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♫iKelli♪

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About Me


about me My name is Kelli. I don't have any nicknames because let's face it, I have nobody around enough to come up with one that fits me. I'm seventeen years old, almost legal, and so fucking thankful for it. I am completely open with myself and my feelings, and I have no fears in hiding who I truly am, even if it's not accepted by others. I've been through way too much crap growing up that no child should ever have to go through, but either way, I've made it through. Like any other person, I have dreams, and even though mine are what some would call "unreachable", I'll never give up because they're all I've ever wanted. I go to a performing arts school because that's what I want to do with my life. I'm random, emotional, and I get freaked out way too easily, but that's just who I am. My friends often hurt me, but I'm just as frequently screwing things up, so it just all balances out in the end. I am in a relationship with the most amazing man in the world, Matthew. I plan to spend the rest of my life with him. I take relationships seriously. I know how much and how easily love can screw up your life. May 12th, 2006, I messed my entire life up by being selfish in trying to make this guy like me. Let's just say, ever since then, my life has been pretty rocky and I never got a second chance. I'm over it now though. I want more than anything to move to New York City after I graduate, but I may have to stay here for a few years before I can make that happen. My dreams are too important to give up for anything, and that's just how it is. I sing my insecurities out through songs whose lyrics describe how I feel or through literature of my own. I don't leave my room unless I have to because my family is so dysfunctional and screwed up that it hurts to look at them. Although I have two [unhappily] married parents, my older sister raised me and taught me everything I need to know as a child. Even though I don't have many friends, the good ones I do have mean absolutely everything to me and I wouldn't be the person I am today without each of their influence on my life. I'm often too negative, but I'm good at helping others look on the bright side when they need it. I'd much rather help others than help myself. I'm probably one of the kindest, most caring people you'll ever meet, but I've learned to defend myself and my dignity when needed. I'm absolutely addicted to the movie/broadway musical RENT, even though I am not a homosexual. I believe in God with all my heart, but I think the idea that man must marry woman is completely wrong and unfair. My only sister is married to my new brother-in-law Jason, and they just had their first child, Dylan. If you haven't noticed, I have the hardest time staying on one subject for a long time. I can drink apple juice forever and never get sick of it. I'm actually a smart girl, no matter how much it seems I have that "dumb blonde" thing going for me. I'm uneasily amused and easily annoyed, don't get them mixed up. The fourth of every month is pretty much worshiped in my life, and once you get to know me, you'll know why. My cell phone is pretty much attached to my hand always and if you want to get something out of me, the best way is through texting. I've learned to talk out my emotions that way. Country music basically disguists me since I've lived in a hicktown all my life around people that do not relate with me in any way. My life long dream has always been to move to New York City, get a job performing on Broadway, marry my perfect guy, and have a family consisting of three to five children and a dog. My first boy will be named Austin and my first girl will be named Anna, and if you don't agree, forget ever dating me. I often fear that nobody will ever marry me, but I've also realized that I don't want to marry the second best. I've been singing since I could talk and I've never wanted to do anything with my life besides music. I hate being called emo. Actually, I hate being stereotyped period. I'm me. I don't fit into a category. My style changes almost daily and I confuse people about as often as I confuse myself, [which is a lot]. I have a strange obsession with ducks and I have no choice but to love you forever if you give me one. I get ducks wherever I go. My friends know how that goes, haha. I have two ducks that I consider pretty much family. Jonas, which is the child of my friends Michael, Morgan, and myself [yes he has three parents], and also Marco, whom was an Easter gift from my mother. I don't care if you think I'm weird or a psychopath because I'll never change for anyone. I've learned my lesson against that. I will always believe in forgiveness and second chances because believe me, I know how much it hurts not to get them. I'm sure I can make you laugh without even trying because my happy personality just works that way. I've been told my smile is one of the greatest things about me and it can brigthen someone's day. I stay up way too late writing in my journal, and I have a serious problem with crying myself to sleep every night. I hate making decisions and the ones I do make are usually wrong in some way. There's so many things I can say about myself, but you'll still never understand me. Nobody ever will. I'm that type of girl with multi-personalities, and I show all of them off to every person I know at some point in time. Wanna know the easiest way to my heart? Accept me for who I am, don't tell me that what I decide to do is wrong, and support my ambitions. I don't need a psychiatrist, I need friends. Remember that. And the most important thing of all, remember my name; I'm gonna make it someday, somehow.
