arts generally, german expressionism, neue sachlichkeit, Neue Deutsche Todeskunst, Schwarze Romantik, body modification, body art, Die Brucke, Der blaue reiter, avangarde and postmodern art generally, painting, music, animals, animal rights, vegans, art history, l'art pour l'art, writing, photography, theatre, singing, playing flaute, performances, philosophy, traveling, solitude, prosuicide, anorexia nervosa, aestetics, burlesque and grotesque, androgyny, humanistic sciences,literature, movies, film noir, knowledge, books, ancient civilizations, poetry, reading, dancing, midnight walks, nature, perfection, artificial creatures, masquerades, abstract, surreal, Michelangelo, Rodin, Fuseli, Friedrich, Van Gogh, Majakovski, Dix, Shakespeare, Schopenhauer, Kircher, Gaudi, Grosz, body art, batcave, gothabilly, masks, funerals, misanthropy, tears, coffins, cemeteries, Pere Lachaise, fog, velvet, uniforms, mirrors, alchemy, glamour fashion, eternity, metaphysic, immortality, sunglasses after dark, rain, waterfalls, make up, night life (but not clubbing), red wine, blood and chocolate, candels, wild roses, dolls, pale skin, eyeliner, cabaret, opium and poison, beauty of cruel nature, decadence, sad love stories, impossible desires, british accent, Iceland, Finland, Paris, Berlin, London...
"AN ELEGANT SUICIDE IS THE ULTIMATE WORK OF ART"
There are some creatures that I respect a lot and unfortunately I know them only from cyberworld. But I wouldn't mind to spend some time with them in real life. Or some longer time.
I want to meet people who ARE NOT shallow, pathetic, superficial, conceited and generally conventional. I really really dislike conventional people from the bottom of my little black heart. Don't send me hugs. I don't need them. Don't send me kisses. I don't want them.
Actually, I'm not much social person, but the friends I have I really like to keep very close. I need some time to get know you better and to start feeling relaxed in your company. But it's nothing personal, it's just me being afraid of the mankind.
Yes, I think it would be all.
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"Kunst ist Geist, und der Geist braucht sich ganz und gar nicht auf die Gesellschaft, auf die Gemeinschaft verpflichtet zu fühlen, - darf es nicht, meiner Meinung nach, um seiner Freiheit, seines Adels willen. Eine Kunst, die «ins Volk geht», die Bedürfnisse der Menge, des kleinen Mannes, des Banausentums zu den ihren macht, gerät ins Elend, und es ihr zur Pflicht zu machen, etwa von Staats wegen nur eine Kunst zuzulassen, die der kleine Mann versteht, i s t [1] schlimmstes Banausentum und der Mord des Geistes. Dieser, das ist meine Überzeugung, kann bei seinen gewagtesten, ungebundensten, der Menge ungemäßesten Vorstößen, Forschungen, Versuchen gewiss sein, auf irgendeine hoch-mittelbare Weise dem Menschen – auf die Dauer sogar den Menschen zu dienen."
"Hört nur den Schluss, hört ihn mit mir: Eine Instrumentengruppe nach der anderen tritt zurück, und was übrig bleibt, womit das Werk verklingt, ist das hohe g eines Cello, das letzte Wort, der letzte verschwebende Laut, in pianissimo - Fermate langsam vergehend. Dann ist nichts mehr. – Schweigen und Nacht. Aber der nachschwingend im Schweigen hängende Ton, der nicht mehr ist, dem nur die Seele noch nachlauscht, und der Ausklang der Trauer war, ist es nicht mehr, wandelt den Sinn, steht als ein Licht in der Nacht."
