there's something in the wind
That feels like tragedy's at hand
And though I'd like to stand by him
Can't shake this feeling that I have
The worst is just around the bend

And does he notice my feelings for him?
And will he see how much he means to me?
I think it's not to be

What will become of my dear friend?
Where will his actions lead us then?
Although I'd like to join the crowd
In their enthusiastic cloud
Try as I may, it doesn't last

And will we ever end up together?
no, I think not, it's never to become
For I am not the one

I love many things in life but no matter what goes wrong I always have the stage…

Acting for me is an art… a passion! Having the ability to close my eyes and be anyone I want is the greatest gift. There are words I could say to try and describe the feeling of playing a character on stage but they would not even come close to being true. It is almost like a possession, you are truly not yourself… you think like your character would think you talk, walk, breath, stand, sit, and anything you can think of… you do like your character would do because you are that character. The thought of it leaves me speechless….

Bang Bang You're Dead

“....So you make your face a mask A mask that hides your face A face that hides the pain A pain that eats your heart A heart nobody knows”

I'd like to meet:

Someone who will love me for me.

Music:

AFI
The Smashing Pumpkins
The Cure
The Dresden Dolls
Josh Groban
Ours
Jimmy Gnecco (Ours)
Loss
The Last Dance
The Cruxhadows
The Birthday Massacre
The Dreamside
Son of Sam
HIM

Which Goth band are you??
BAHAUSyou are what's considered a classic goth. Your lyrics are depressing and wordy. You have a lot to say and know how to say it.
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Cryogen Second
Simple Shelter
Nine Inch Nails
Cyndi Lauper
Evanescence
Marilyn Manson
Cradle of Filth
Tracy Bonham
Yeah Yeah Yeahs
Lacuna Coil
Orgy
Horror Pops
A Perfect Circle
David Bowie
The Beatles
Queen
Wicked
Bklyn
Les Miserables
Midnight Syndicate
..and what ever else i listen to

A.F.I.

Movies:

Labyrinth I think my all time fav movie!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
BATMAN(tis one of my fav's)
The Rocky Horror Picture( I think they are all my fav's lol)
The Nightmare Before Christmas
Sleepy Hollow
28 Days Later
Resident Evil 1 and 2
charlie and the chocolate factory
the devils advocate
hangman's curse
Dracula
phantom of the opra
Donnie Darko
The Shining
Requiem for a Dream
The Riddick Movies.......I think I have seen and like toooooo many movies so I am going to stop!

Television:

tv...whats that?

Books:

laurel k Hamilton, she is the best writer of all time....I actually read a lot or just when I have time and like so many books but I am so bad at authors names that I will just leave it at that.

My Blog

Caio America!

I HAVE LESS THAN A YEAR TILL I MOVE TO FRANCE!!!!!!! YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Posted by Beautiful Suicide ^v^ on Thu, 07 Sep 2006 12:37:00 PST

A Valediction: Forbidding Mourning

A Valediction: Forbidding MourningAs virtuous men pass mildly away, And whisper to their souls to go, Whilst some of their sad friends do say The breath goes now, and some say, No: So l...
Posted by Beautiful Suicide ^v^ on Fri, 28 Apr 2006 10:57:00 PST

I cant move!

So I went to the gym for the first time today since x-mas&. OUCH! I busted my ass for 2 hours doing everything I could think of& and not till I got out of the pool, from doing laps, did I realize I fo...
Posted by Beautiful Suicide ^v^ on Thu, 02 Mar 2006 05:24:00 PST

Have you ever wanted to tell someone FUCK YOU but could not bring yourself to do it?

I find myself wanting to scream fuck you at the top of my lungs but can't even bring myself to type it. It hurts me too bad to even think it AHHHH what is wrong with me...?...
Posted by Beautiful Suicide ^v^ on Tue, 14 Feb 2006 10:54:00 PST

Another day&the same broken heart.

Every day I try to take one step after the other and move on, but I cant.  The past 3 days have gotten even worse. but not being able to even communicate is making it harder, and it never helps w...
Posted by Beautiful Suicide ^v^ on Wed, 08 Feb 2006 05:32:00 PST

Apart....

He waits for her to understand But she won't understand at all She waits all night for him to call But he won't call anymore He waits to hear her say Forgive But she just drops her pearl-black eyes An...
Posted by Beautiful Suicide ^v^ on Fri, 03 Feb 2006 09:09:00 PST

Don't trade what you want most for what you want at the moment

Don't trade what you want most for what you want at the moment...   I was told this today by my English teacher of all people...and found that it relates to my life at its current state soo well...
Posted by Beautiful Suicide ^v^ on Tue, 31 Jan 2006 02:13:00 PST

You

So many questions in my mind and all the answers left behind.  Sitting my head is spinning, I dont know what to do.  Please dont forget me, Ill love you forever.  Forever youll look...
Posted by Beautiful Suicide ^v^ on Sat, 28 Jan 2006 08:43:00 PST

Numb

smith/gallup/bamonte/cooper/o'donnell yeah this is how it ends after all these years tired of it all hopelessly helplessly broken apart he finally falls he doesn't want to think doesn't want to feel ...
Posted by Beautiful Suicide ^v^ on Fri, 27 Jan 2006 09:37:00 PST

Nature

Why does life have to be so curl? When you dont expect it, it will knock you down.  Undeserving or not it doesnt care, infecting the one you love making him never their. Left to cry alone for no ...
Posted by Beautiful Suicide ^v^ on Thu, 26 Jan 2006 06:11:00 PST