Kaycee

Damsel and Distress, MeLife, this is the most precious thing God given to us. In life sometimes, we had falls and weaknesses. No one could ever feel the satisfaction or contentment, in this world we live in there’s no perfect. I was a great pretender for sometime, I don’t even show to people that I feel so tamed and lonely, thank God I have friends. Like everyone said, no man is an island. But I am an island, yes, there are trees, water, mountains and leaving creatures, but there’s no man to take care the basic necessities that island could offer. There are men, trying to conquer the island and for sometime there are few men trying to destroy the whole paradise. Am I a paradise? There’s a stranger walked in the island, he lived there for months, but then after giving birth to the island, after using the things that surrounded him, he left. I experienced storms, huge waves and even drought, but I’m still here, after those dilemma, my trees still stand and the waters still in fresh. Shenanigans says, that Life is like a book of chapters. Maybe my life is in chapter 22, why? Because this is the moment I fell in love in a right way. I choose to love someone who’s not in love with me. I’m not that sure if he is, no one can tell. Unconditional love that’s what I wanted. Love with no return. In life when you fall in love, there’s no guarantee, you are willing to suffer even if it’s already abusive. But for me it’s not obnoxious, I love him simply because, he respected me, he’s gentle, cute and responsible, so there’s no reason to take my feelings for granted. I miss him, is that love? I’m happy every time we’re together, is that love? What am I going to do…is that love? I don’t know! It’s just because I’m natural about my feelings. You cannot blame me. But how long it takes, till I go away? Am I to hide from my truly, madly, deeply feelings? Come on world, tell me! Well, I guess time will tell. I have to face my fears, to let him go, that is. I’m scared that sooner or later, he’ll get married. I don’t want to see him looking to is bride and have a smile on his face and the bride, crying like she’s in the movie. And me, in that wedding I’m with the hazy people witnessing the so called ceremony, crying like a chicken shit. And after the wedding, when the bride threw her bouquet, I’m still here throwing my unused tissue papers because of weeping. So, I’m the crying diva of that day, well trophy for me please. Should I pursue myself to go away and eat my life without saying hi to that wedding? Hello?! I’m already eating my life and I don’t want to add eating my pride, that’s hard you know. Life that is, you have to faced the world’s greatest challenge. Even if it’s hard, you’re not the only son of God that you could just open your umbrella to hide from the challenges, that’s crazy. You must stay calm. You’re an Island you know? You have trees to take a rest with, you have waters to wash your worries and you have creatures to make you laugh. You have to be strong in all aspects of life, you have to be tough and stand out. You are beautiful island with white sand and nice shape. That’s life, you cannot control it, if destiny’s persists consult God for medication. Pray and talk to him to help you out. If you do this, your life will go to the last chapter with smile and great ending.