*~alone in a dark hole with no one who cares~*

About Me

Umm well, im a manic depressive, mom of 2. Have no one to love me for me. I dont care really about my life cause for me there is no point to it. Im for the most part down to earth. I love to write and draw, sometimes its my only excape from this bull shit world. I love my daughters, they the only reason im still here. I am in the middle of getting a divorce. I hope my ex husband has a good life with his girl and her kids. I just wanted him to be happy, even at the expense of mine. I am pagan and it is my way of life. If i dont like u i will tell you because thats just how i am.
I AM 25% ASSHOLE/BITCH! I may think I am an asshole or a bitch, but the truth is I am a good person at heart. Yeah sure, I can have a mean streak in me, but most of the people I meet like me. Take the ASSHOLE/BITCH test at Fuali.com
I AM 82% EVIL GENIUS! I am pure evil. I lie awake at night devising schemes of world domination, and I will not rest until all living souls bend to my will. Take the EVIL GENIUS test at Fuali.com
Disorder Rating
Paranoid : High
Schizoid : Low
Schizotypal : Very High
Antisocial : High
Borderline : Very High
Histrionic : Moderate
Narcissistic : Moderate
Avoidant : Very High
Dependent : Very High
Obsessive-Compulsive : High
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I AM 91% GOTH! 24-7 I am a freak. Every day is halloween. The creatures of the night fear me. Take the GOTH test at Fuali.com

My Interests

My religion is my way of life, my kids are my life. i am into psychology and philosophy. i dont have many intrests right now due to me losing every fucking thing i had but my kids... but hey at least i have them right.

I'd like to meet:

ummm the person who thought of this fucked up idea called life so i can beat the living shit out of him/her. ppl that are down to earth with a personality. and maybe someday a lo..This profile was edited with Thomas' myspace editor V2.5

Music:

I'm a lette for life. Fuck off if you have a problem with that. oh and i like lords of acid, and some other electronica, metal, and some other rap.. twiztid is the shit, MMFCL and MMFFL.Take the quiz: "Are you a true juggalo/lette?"

Your a true juggalo/lette
Your a true blue juggalo/ette! Yay...just like me. Your a faygo loving hatchet carring juggalo!!!

Movies:

Fight Club, Snatch, Blow, Swordfish, ummmm i dont know the rest.

Television:

family guy, simpsons, invader zim, to name a few.

Heroes:

i dont have heros really. i thank the psychopathic for puttin music out for me to listen to and chill out with. I thank my brother for showing me about the psychopathic. and my little brother who is in shangri la... blessed be...

My Blog

Just another day

as we know valintines day to me is just another day. Thank Goddess i believe so, for this valintines day would have sucked hardcore. Nothin like spending it alone without a happy v day from ne one but...
Posted by *~alone in a dark hole with no one who cares~* on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

SMASHED

y every time i like someone i find out shit wont work?? y must i be smashed all the fucking time?? i cant be pushed away when the other is upset. now i mine as well be alone. depression is a bitch but...
Posted by *~alone in a dark hole with no one who cares~* on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

TWIZTID

A quick way to say how i feel. If you're reading this then I finally did it I'm sorry I didn't say goodbye There was no time Understand I was stressed Living day to day was hard and I gave i...
Posted by *~alone in a dark hole with no one who cares~* on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

I Love

I love your lips when they're wet with wine and red wit ha wild desire, I love your eyes when the moonlight lies lit with passoniate fire, I love your arms when the warm white flesh touches mine in ...
Posted by *~alone in a dark hole with no one who cares~* on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

Why I cry

Why do I cry? I hold but pieces of my heart no huggs, no love, just me. Why do I cry? Alone and cold in the dark no one lays beside me. Why do I cry? Happiness finds me but it disappear...
Posted by *~alone in a dark hole with no one who cares~* on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

To my Sweetheart

Words words are just that, limitations on emotion, limitations on bat, but mushrooms have my devotion. Ahhwww is great, Uhhwww is bad, my emotions are fate, my emotions are not sad. Whe...
Posted by *~alone in a dark hole with no one who cares~* on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

why dishonor?

why would u dishonor your family by chosing some one other than your wife to be with forever? in marriage you make a promise to your wife and kids that you will do your best to keep things right and t...
Posted by *~alone in a dark hole with no one who cares~* on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

depressed and alone

along the way we realize shit happends for a reason. but no reason can i find on why i must be alone. i must continue for my kids... but no love finds me. i wish only for love and happiness. one day ...
Posted by *~alone in a dark hole with no one who cares~* on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

tired so very tired

Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. i wish
Posted by *~alone in a dark hole with no one who cares~* on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST