tryin to sleep, praying not to wake up again...Ohh yea and FUck all u fagget bitch ass mother fuckin fudgepackin queerbate bitches that wanna try to clown on me cz i aint tryin to get up inside every bitch with a goddamn hole..focus on you gettin yours if that whats important to you, cz i don't give a shit.. i won't get down and fuck around with anybody..
never had i been so happy, but as it is for many others, all good things must come to an end. when she left, it hurt so bad i couldn't speak, all i could do is sob hysterically, half-forgetting to breathe...forget bout eating,drinking or sleeping, for it was over for me...a part of me left with her, i loved her so, and made sure she would know, for when i promised to give her everything, that what i gave her, wanted her to have...i felt like a moth who got himself too close to the light....cept i didn't burn, i turned cold after that night..the very essence of who i am, or used to be...is not with me any longer, i don't kow this person in the mirror, and i don't know how to stop the viciious cycle, now already halfway down the mountain, growing and gaining speed..how much more can go wrong...how much worse can it get...how much more can i take...is it even worth my effort, my strain, at onee time i had dreams for this like i may lead...but i feel nothing, to hell with it, win't be long for me to end up on the street, abandoned by all those who claim they loved me...yah, fuckin rite, already tellin me to fuck off before i may utter a word...with each sleepless night adding up, my demons make themselves more comfortable in the pit of my stomache, smercking and laughing asthey torment me.didn't take long to feel a sliver of comfort in their presence...at least i feel they won't leave me...i may even be able to count on them...ohh god if only i could have cherished her...been able to provide her with all the happiness she deserved....i just wish i knew why...she had to kno...too see my feelings and know that they were real....but then why was i not good enough....damn't why can't good things happen to me...if u only knew half of what i been through...what secrets lay inbed with these fucking demons in the cold and dark pocket of my chest, waiting in hopes of the one with my missing heart to maybe take me away from this piece of shit life. i wanna know what went wrong...because that shit hurts, if i was jus meant to be thrown aside like that....again...by sumone whom i love....said she loved me...i want no part in this fucked up ass world, and this pointless life...sittin here waiting for the next loved one to forget about me......fuck da dumb shit...im threw wit this stupid shit...i can't help but think somethings wrong with me...because no matter how much has gone on...im unable to forget about my love ...that shit jus doesn't come easy for me...
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