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Writer-Director of Earthly movies Sponsored & Angeled in Heaven...
I thought I would study and learn as much as I could, in order to teach - in order to enlighten. What happened to me, however, is a most gruesome affair; I decided to be a writer. Cursed universe, Cursed street corner - I knew them to be one and the same, but to prove it . . . therein lied an adulthood of absolute insanity. Do not write, Do not speak, just act. That is my lesson.
- James Joyce
ECCE HOMOYes, I was born in the wrong era
I love black and white films and photos.
As a child, I was happy to spend hours looking out the window. I didn’t watch the seasons pass or the rain fall on the double glazing; I watched the cars pass and the cars parking. I watched people get in and out of cars. I wrote down interesting car number plates without knowing what they stood for. It’s small wonder I grew up to hate cars. I don’t drive. It’s also why I don’t write descriptively. I’m too involved with the importance of existence and time. I appreciate beauty but find it hard to describe. Just as I find it hard to describe myself. Such things are close to my soul and therefore to my pen.
Well now, I’m no moralistic monster of good deeds and values. I am in fact the very opposite. So far as to say, people like me have never been labeled virtuous. My humour stings and my eyes glaze over things like the heat rising from the hot ground. Between you and me, I’m proud of this.
I want to put gloves on the fists of righteousness. Revoke any ideas that I pity myself or that I hold myself in high esteem. I am just attempting to tell the truth. Unbiased. Unafraid.
The interior and the exterior of the world both run together along this track I have developed and will continue to develop.
Comedy is one way to make a living. Probably the best way.
I'm a welsh man. A Jungian.I have dark hair and dark eyes. I'm a vegetarian because I want to be. I used to only take photos and write poems. That evolved into making short films and writing plays. What next? Full length films and novels? I wait and see. Writing is fifty years behind art and film is ten years behind writing.
The Don Juan of knowledge: no philosopher or poet has yet discovered him. He does not love the things he knows, but has spirit and appetite for an enjoyment of the chase and intrigues of knowledge—up to the highest and remotest stars of knowledge!—until at last there remains to him nothing of knowledge left to hunt down except the absolutely detrimental; he is like the drunkard who ends by drinking absinthe and aqua fortis. Thus in the end he lusts after Hell—it is the last knowledge that seduces him. Perhaps it too proves a disillusionment, like all knowledge! And then he would have to stand to all eternity transfixed to disillusionment and himself become a stone guest, with a longing for a supper of knowledge which he will never get!—for the whole universe has not a single morsel left to give to this hungry man.
Though I speak with the tongues of men of angels, and have not money, I am become as a sounding brass, or a tinkling cymbal. And though I have the gift of prophecy, and understand and understand all mysteries, and all knowledge; and though I have all faith, so that I could remove mountains, and have not money, I am nothing. And though I bestow all my goods to feed the poor, and though I give my body to be burned, and have not money, it profiteth me nothing. Money suffereth long, and is kind; money envieth not; money vaunteth not itself, is not puffed up, doth not behave unseemly, seeketh not her own, is not easily provoked, thinketh no evil; rejoiceth not in iniquity, but rejoiceth in the truth; beareth all things, believeth all things, hopeth all things, endureth all things. ... And now abideth faith, hope, money, these three; but the greatest of these is money.
-Corinthians XIII (adapted)
"If you are lonely when you are alone, then you are in bad company."
"Bum gall unwaith-hynny oedd, llefain pan ym ganed."
"Liberalism is the transformation of mankind into cattle."
"Too much sanity may be madness. And maddest of all, to see life as it is and not as it should be!"
"A book must be an axe for the frozen sea inside us."
"Besides, I am bored, and I never have anything to do. Writing will be a sort of work. They say work makes man kind-hearted and honest. Well, here is a chance for me, anyway."
"If the doors of perception were cleansed, everything would appear to man as it is: infinite."
"If anything in this life is certain, if history has taught us anything, it is that you can kill anyone."
"Coffee and cigarettes. That's like the breakfast of champions."
"Forty-two twelve, basic military journalism. You gotta be shitting me! You think you're Mickey Spillane? You think you're some kind of fucking writer?"
Nowadays people know the price of everything and the value of nothing. I drink more than I ought to drink...because it brings me back you...
