♫iKelli♪

about me My name is Kelli. I don't have any nicknames because let's face it, I have nobody around enough to come up with one that fits me. I'm seventeen years old, almost legal, and so fucking thankful for it. I am completely open with myself and my feelings, and I have no fears in hiding who I truly am, even if it's not accepted by others. I've been through way too much crap growing up that no child should ever have to go through, but either way, I've made it through. Like any other person, I have dreams, and even though mine are what some would call "unreachable", I'll never give up because they're all I've ever wanted. I go to a performing arts school because that's what I want to do with my life. I'm random, emotional, and I get freaked out way too easily, but that's just who I am. My friends often hurt me, but I'm just as frequently screwing things up, so it just all balances out in the end. I am in a relationship with the most amazing man in the world, Matthew. I plan to spend the rest of my life with him. I take relationships seriously. I know how much and how easily love can screw up your life. May 12th, 2006, I messed my entire life up by being selfish in trying to make this guy like me. Let's just say, ever since then, my life has been pretty rocky and I never got a second chance. I'm over it now though. I want more than anything to move to New York City after I graduate, but I may have to stay here for a few years before I can make that happen. My dreams are too important to give up for anything, and that's just how it is. I sing my insecurities out through songs whose lyrics describe how I feel or through literature of my own. I don't leave my room unless I have to because my family is so dysfunctional and screwed up that it hurts to look at them. Although I have two [unhappily] married parents, my older sister raised me and taught me everything I need to know as a child. Even though I don't have many friends, the good ones I do have mean absolutely everything to me and I wouldn't be the person I am today without each of their influence on my life. I'm often too negative, but I'm good at helping others look on the bright side when they need it. I'd much rather help others than help myself. I'm probably one of the kindest, most caring people you'll ever meet, but I've learned to defend myself and my dignity when needed. I'm absolutely addicted to the movie/broadway musical RENT, even though I am not a homosexual. I believe in God with all my heart, but I think the idea that man must marry woman is completely wrong and unfair. My only sister is married to my new brother-in-law Jason, and they just had their first child, Dylan. If you haven't noticed, I have the hardest time staying on one subject for a long time. I can drink apple juice forever and never get sick of it. I'm actually a smart girl, no matter how much it seems I have that "dumb blonde" thing going for me. I'm uneasily amused and easily annoyed, don't get them mixed up. The fourth of every month is pretty much worshiped in my life, and once you get to know me, you'll know why. My cell phone is pretty much attached to my hand always and if you want to get something out of me, the best way is through texting. I've learned to talk out my emotions that way. Country music basically disguists me since I've lived in a hicktown all my life around people that do not relate with me in any way. My life long dream has always been to move to New York City, get a job performing on Broadway, marry my perfect guy, and have a family consisting of three to five children and a dog. My first boy will be named Austin and my first girl will be named Anna, and if you don't agree, forget ever dating me. I often fear that nobody will ever marry me, but I've also realized that I don't want to marry the second best. I've been singing since I could talk and I've never wanted to do anything with my life besides music. I hate being called emo. Actually, I hate being stereotyped period. I'm me. I don't fit into a category. My style changes almost daily and I confuse people about as often as I confuse myself, [which is a lot]. I have a strange obsession with ducks and I have no choice but to love you forever if you give me one. I get ducks wherever I go. My friends know how that goes, haha. I have two ducks that I consider pretty much family. Jonas, which is the child of my friends Michael, Morgan, and myself [yes he has three parents], and also Marco, whom was an Easter gift from my mother. I don't care if you think I'm weird or a psychopath because I'll never change for anyone. I've learned my lesson against that. I will always believe in forgiveness and second chances because believe me, I know how much it hurts not to get them. I'm sure I can make you laugh without even trying because my happy personality just works that way. I've been told my smile is one of the greatest things about me and it can brigthen someone's day. I stay up way too late writing in my journal, and I have a serious problem with crying myself to sleep every night. I hate making decisions and the ones I do make are usually wrong in some way. There's so many things I can say about myself, but you'll still never understand me. Nobody ever will. I'm that type of girl with multi-personalities, and I show all of them off to every person I know at some point in time. Wanna know the easiest way to my heart? Accept me for who I am, don't tell me that what I decide to do is wrong, and support my ambitions. I don't need a psychiatrist, I need friends. Remember that. And the most important thing of all, remember my name; I'm gonna make it someday, somehow.
new york city.
i'll see you soon.
