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Beautiful Disaster

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About Me


I’m an artist, a mother, a friend. I am very particular about who I spend my time with. I personally think all people should be like that. It’s not that I wont speak or whatever to everyone but I think those who you truly let in your life make an impact on it weather you expect them to or not. So it’s important who you let in. But when you do win me over I will give me anything and everything for you. I’d much rather have a handful of best friends than a thousand acquaintances. You can call anyone a friend, but not everyone a best friend. I like to think I’m fun… and I’ll tell ya. I guess it would be safe to say I’m a real character. And I like it like that. I like being me. I’d rather be a first rate version of myself than a second rate version of someone else. If you don’t like me for me, I guess it’s your loss. I know what I’m worth, and I expect to be treated that way… so it’s all good. I have the most beautiful son ever. No really I do, ask anyone who’s seen him. Better yet, look for yourself. He’s amazing and I love him with everything I am. He will be 2 in January and he knows how great it is. He is my life. I guess you could say I am a good mother. I’m still trying to define who I am, with and without my son. I’m still trying to find time to define who I am. But it’s alright, I’ll get there. ::smiles:: maybe when my son is off to college. Haha I would rather live life like there is a God and die and find out there isn’t, than to live life like there is NO God and die and find out there is? If your trying to fit your family into your life, of course it's going to be hard and difficult. But if you stop trying to fit them into your life, but if your family IS your life, that's when it stops being a chore and becomes amazing. Stop trying to just fit your family into your life, make THEM your life. It's amazing when you find someone who makes you their world... ~~~

My Interests

I love to write... I started when I was like 13 or 14... it helps me cope with things. I also like to draw.

I'd like to meet:

My grandmother... (my moms mom)

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What People Think of Your Mouth
People see you as both flirtatious and intimidating.
Your friends are secretly put off by your seductive powers.
And strangers either fear you or obsess over you - sometimes both.
No way to fight it - you're a natural vamp. Or rake. What Does Your Mouth Say About You?~~This layout was handmade with love by the folks at My space or yours? using original artwork by Marah Johnson. Go get one!

Music:

I hate that flixter thing... so I took it off.check out this sight my friend takes these pictures and my maternity pictures are on here...http://www.eye-solationimages.com/portraits.html

Movies:

I hate the FLIXTER thing... so I took it off. ~~~~~~

Television:

I watch One Love, sopranos, Family Guy, Food shows... (my honey watches that)... and other stuff I can't think of...

Books:


You Are 56% Open Minded
You are a very open minded person, but you're also well grounded.
Tolerant and flexible, you appreciate most lifestyles and viewpoints.
But you also know where you stand firm, and you can draw that line.
You're open to considering every possibility - but in the end, you stand true to yourself. How Open Minded Are You?

Heroes:

My granddaddy is one of my biggest hero's. He gave so much to so many while he was here it's amazing. I would bet a million dollars you couldn't find anyone who would say a bad thing about that man. He loved God, his family, and many others and would do anything for people, espcially. He was a humble, wonderful, amazing man. I just wish we could have had more time with him. Granted we always take advantage of the time we have with people, which I am guilty of, but I really do miss him. I knew I would, but I had no clue actually how much. I wish my son knew him.

My Blog

how your life changes when you become a mom

1. You finally stop to smell the roses, because your baby is in your arms.2. Where you once believed you were fearless, you now find yourself afraid.3. The sacrifices you thought you made to have a ch...
Posted by Beautiful Disaster on Sun, 20 Apr 2008 11:10:00 PST

What is it?

1 Corinthians 13 Love  1If I speak in the tongues[a] of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. 2If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all ...
Posted by Beautiful Disaster on Sat, 29 Mar 2008 09:20:00 PST

My Heart <3

I feel strange, uncharacteristic even. I can't explain it. It's almost like I'm empty. Like something is missing. Maybe even something is wrong. My heart, my soul it's just not right, it's bare, vacan...
Posted by Beautiful Disaster on Fri, 07 Dec 2007 10:25:00 PST

just thinkin...

I wish you would try harder to spend more time with me...
Posted by Beautiful Disaster on Tue, 27 Nov 2007 06:06:00 PST

I will find someone who cares...

I can't help but wonder& does it really matter Do you honestly care how I feel? So why even inquire about it? Truthfully, I don't know why you do, Why you pretend. We both know the truth, Let's just a...
Posted by Beautiful Disaster on Fri, 23 Nov 2007 03:18:00 PST

well...

umm, yea you suck okay. I'm done, have a great day!
Posted by Beautiful Disaster on Fri, 09 Nov 2007 06:43:00 PST

From A Distance

He loved her from a distance.. While his letters to her lie in a box, she brings them out to read as She holds them close To her heart; Staning them with her tears It seems the closer they become...
Posted by Beautiful Disaster on Tue, 16 Oct 2007 10:54:00 PST

falling

sometimes I just can't comprehend why things like this have to happen. I don't think I didn't anything to diserve this. It truly hurts my heart. Am I that bad? Apparently so. I just don't know what to...
Posted by Beautiful Disaster on Wed, 26 Sep 2007 11:34:00 PST

three questions got me this

..> Your Personality Is Idealist (NF)You are a passionate, caring, and unique person.You are good at expressing yourself and sharing your ideals.You are the most compassionate of all types and...
Posted by Beautiful Disaster on Thu, 20 Sep 2007 11:10:00 PST

it’s 11:11... make a wish

Pure torment of the soul my heart aches as it breaks if only for someone to love I'm begging and pleading if only for someone to love.... me today loneliness sets in but I smile as if nothing is wron...
Posted by Beautiful Disaster on Tue, 18 Sep 2007 08:44:00 PST