new york city.
i'll see you soon.
music, movies && television
3 Doors Down, 3LW, 98 Degrees, Accord, Aerosmith, Aimee Allen, Alanis Morissette, Alicia Keys, All-4-One, All-American Rejects, All Time Low, Aly and AJ, American Hi-Fi, Amy Lee, Andrew W.K., Anna Nalick, Aqua, Arlington, Ashanti, Ashlee Simpson, Ashley Parker Angel, Ashley Tisdale, Avril Lavigne, Baby Bash, Backstreet Boys, Beyonce, Billy Ray Cyrus, Black Eyed Peas, Blink-182, Blue October, Bob Carlisle, Bo Bice, Bon Jovi, Bounty Killer, Bow Wow, Bowling For Soup, Breaking Benjamin, Brian McKnight, Brie Larson, Britney Spears, Brittany Snow, Busta Rhymes, Carrie Underwood, Cascada, Celine Dion, Chantal Kreviazuk, Char, Cher, Cheyenne Kimball, Chingy, Chris Brown, Chris Daughtry, Christina Aguilera, Christi Mac, Christina Vidal, Christopher Walken, Christy Carlson Romano, Ciara, City High, Clay Aidken, Cold Play, Craig David, Creed, Crossfade, Daniel Powter, Danity Kane, Dashboard Confessional, Dave Matthews Band, David Cook, Dem Franchize Boyz, Destiny's Child, DHT, Dido, Diffuser, Dixie Chicks, Dream, Dreamstreet, Eamon, Edwin McCain, Elijah Kelly, Elliott Yamin, Eminem, Escape The Fate, Evanescence, Eve, Everlife, Faber Drive, Faith Hill, Fall Out Boy, Family Force 5, Fantasia, Fat Joe, Fefe Dobson, Fergie, Finger Eleven, Fireflight, Five For Fighting, Flipsyde, Flogging Molly, Foo Fighters, Forty Foot Echo, Fuel, Garth Brooks, Gary Allan, Gavin Degraw, Genuwine, Gnarls Barkley, Good Charlotte, Goo Goo Dolls, Green Day, Gretchen Wilson, Gwen Stefani, Hannah Montana, Halo Friendlies, Hawthorne Heights, Hellogoodbye, Hilary Duff, HIM, Hinder, Hollywood Undead, Hoobastank, Hope 7, Howie Day, Ingram Hill, James Blunt, James Marsden, Jamie Lynn Spears, Jason Mraz, Jay-Z, Jenniffer Lopez, Jesse McCartney, Jessica Simpson, Jimmy Eat World, Joey Ramone, John Mayer, John Travolta, JoJo, Jonas Brothers, Jordin Sparks, Josh Turner, Kanye West, Katharine McPhee, Keith Urban, Kelci Paige, Kelis, Kelly Clarkson, Kylie Minogue, Lash, Lee Ann Womack, Leann Rimes, Lenny Kravitz, Lifehouse, Lillix, Lindsay Lohan, Linkin Park, Lonestar, Lostprophets, Ludacris, Mandy Moore, Manic Drive, Marcos Hernandez, Mariah Carey, Mario Vasquez, Maroon 5, Matchbox 20, McFly, Michael Bolton, Michelle Branch, Michelle Pfeiffer, Miley Cyrus, Mindless Self Indulgence, Missy Elliot, Monica, Motion City Soundtrack, My Chemical Romance, Natasha Beddingfield, Nelly, Nelly Furtado, New Found Glory, Ne-Yo, Nick Cannon, Nickelback, Nick Lachey, Nikki Blonsky, No Doubt, Norah Jones, Nsync, Offspring, Omarion, Outkast, Panic! At The Disco, Paris Hilton, Parkway Drive, Pat Benetar, Pennywise, Pink, Plain White T's, Pretty Ricky, Pussycat Dolls, Queen, Queen Latifah, Rascal Flatts, Raven Symone, Red Hot Chili Peppers, Relient K, R.E.M., Rihanna, Rise Against, Rob Thomas, Ryan Cabrera, Santana, Sarah Connor, Sarah McLachlan, Savage Garden, Saving Jane, Senses Fail, Seventh Day Slumber, Shakira, Shania Twain, Sheryl Crow, Simple Plan, Smashmouth, Snoop Dog, Snow Patrol, Social Distortion, Spice Girls, Stacie Orrico, Staind, Stone Sour, Story Of The Year, Sugarcult, Sugar Ray, Sum 41, Superchick, Switchfoot, System Of A Down, Taking Back Sunday, T.A.T.U., Taylor Hicks, Taylor Swift, Teairra Mari, Teddy Geiger, The Blood Hound Gang, The Calling, The Cheetah Girls, The Click Five, The Donnas, The Fray, The Heart Attacks, The Killers, The Matches, The Starting Line, The Unseen, The Used, The Wreckers, Thousand Foot Krutch, Three Days Grace, Tiger Army, Timbaland, Tim McGraw, TLC, Toby Keith, Toya, Train, Trapt, Triad, U2, Uncle Cracker, Usher, Vanessa Anne Hudgens, Vanessa Carlton, Vertical Herizon, Vitamin C, Weezer, Westside Connection, Whitney Houston, Yeah Yeah Yeahs, Yellowcard, Youth Asylum, Zac Efron, and others.
RENT, Now And Then, 10 Things I Hate About You, Odd Girl Out, Moulin Rouge, The Cheetah Girls, From Justin To Kelly, Freedom Writers, Borat, Scary Movie 1-4, Reign Over Me, Hairspray, The Exorcism Of Emily Rose, The Breakfast Club, Pursuit Of Happyness, Music And Lyrics, War Of The Worlds, Driving In Cars With Boys, Saw 1-4, Across The Universe, Meet The Spartans, P.S. I Love You, DreamGirls, 8 Mile, A Cinderella Story, Raise Your Voice, American Dreamz, Undiscovered, The Perfect Man, Grease, Thirteen, King Kong, When A Stranger Calls, Fifteen and Pregnant, Drive Me Crazy, Model Behavior, Crossroads, An American Haunting, The Invisible, Titanic, She's The Man, Mean Girls, Save The Last Dance, The Color Of Friendship, Brave New Girl, Hannah Montana: Best of Both Worlds, The Wedding Planner, Snakes On A Plane, Finding Nemo, The Phantom Of The Opera, Disturbia, Wedding Crashers, Wolf Creek, Texas Chainsaw Massacre, Date Movie, Nancy Drew, Cruel Intentions, The Hills Have Eyes 1&2, How To Lose A Guy In 10 Days, Cheaper By The Dozen 1&2, Dirty Dancing, Sisterhood Of The Traveling Pants, Game Over, Our Lips Are Sealed, New York Minute, Willy Wonka and The Chocolate Factory, Charlie and The Chocolate Factory, The Wizard Of Oz, Freaky Friday, Confessions of a Teenage Drama Queen, and many more.
American Idol, So You Think You Can Dance, America's Next Best Dance Crew, Singing Bee, Don't Forget The Words, Gilmore Girls, Wildfire, Hell's Kitchen, Big Brother, etc.

