Ashley Young and Desperate for Attention

About Me

a pad of paper and black ball-point pen she starts writing poetic words again. words that fill the mind and the soul with comfort. tracing through the lines of the scars on her ripped and torn emotions and soul. if she begins she may never begin to stop. she hopes there is enough paper to express what she's thinking and been feeling for quite some time now.

16, and all alone, searching for a place to call her home Thinking about a bottle or maybe even worse. But she passed on self-destruction when she found a better place, At the show, with the kids, the excitement of change And singing along with every kid in the crowd, she breathed in deep and she sang out loud... These are the days...These are the days... These are the days we will never forget.

my hair is always a mess, and my make up is usually smeared. i've been told i care too much, but i've been told i don't show i care enough. i might not be the type of girl to tell you i love you every minute of every hour, but i am the type of girl that says i love you whenever the time is right. i obsess over the little things, and i let people get under my skin. i've been told i'm overconfident, but then again, i've been told i come across like i have low self esteem. if you ask me a question twice, the answer might change. i change. i'm never the person i was yesterday, for the best or for the worst. sometimes i'll tell you what's on my mind, and other times i'll let it go. but i am the type of girl that will love you with all of my heart, if you only give me the chance to love you.

I'm at that point in my life where things are neither good nor bad. They could be better, but they could be worse and I can't look at anything with a purely pessimistic or optimistic point of view. It's that point in life where you just have to forge forward and hope for the best. You keep your fingers crossed in hopes of someday catching that happiness you tried so hard to hold in your grasp. That's the thing about happiness, it is fleeting. Like that firefly you try to capture and no matter how many times you waver, try to clasp it in your hands, but it never wants to be kept. Keep one foot in front of the other and move along, because someday that firefly will find its way to you.

if there's something i've learned in my life it's been to pick your battles. because most of the time it's not worth it because you know they say the people who mind don't matter &amp; the people who matter don't mind.

people said ive changed so much. well here's the honest truth, I grew up. i stopped letting people push me around. i learned that you can`t always be happy. i accepted reality

My Interests

MoDeling CHrIsTmas '06 HAlLoWeen '03

I'd like to meet:

People say what's the point in liking someone who doesn't like you back? They are right there isn't a point but you can't help who you like it's not up to you, your heart kind of just decides for you and there is no turning back once your heart makes up its mind.

This is for the girls that are in love with that guy, but he's in love with another girl. For the ones that are considered "just a friend" and sit and listen to him talk about this other girl, meanwhile, knowing that she is no good and would just drag him down, but sit and nod along because you don't want him to think that you aren't there for him. This is for the girls that put away messages up, delicately picked out so maybe, just maybe he would get a mere glimpse of how you feel about him. But he never does, he plays it off and you just live with the feeling hidden away, tucked away, a treasure that you will never give away, a secret you are never going to tell.

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we live in a society that says to be individuals, but they still promote uniformity. a society that puts a mask over you if they feel you serve as a problem. we live under a government that controls us through fear. a government that's not looking out for what's best for us, but what's best for them. our coworkers, classmates, friends, family have stopped caring about each other, and simply started to care about the size of their bank account and the amount of peopel that know their name. it doesn't matter who we have in our life anymore, but what. we measure a man not by his courage, or his perseverance, but by the size of his house and the cost of his car. status is not gained by good deeds, it is gained by stepping over whoever you please to climb to the top. you tell me you're different, but you have to realize..we're all the same.

My Blog

I'd rather have water than blood any day!

We all so easily assume that just because we are related to people by blood that makes them family. We would never bad mouth a blood relative, we put up with all of their downfalls and mistreatment of...
Posted by Ashley Young and Desperate for Attention on Thu, 21 Dec 2006 09:37:00 PST

Back to the East

The worst thing about the holidays can be traveling. Trust me, I know, I've traveled up to NorCal back to SoCal and then to DC, and I'm not even finished traveling yet. I love to travel, I thank God I...
Posted by Ashley Young and Desperate for Attention on Tue, 19 Dec 2006 07:57:00 PST

Blogging Eh!?!?~

Well, I'm following YKA's instructions because it's true we do need to add some more life to blogging, so I'm sending out blind invites in hop[es of more people subscribing and pimping some faves righ...
Posted by Ashley Young and Desperate for Attention on Fri, 15 Dec 2006 07:09:00 PST

Been Busy

Yes, I certainly have been with phone calls from my mom to finals to just being plain lazy. You see my mom called about a week ago and at frist, she got into it with me then apologized. Yes, we patche...
Posted by Ashley Young and Desperate for Attention on Thu, 14 Dec 2006 10:59:00 PST

Paper finished

The Loss Of Culture And Individuality Through Cinema and Television; A Psychological and Sociological Perspective Everyone knows that we are losing our culture and individuality due ...
Posted by Ashley Young and Desperate for Attention on Thu, 07 Dec 2006 04:51:00 PST

Being a grown-up isn't as fun as it seems

It really isn't and it really hasn't been. Sometimes I feel like I'm juggling a thousand things at a time. I'm trying to have a life, finish school work, stay organized and on top of everything, and d...
Posted by Ashley Young and Desperate for Attention on Wed, 06 Dec 2006 12:40:00 PST

Hey Boy

Hey boy,Have you noticed the look in her eyes lately when she looks at you? Ya that look, it's not that hard to see she wants you. Yet, you just push her away. She's far too strong to let go, but she'...
Posted by Ashley Young and Desperate for Attention on Wed, 06 Dec 2006 11:04:00 PST

Christmas list

Thought that in the spirit of Christmas I'd make a list here for all of you to see what I want.One Tree Hill Season 3 on DVDReality Bites DVDPSP 2New DVD Player ( mine just broke)A TiVoMAC MakeupNew p...
Posted by Ashley Young and Desperate for Attention on Tue, 05 Dec 2006 03:56:00 PST

Tired of Being Single

It's funny how single I have felt lately, actually it's kind of sad. It's not that I'm in dire need of a boyfriend or desire one so badly that I'll kill myself if I don't find one soon. I guess it's j...
Posted by Ashley Young and Desperate for Attention on Mon, 04 Dec 2006 07:19:00 PST

Denial Is Not Just A River In Egypt

It's true, it's not. Denial can actually be a very dangerous thing. I've seen lives torn apart, friendships lost, people losing themselves, all because they can't face up to the truth. I don't know wh...
Posted by Ashley Young and Desperate for Attention on Sun, 03 Dec 2006 11:44:00 PST