Thomas Mann
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"Die Kunst ist von Menschen gemacht. Seine eigene Gestalt ist das Zentrum aller Kunst, denn für alles Empfinden ist seine Form uns sein Maß Grundlage und Ausgangspunkt... Ich verlange deshalb als erstes für alle Kunstschulen das Aktzeichnen als Hauptfach"
Ernst Ludwig Kirchner
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deathrock/ darkwave/ industrial/ martial/ industrial techno/ noise electro/ batcave/ avantgarde/ experimental/ gothic rock/ futurepop/ electroclash/ synthpop/ coldwave/ postpunk/ horror punk/ noise/ ebm/ tbm/ aggrotech/ trance/ ambiental/ medieval/ neofolk/ apocalyptic folk/ military pop/ dark cabaret/ new romantic/ gothabilly/ psychobilly / classic/ neoclassic/ trip-hop/ shoegaze but i also adore black metal, I find it extremely sexy
Wiene/ Murnau/ Visconti/ Eizenstein/Bergman/ Sjostrom/ Lang/ Dreyer/ Lubitsch/ Bunuel/Lynch/ Wenders/ Polanski/ Jodorovsky/ Argento... Huge movie freak...thrillers/drama/art/experimantal/ french new wave/ italian new realism... Stay,The bitter moon, Fall, La Cité des enfants perdus, Betty Blue, The notorious Bettie Page, Cabinet of Doctor Caligari, M, The scarlet street, You live only once, Lil Marleen, James Dean and Marlon Brando movies, Finding neverland, Immortal beloved, Lost in translation, Les morsures de l'aube, Dracula (1992), Until the end of the world, Berlin Alexanderplatz, Nosferatu, Metropolis, The seventh seal, Muldholland drive, Blue velvet, Macbeth (Polanski), The fall of house of Usher, The raven, The comedy of terrors, Theatre of Blood, The mask of red death, The haunted palace, Der student von Prag, Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde, Dr. Mabuse, Battleship Potemkin, Aleksandar Nevski, Der himmel uber Berlin, Golem, Hamlet, Death in Venice, The hunger, The crow, Dogville, The last time i saw Paris, The hours, Dead poets society, The life of others, Labyrinth, The tinger,Suspiria, Cabaret, American beuty, Dead man, May, The house of flying daggers, Pitchblack, The shadow of a vampire, Funeral in Berlin, Lost boys, Libertine, Velvet goldmine, Satyricon, Interview with the vampire, The Blues Brothers, Last tango in Paris, Hedwig and the Angry Inch,Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, Butterfly effect, Thelma and Louise, Christiane F- Wir kinder vom Bahnhof Zoo, London after midnight, ....and many many more
"All these people I've known, who are and always will be in my head. There's always a beginning and an end. It was too good. Outside at last, in the city... find out who I am, what I've become. Most of the time, I am too aware to be sad. I waited an eternity to hear a loving word. Then I went abroad. Someone who'd say 'I love you so much today', that would be so wonderful! ... Emptied out, inadequate. Fear, fear, fear. The look of a small animal lost in the woods. Who are you? I don't know anymore. But I do know that I won't be a trapeze artist. Unforeseen decisions in which to believe. I must not cry... I won't cry... no way! It happens, that's how it goes, not always as you wish it. Emptiness, emptiness..."-
DER HIMMEL ÃœBER BERLIN
"Dear Leonard, to look life in the face … always to look life in the face, and to know it for what it is. At last, to know it, to love it for what it is, and then … to put it away. Leonard … always the years between us, always the years … always … the love … always … the hours." -
THE HOURS
"FOREVER IS A LONG TIME BABY...."
The Bitter moon
"Do you know the Tristan Rêveur quote about bad art? It's "bad art is more tragically beautiful than good art 'cause it documents human failure."
STAY
Cassiel: "Why can't I be good? Why can't I act like a man? Why can't I act like other men can? "
IN WEITER FERNE, SO NAH!
The L word, NCIS, La Femme Nikita, Dexter
Oscar Wilde: The Picture of Dorian Gray, Goodbye to Berlin, F.M. Dostojevsky: Crime and punishment, Thomas Mann: The Life of the German Composer Adrian Leverkuhn as Told by a Friend, Sartre, Michael Cunningham: The hours; S.Plath, J.P. Kamov, A.G. Matos, A.B.Simic, Baudelaire, E.A. Poe, Mallarme, Verlaine, Guy de Maupassant, Byron, Antonine Artaud, Gustav Meyrink, Mario Fortunato, Robert Schneider, Borges, C.S.Lewis, Fitzgerald, Stoker, Hemingway,Genet, Beckett, Brecht, Balzac, Flaubert, Zola, Gautier, Rimbaud, Tolstoj, Ibsen, Strindberg, Gogolj, Jesenjin, Neruda, Proust, Kafka, Goethe, Novalis, Blake...
"Here is the first passionate love-letter I have ever written in my life. Strange, that my first passionate love-letter should have been addressed to a dead girl. Can they feel, I wonder, those white silent people we call the dead?"-
O.Wilde The picture of Dorian Gray
"The world is just illusion, only trying to change you..."
IN MEMORY OF DEAR FRIEND DIED 21.07.2007.
...for flight your soul was made...
I will always love you B.