My Interests





friends

"I've heard it said that people come into our lives for a reason, bringing something we must learn. And we are led to those who help us most to grow, if we let them and we help them in return. Well, I don't know if I believe that's true, but I know I'm who I am today because I knew you." -Wicked

My dearest Michael. Its still hard to believe how close I've grown with you in the past few years. Never in a million years did I expect to meet a person like you; I didn't know they existed. You're absolutely the most amazing inspiration and person in general I've ever come across in my life. You've always been there for me and there's so many days I couldn't have made it through without you. Words couldn't explain how grateful I am to know you and be part of your life. I know we've had our share of rough times, but I truly think we've moved beyond those now and are better than ever. I want you to know that no matter where our futures lead us, or even if I do get my "big broadway break", I'll never think anything less of you and I'll always have you to thank for encouraging me to move forward in life. I love you with all my heart and I can only hope that we'll stay good friends throughout our lifetimes. You just better pray I stop traveling or you're going to have a whole lot of rubber ducks in your house, haha.

"Tabby, don't flash him!" Haha. Six of the greatest years of my life have spent with you and I wouldn't trade that for the world. You were the first true best friend I ever had. We're so much alike in every way, and I'm so glad we've never had to fight about anything. We've kept our relationship drama free and that alone makes what we have extremely special. I have enough memories (and pictures) to last a lifetime, but considering the fact that you owe me like a billion dollars, I don't think we'll be going separate ways anytime soon. ;) You were the first person that I could ever truly depend on to stand up for me and not be ashamed to be my friend as I went through all the teasing of my problems. I could always depend on you to keep my secrets and you've always been the girl I could scream at when I'm angry and just not even care what I say. I love having you in my life and I really hope that these past years are just a preview of what is just beginning for us. We're finally seniors, girl!

