Wish for everything, cause youll never get it

Agh, here i go again. Here is yet another non-sensical explanation of who i think i am. In all honesty i dont know and have no motivation to find out currently :P Currently i am employed by the United States Army and am the age of twenty. No drinking legally for me, but i smoke like a chimney. I have a tendency not to let people get close to me cause im afraid im going to hurt them, and when i do let people get close to me i keep this mindset and it becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy. Ah well c'est la vie, c'est l'amour, c'est la guerre.