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Laura

Sombre Joys

About Me

I guess there’s no need to write long stories in this section. If it’s predetermined, one day we’ll meet and you’ll know what I am. If it’s not, imagine the girl, who sways on the swing and says, that there are no rules of architecture for a castle in the clouds.
Yes, it’s me. Always painting objects as I feel them, not as I see them. Always lost in fantasies, symbols and interpretations. Always sincere and naïve. Always enjoying nonsenses, because they wake up the brain cells. Fantasy is a necessary ingredient in living, it's a way of looking at life through the wrong end of a telescope. Which is what I do, and that enables me to laugh at life's realities. But there are always flowers for those, who want to see them.
I prefer winter and fall, when I feel the bone structure of the landscape - the loneliness of it, the dead feeling of winter. Something waits beneath it, the whole story doesn't show.
I like music, because it expresses what cannot be said and on what it is impossible to be silent. Also I like movies and theatre.
My formula for living is quite simple. I don’t lie to myself and never wish more than I can get. I mean, that if you know about dark tomorrow, if you stay kind of pessimistic, then you don't cry, if you smell the failure. It's not only very protective attitude, but also it teaches you how to get happy of a small things. In addition to this, I never regret things. Life is the art of drawing without an eraser. So all the good and bad things are you. They formed you. I think, you should be proud of that.
I believe in faith. Also in miracles and aliens. And I know, that I have the guardian angel. Furthermore, I know, that some ghost lives in my flat. He doesn’t let me to sleep at nights. It’s pretty enjoyable. Especially those moments, when you’re listening to music and almost fell asleep, but strange sounds all around you begin to dance. They mix with music and then you don’t know, whether you’re sleeping, or not, where reality or dreams is.
Now you think, that I use drugs? No, I don't use drugs, my dreams are frightening enough. But still the biggest disaster for me would be to lose memory, even sometimes it’s the only wish. Memories are your own and private treasure.
I like candies! And coffee.
I arise in the morning torn between a desire to improve the world and a desire to enjoy the world. This makes it hard to plan the day.

I can sum up everything I've learned about life in three words: it goes on. Needless to say, it's changing. Also needless to say, that it doesn't get better. But when I remember, that we're all mad, the mysteries disappear and life stands explained :)


My thoughts are my company. I can bring them together, select them, detain them, dismiss them. I don't need no other company. I live alone for years, I've get used to this and am absolutely satisfied with it.
Dreams have only one owner at the time. That's why dreamers are lonely.

My Interests

Rain and Wind. Sun and Moon. Stars and Flowers. June and December. Snow and Rainbow. Eyes. Memories. Roads. Trains. Sea. Silence. Nature. Music. Literature. Movies. Fantasy. Theatre. My room. Isolation. Mysticism. Coincidences. People (the good ones, who feel me)

I'd like to meet:

Hope.

And by the way, i'm NOT interested in your band, so save your time and don't send me a request. Thank you!

Music:

I really don't want to bother you with a number of names. Metal? Gothic? Whatever. Melodies don't need any frames.

Movies:

Cube, Dancer in the Dark, Kill Bill, Saddest Music in the World, Sin City, The Crow, Pi, Donnie Darko, Saw, Gattaca, Immortal, Toy Story, Charlie and the Chocolate Fabric, Ice Age, Mr and Mrs Smith, Nightmare Before Christmas, Tim Burtons Corpse Bride, Rocky Horror Picture Show, Forbidden Zone, Mirror Mask, Tales of Mystery and Imagination, Leprechaun...

Television:

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Books:

It's very difficult to say which books were "the best ones." Every book is interesting in it's own way and had a special place in my thoughts.

Heroes:

B. K.

My Blog

lifes still going on

Firstly I'd like to share my joy with a new Diary of Dreams single "The Plague". To be honest, my first impression was really bad - the song wasn't distinguished for it's melody and lyrics, it just di...
Posted by Laura on Mon, 24 Sep 2007 12:50:00 PST

Silence between rails

Tomorrow will be the first day in university. New people. I don't want this at all. The first course, when I should be in the third. But it isn't a mistake - I learned some things. Only I'm afraid, th...
Posted by Laura on Sun, 02 Sep 2007 05:03:00 PST

Bon soir!

Salut, my dear friends!At last I'm at home after some crazy trips.Firstly, I was in Castle Party. Here are the photos: http://public.fotki.com/degrasu-kun/the-way-i-roll-/I saw Diary of Dreams and tha...
Posted by Laura on Tue, 07 Aug 2007 09:08:00 PST

TOPiniai draugai

Taip, uzkniso mane deliot tuos Top friendsus. Kas cia per draugu vietos? Biski absurdas. Ir prasau nepykt, kad vieno ar kito ten nera. Visus myliu ir gerbiu, bet 20 vietu negraziai atrodo ir puslapyje...
Posted by Laura on Sun, 24 Jun 2007 02:24:00 PST

Home

http://public.fotki.com/tuptup/   - some photos from Wales, UK, where I spent 2 months. Don't want to write anything more, because I feel strange here at home and actually have to get accust...
Posted by Laura on Mon, 04 Jun 2007 11:35:00 PST

Hi from UK :P

Labas visiem :) Beprotiskai pasiilgau namu ir zmogeliuku ir jau imu skaiciuoti dienas iki atvykimo :) Tik sieku tieku baisu, kad salta pas jumi :) O cia taip silta, gera, zalia, kvepia, skanu :) Bisk...
Posted by Laura on Mon, 14 May 2007 05:28:00 PST

UK

Tomorrow I'm going to UK, Walse, New Port, to my father. And will stay there for two months. Maybe I'll work, maybe not. But I'll be surrounded by mountains, lakes, castles, so I hope I won't be sitti...
Posted by Laura on Sun, 01 Apr 2007 09:34:00 PST

Mirror Eyes

Poisonous dreams haunt your nights You feel so cold deep inside Hiding serenely your deepest grieves When your heart is like a stone to protect from the world No word can melt this feeling Andrea need...
Posted by Laura on Fri, 16 Mar 2007 04:00:00 PST

Destroy!!! :)

xoxo.I deleted 200 friends :))I'm evil...But I got rid of millions of stupid bulletins and a lot of pages of unknown things.Fui.:)And today is Valentine's day...No comments.Just stupid.But still :)Kis...
Posted by Laura on Wed, 14 Feb 2007 01:11:00 PST

Hamburg

:PI'm in Hamburg at the moment. Strange.big.noisy.city.Want to go home, because I'm already missing my friends and computer and normal food...And the fact, that I have no friends here, SUX. I want to ...
Posted by Laura on Mon, 12 Feb 2007 04:05:00 PST