What can I say about you, Matthew? I just don't even know where to begin. You pretty much know me better than anyone else I know and you've always cared more about me than I ever knew possible. You're always giving me compliments and just giving me so much more than I deserve in general. I'd be so lost (and hungry, lol) without you in my life. We've had some rough spots, but I want you to know that I do love you, and that will never change. You've always came running to my door when I needed you and you've always helped me out in every way you possibly could. You also support me a lot and wish my luck in everything I do. Its nice to have someone who cares more than the world about you, even when you think you don't deserve it. You're pretty much my best friend these days. I love youuu.

Celia! I've known you longer than almost all of my friends. We've had a lot of really good times together and your family has become my second family and you guys have given me so much. I know I can always run to you when I'm having a bad day and you try to cheer me up. Plus we always know how to be immature and have fun or laugh at things that nobody else would find funny. Like our random laugh attacks that make no sense, but seem to have made up some of the best nights of our lives. One of these days, we will have our roadtrip, I promise!

Life long friends. My Ashley is the only person I can say this about. Same hospital, same street, same birth month, same year, same mom's name, both the youngest; we have so many freaky things in common with each other, but its so cool that we can only say that about each other and nobody else can. So many people never understood that we were friends, and hardly anybody could understand how we can talk so fast to each other and still understand what we're saying, haha. I'll always remember all the times your mom babysat me. And I'll always have the dent in my head to remind me of you knocking me out and thinking I died, haha. Crazy times, huh?

more coming soon....

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TWLOHA street team. join it.

To Write Love On Her Arms is an organization that gives hope and help to those who are having issues with self harm and emotional problems. It's a great organization with a great, non-profit goal - to...
Posted by kiKellij on Sat, 23 Feb 2008 01:07:00 PST

Thanks for acting like you cared.

Ugh I'm just so outrageously pissed off and upset. I don't even know where to begin. Basically, everything and everyone in my life (well, mostly just the guys I suppose) is backfiring on me. I follow ...
Posted by kiKellij on Tue, 12 Feb 2008 05:21:00 PST

Some people search the world to find something like what we have.</3

Bored.It's late.Do it?BASICS:Name: Age: Location: Height: Hair: Eyes: Piercings/tattoos: OTHER:   1. Where would we go on dates? 2. Who are three of your favorite bands/artists? 3. Do you drink/s...
Posted by kiKellij on Sat, 09 Feb 2008 12:16:00 PST

Homecoming 2007!

So I was just really in a blog writing mood. And since I haven't written one in a very long time, I figured I would. It's always nice to get things out. Hm. Where to start? So lately Matt and I have b...
Posted by kiKellij on Mon, 01 Oct 2007 08:04:00 PST

Oh believe me, there aint nothing I cant do.

Wow. It's been so long since I wrote an actual blog. I used to do this several times a week. But I guess, after a while, I started realizing it wasn't really helping me. I always thought talking abou...
Posted by kiKellij on Fri, 10 Aug 2007 01:15:00 PST

Leave Out All The Rest

Every once in a while, I have these days where I wake up and suddenly everything that seemed perfect in my life seems miserable for some odd reason. I guess today is just one of those days. I know eve...
Posted by kiKellij on Wed, 04 Jul 2007 03:45:00 PST

Screwed over yet again.

Why does it seem like every single time I finally think I have my life in a good place and I'm happy, something has to go wrong and make me feel worse than ever? And of course, it's always somehow pus...
Posted by kiKellij on Mon, 28 May 2007 08:57:00 PST

May 12th.

So, as I've been stressing all week, today is May 12th. That means it has been exactly one year that I've felt as if I'm leading myself in the direction of a miserable life. I know everyone keeps sayi...
Posted by kiKellij on Sat, 12 May 2007 08:59:00 PST

To be blunt; ranting about how my life sucks for attention.

rahhhh. venting time. get over it.Matt dumped me. Apparentally he couldn't trust me to be faithful or somthing fucking retarded along those lines. I don't care. He's obviously not the best for me, we ...
Posted by kiKellij on Wed, 25 Apr 2007 08:15:00 PST

Turn around. No worries, I'll be stronger this time.

It's amazing how within a couple days, all the information in my last blog can completely turn around.Although I promised myself, and everyone else, that I wouldn't....I talked to him. It took a few m...
Posted by kiKellij on Sat, 21 Apr 2007 04:03:00 PST