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I Am Not a Dead Transmission

it's just jaemi

About Me

your tragic/comic protaganist. MyGen Profile Generator

My Interests

self pity,delusions of granduer,misanthropy,art,music,gross manifestations of success yada yada

I'd like to meet:

no one.

Music:

sigur ros,firesuite,ophelia torah (my band's better than your band),autechre,explosions in the sky,godspeed! you black emperor,venetian snares,yeah yeah yeah's,cliff martinez,65daysofstatic(my boy,in a completely platonic and hetero way,on drums.he's all growns up),refused,mogwai,michael nymen,david bowie,interpol,norma jean,dalek,sepultura,girls aloud,The Statutary Rape,curve,new order,cradle of filth,The Penis in Hands,cold,kayo dot,yourcodenameis:milo,jeff buckley,A Surripticious Feel,babylon zoo,electric 6,m83,orbital,isis,eden maine,Riding on Buses with Hard-Ons,xanopticon,circle takes the square,The Salmon Handcuffs,meshuggah,dog bones,mum,at the drive in,silver mount zion,aphex twin,Boys Mistaken for Ladies,henryk gorecki,jeniferever,squarepusher,The Cunt,justin timberlake,killing joke,the cure,bjork,joy division,kid 606,deftones....

Movies:

the dark crystal,swingers,solaris,lord of the rings,donnie darko,virgin suicides,the big lebowski,the prestige,ringu,igby goes down,royal tenenbaums,bladerunner,mullholland drive,pan's labyrinth,young sherlock holmes,run lola run,the machinist,amelie,the rules of attraction,lost in translation,21 grams,corpse bride,indiana jones,edward scissorhands...

Books:

alice sebold(lovely bones),charles bukowski,chuck palahniuk,jean paul satre,kurt vonnegut,sylvia plath,brett easton ellis,david mitchell,daphne de maurier,noam chomsky,milan kundera,frank mccourt,albert camus,john irving,dave eggers,henry miller,john fante,h.g wells,george orwell,graham greene...

Heroes:

none.

My Blog

its all downhill from here

i am underneath your window i am winding, twisting locks of clean smelling embers i have drifted from here to there and back with no real anchor to speak of i am fixtures, dates, unwanted affection un...
Posted by I Am Not a Dead Transmission on Fri, 05 Oct 2007 11:39:00 PST

Same old Song

my guitar isnt broken,but my wrist might be. this morning i had to use my LEFT hand to masturbate,and it did not feel like someone else was doing it.another of life's mysteries.but my friend who's REA...
Posted by I Am Not a Dead Transmission on Fri, 14 Sep 2007 02:47:00 PST

somebody fuck me please

mornings caked in yesterdays eyeliner,sick and pissthroats reduced to imaginary cock and pussy flavoured holesthe relief of emptiness awaitsall the sights and sounds,all the fun of the fayre not quite...
Posted by I Am Not a Dead Transmission on Sat, 04 Aug 2007 06:24:00 PST

the outlook for today is bleak

i am the next big fuck up, which you all aspire to be,you're not fooling anyone i am the thoroughbred stud's ball sack, i rape the carcasses of birds and mice the path of least resistance excuse me if...
Posted by I Am Not a Dead Transmission on Sat, 09 Jun 2007 10:38:00 PST

the push that melts the button

we've all had situations arise that defy our ability to recognise right from wrong or perhaps its simpler than that perhaps we ignore the signals common conceptions mis-read,a love at first sight whol...
Posted by I Am Not a Dead Transmission on Mon, 30 Apr 2007 07:51:00 PST

5 steps,left turn

we've ignored mistakes we knew we were making i care,i really do i am a bumbling mess,drowning in your "sincerity" i'm wanted,for the moment at least i am a king her king! i am the air and the orgasm ...
Posted by I Am Not a Dead Transmission on Tue, 06 Mar 2007 05:27:00 PST

i AM starting to feel sad now

i am a lover of wasteful convictions the smoke is unfounded,it's plume wraps loops around the heart the social signifiers are all there a sheen of peacefullness is my armour my self obsession con...
Posted by I Am Not a Dead Transmission on Wed, 14 Feb 2007 07:03:00 PST

showtime

in the blur of the lights sweat burns my eyes like peroxide i am sanctimonious and free and in that moment i'm convinced its love as light as ashes i am graceful and i dance my body is lithe my cock i...
Posted by I Am Not a Dead Transmission on Tue, 23 Jan 2007 03:52:00 PST

masturbation is the key

life is beautiful,isnt it? kaliedoscopic washes of imagery,all the people i've fucked merge into one memory was i ever anything more than meat and bones? was there ever anything more than a sleep that...
Posted by I Am Not a Dead Transmission on Tue, 23 Jan 2007 03:50:00 PST

fucking up

25 years of work in progress less failure more never really tried must try harder reach ultimate knowledge and enlightenment bullshit self-discovery wallow in self-obsession wallow in the fine line be...
Posted by I Am Not a Dead Transmission on Tue, 23 Jan 2007 03:49:00 PST