music, movies && television
3 Doors Down, 3LW, 98 Degrees, Accord, Aerosmith, Aimee Allen, Alanis Morissette, Alicia Keys, All-4-One, All-American Rejects, All Time Low, Aly and AJ, American Hi-Fi, Amy Lee, Andrew W.K., Anna Nalick, Aqua, Arlington, Ashanti, Ashlee Simpson, Ashley Parker Angel, Ashley Tisdale, Avril Lavigne, Baby Bash, Backstreet Boys, Beyonce, Billy Ray Cyrus, Black Eyed Peas, Blink-182, Blue October, Bob Carlisle, Bo Bice, Bon Jovi, Bounty Killer, Bow Wow, Bowling For Soup, Breaking Benjamin, Brian McKnight, Brie Larson, Britney Spears, Brittany Snow, Busta Rhymes, Carrie Underwood, Cascada, Celine Dion, Chantal Kreviazuk, Char, Cher, Cheyenne Kimball, Chingy, Chris Brown, Chris Daughtry, Christina Aguilera, Christi Mac, Christina Vidal, Christopher Walken, Christy Carlson Romano, Ciara, City High, Clay Aidken, Cold Play, Craig David, Creed, Crossfade, Daniel Powter, Danity Kane, Dashboard Confessional, Dave Matthews Band, David Cook, Dem Franchize Boyz, Destiny's Child, DHT, Dido, Diffuser, Dixie Chicks, Dream, Dreamstreet, Eamon, Edwin McCain, Elijah Kelly, Elliott Yamin, Eminem, Escape The Fate, Evanescence, Eve, Everlife, Faber Drive, Faith Hill, Fall Out Boy, Family Force 5, Fantasia, Fat Joe, Fefe Dobson, Fergie, Finger Eleven, Fireflight, Five For Fighting, Flipsyde, Flogging Molly, Foo Fighters, Forty Foot Echo, Fuel, Garth Brooks, Gary Allan, Gavin Degraw, Genuwine, Gnarls Barkley, Good Charlotte, Goo Goo Dolls, Green Day, Gretchen Wilson, Gwen Stefani, Hannah Montana, Halo Friendlies, Hawthorne Heights, Hellogoodbye, Hilary Duff, HIM, Hinder, Hollywood Undead, Hoobastank, Hope 7, Howie Day, Ingram Hill, James Blunt, James Marsden, Jamie Lynn Spears, Jason Mraz, Jay-Z, Jenniffer Lopez, Jesse McCartney, Jessica Simpson, Jimmy Eat World, Joey Ramone, John Mayer, John Travolta, JoJo, Jonas Brothers, Jordin Sparks, Josh Turner, Kanye West, Katharine McPhee, Keith Urban, Kelci Paige, Kelis, Kelly Clarkson, Kylie Minogue, Lash, Lee Ann Womack, Leann Rimes, Lenny Kravitz, Lifehouse, Lillix, Lindsay Lohan, Linkin Park, Lonestar, Lostprophets, Ludacris, Mandy Moore, Manic Drive, Marcos Hernandez, Mariah Carey, Mario Vasquez, Maroon 5, Matchbox 20, McFly, Michael Bolton, Michelle Branch, Michelle Pfeiffer, Miley Cyrus, Mindless Self Indulgence, Missy Elliot, Monica, Motion City Soundtrack, My Chemical Romance, Natasha Beddingfield, Nelly, Nelly Furtado, New Found Glory, Ne-Yo, Nick Cannon, Nickelback, Nick Lachey, Nikki Blonsky, No Doubt, Norah Jones, Nsync, Offspring, Omarion, Outkast, Panic! At The Disco, Paris Hilton, Parkway Drive, Pat Benetar, Pennywise, Pink, Plain White T's, Pretty Ricky, Pussycat Dolls, Queen, Queen Latifah, Rascal Flatts, Raven Symone, Red Hot Chili Peppers, Relient K, R.E.M., Rihanna, Rise Against, Rob Thomas, Ryan Cabrera, Santana, Sarah Connor, Sarah McLachlan, Savage Garden, Saving Jane, Senses Fail, Seventh Day Slumber, Shakira, Shania Twain, Sheryl Crow, Simple Plan, Smashmouth, Snoop Dog, Snow Patrol, Social Distortion, Spice Girls, Stacie Orrico, Staind, Stone Sour, Story Of The Year, Sugarcult, Sugar Ray, Sum 41, Superchick, Switchfoot, System Of A Down, Taking Back Sunday, T.A.T.U., Taylor Hicks, Taylor Swift, Teairra Mari, Teddy Geiger, The Blood Hound Gang, The Calling, The Cheetah Girls, The Click Five, The Donnas, The Fray, The Heart Attacks, The Killers, The Matches, The Starting Line, The Unseen, The Used, The Wreckers, Thousand Foot Krutch, Three Days Grace, Tiger Army, Timbaland, Tim McGraw, TLC, Toby Keith, Toya, Train, Trapt, Triad, U2, Uncle Cracker, Usher, Vanessa Anne Hudgens, Vanessa Carlton, Vertical Herizon, Vitamin C, Weezer, Westside Connection, Whitney Houston, Yeah Yeah Yeahs, Yellowcard, Youth Asylum, Zac Efron, and others.
RENT, Now And Then, 10 Things I Hate About You, Odd Girl Out, Moulin Rouge, The Cheetah Girls, From Justin To Kelly, Freedom Writers, Borat, Scary Movie 1-4, Reign Over Me, Hairspray, The Exorcism Of Emily Rose, The Breakfast Club, Pursuit Of Happyness, Music And Lyrics, War Of The Worlds, Driving In Cars With Boys, Saw 1-4, Across The Universe, Meet The Spartans, P.S. I Love You, DreamGirls, 8 Mile, A Cinderella Story, Raise Your Voice, American Dreamz, Undiscovered, The Perfect Man, Grease, Thirteen, King Kong, When A Stranger Calls, Fifteen and Pregnant, Drive Me Crazy, Model Behavior, Crossroads, An American Haunting, The Invisible, Titanic, She's The Man, Mean Girls, Save The Last Dance, The Color Of Friendship, Brave New Girl, Hannah Montana: Best of Both Worlds, The Wedding Planner, Snakes On A Plane, Finding Nemo, The Phantom Of The Opera, Disturbia, Wedding Crashers, Wolf Creek, Texas Chainsaw Massacre, Date Movie, Nancy Drew, Cruel Intentions, The Hills Have Eyes 1&2, How To Lose A Guy In 10 Days, Cheaper By The Dozen 1&2, Dirty Dancing, Sisterhood Of The Traveling Pants, Game Over, Our Lips Are Sealed, New York Minute, Willy Wonka and The Chocolate Factory, Charlie and The Chocolate Factory, The Wizard Of Oz, Freaky Friday, Confessions of a Teenage Drama Queen, and many more.
American Idol, So You Think You Can Dance, America's Next Best Dance Crew, Singing Bee, Don't Forget The Words, Gilmore Girls, Wildfire, Hell's Kitchen, Big Brother, etc.