*Jessica *

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My name is Jessica. I am from Nashville, Tennessee and Iam an undergrad at Lee University in Chattanooga, Tennessee. I am hopefully soon moving to Utah to attend a new college. I am in love with the sweetest man in the world. His name is Matt, and he is such a blessing in my life. I have two crazy pups, and they the shit. I am what you would call a free spirit...I cannot be tied down by rudiment or structure. Do not try to chain my mind by tradition or common modes of thought. I will always tear the boundaries down and soar past them. I am a daydreamer. I am stubborn, heardheaded, loud, spontanious, and dramatic.
Do you ever go dancing through the rain? Today, I did for the first time in a while. Instead of making the usual mad dash for the dry warmth of indoors, I took off my sandles and danced(or more accurately skipped)through the rain. As the thin sheets of precipitation turned into downpouring torrents, my clothes were drenched and stuck to me as if the rain had turned them into fabric leaches; my make-up smeared,leaving streaks of black mascara across my cheeks;and my hair hung like black spaghetti noodles clinging to my scalp for mere survival. But a smile spread across my face from ear to ear. What a liberating feeling!I was dancing away my inhibitions and limitations. Never mind the odd looks from passing strangers - why fear the cynical critiques of your life from those that don't know how 2 live? For a moment,all that mattered was this simple sensation of freedom, the freedom of dancing in the rain. And in retrospect, I realize the parallels of such a simple, momentary experience to the complex realities of life. Sometimes the world bursts into an unforecasted thunderstorm. One minute the sun is out, and all is well when suddenly tragedy, heartbreak, or adversity hits. The sky becomes a waterfall of trials. (U know what they say, "WHEN IT RAINS, IT POURS!")Often I have chosen in times like these to make that mad dash for safety - to run from my problems. But from now on I will choose to dance through the rain. I won't just come out standing; I will come out dancing. My feet tapping on and stomping out the puddles of depression, loneliness, and frustrated anxiety. No more mad dashes for safety, retreating to the havens of self-pity, denial, or false and temporary comforts. I will stay and dance in the rain and -in doing so - say to my trials - "You do not scare me; I am stronger - I will dance all over you."
I am from… A kingdom of overprotection, A wall of rules built "for my good. Love speaking the language of regulation, The umbrella of a sheltered childhood. A city I couldn't bask in, Houston outside my window. Beyond the confinement of family, The death of my parents’ shadow. Conservatism in coltish nightmares, “Train up a child in the way she should go.” My parents’ sincerest desire to guide me, Stunted my own ability to grow. Shutters around my reality, And curtains around the world. A life of solitary confinement, Chained to remain a little girl . Finally finding my own way, Though my path was not condoned. Marching onward towards identity, Glad and proud to do it alone. Though my past continues to echo, Into the present of my existence. Though my past still leaves shadows, On the light of my future’s brilliance. Because I'm from… A closeted world, One in which I could not stay, I am going… I don't know yet, But it's somewhere far away.
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