Beatmeuplord (Explicitly dull arousal annulled)

About Me

The war on drugs is a war on your personal freedom, lets keep that in mind at all times, stop intolerance and discrimination against cannabis, and at the same token be wary of cannabis abuse as well, everything in moderation(except rebellion)
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My Wife, my rock, my world, my everything...
My name is ryan,I craft noise/power electronic music as well as industrial, dark ambient, harsh expermental ebm, and spastic techno, i have a passion for noises and sounds. i am married and own a cat named ogre, i have a small studio where i make music of all sorts, i love to read, indulge in good conversation, exploration by way of hallucinogens, drink and dance to industrial and harsh ebm music, go to shows, mosh, hike,drink large amounts of coffee, and more shit,
i am 30% white trash 30% noise punk 20% black and 20% teenage girl, deal with it nigga
I run a small non profit music net label called Internal cranium bleeding check it out Here
My Post-Industrial band Blood Into Water Click Here
My Dark Ambient/Drone project (Calm Inferno Archives) Click Here
My European Style Power Electronic project Severed Tongues Click Here
My Experimental Techno project Dead Games Click Here
And an electronic trio i am in called Triarchy Click Here

My Interests

I am interested in poetic eccentricity; I love old 15th century gothic architecture, And the Gothic revivals structures in mid-18th . I find aspects of history very fascinating, I love poems and writings of all different kinds. I love art in all its forms. I love music and sounds, i find noise and sound vibrations to be spiritual on a base level. I appreciate surrealism and deviant natures. I enjoy ballet, theatre, movies, concerts, Symphonies and all sorts of other crap. I love to grill, and i love drinking beer, good food, good company.

Music:

wires----glitches------drones----explosions---metal clangs---percussive----distorted-----whatever i like sounds...

i like allot of music, i stay open minded, i love sounds in general, i can trance out to a fan droning, or a grinder against sheet metal. I enjoy live music as well, being out drinking, the fellowship and common bond of drinking beer and watching a good band with good company.
i search net labels on myspace and the internet archives for albums, my favorite net label is www.darkwinter.com with great textured audio and dark ambient..... also ZNS TAPES is an awesome label with great stuff from 1987-1993.
most styles i dig...
I find most artist and bands who do their own thing and blend styles or break away from preconceived notions to be my favorite. But as far as fitting it in to a category, some genres i dig but are not limited to,industrial, rivet, old blues recordings(blind lemon jefferson is the best), power electronics, Grunge, conscious and intelligent hip hop, dark electro, ebm(terror, harsh, experimental) doom metal, sludge, punk,crust punk, trip hop, noise music, jazz, symphony and classical, dark ambient, all different types of electronic music (glitch, dnb, techno, splintered, blah blah) death metal, black metal, some grind, field recordings, strange audio, sounds, all sorts of random audio, dub reggae, and more shit, whatever, music is music
I love stand up comedy, good stand up comedy, fuck dane cook that guy is a fucking fake ass hack, he needs to die in a plane crash in front of his mom,
favorite comedians: Bill Hicks, Mitch Hedberg, dave chappell, brain posehn , patton oswalt, david cross, brendon smalls, H. jon benjamin, george lopez, gabriel iglesias, and more

Television:

Heroes:

My Mom and my Dad, and also...Jhon Balance
Bill hicks(another dead hero)
Dwayne Goettel
and .. in their lives they left a mark deep on the ones that respected them...

My Blog

even if signs seem to tell me otherwise

standing on the edge of the one thousandth dawn of a decaying age,perception dissipate to mediocre visions on glass screens spewing time wasting venom ,a mind set it put, where you can not feel the co...
Posted by Beatmeuplord (Explicitly dull arousal annulled) on Fri, 09 May 2008 01:47:00 PST

it has come to my attention

my life, summed up all 25 years of it, and as i do not regret most thing i have done, i do in fact resent the person i have become. looking at who i was 8 years ago and looking at what i am now in m...
Posted by Beatmeuplord (Explicitly dull arousal annulled) on Mon, 21 Apr 2008 02:05:00 PST

reseeding inside myself further

cataloged these trails further,no longer self pity will i indulge ending sorrow like psychological time. chin up, stiff upper lip, an electric grinder in hand, flash grenades, smoke bombs and duck tap...
Posted by Beatmeuplord (Explicitly dull arousal annulled) on Sat, 05 Apr 2008 07:16:00 PST

tiny glitches floating in my head

the organisms have formed their city’s inside my being,their precursor production penetrates all forms of ill will the outsiders sprint like beams of light, all to short, but longing, rovinga wh...
Posted by Beatmeuplord (Explicitly dull arousal annulled) on Wed, 26 Mar 2008 01:10:00 PST

Kinetic vagrant

in this whirl pool of mass entity’s, i try not to get sucked in to the middle,a vast blurring of intentions is a threat to my fading originality,pounding in to blistered mentality’s, i pee...
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a butterfly with pulled wings

distortion grinding into stacks of high perishing metal --- rotted rotting lost cost options, keep the buyer sterile split personalty's can never agree or decide,gears shifting, pointing at my disorde...
Posted by Beatmeuplord (Explicitly dull arousal annulled) on Sat, 23 Feb 2008 01:13:00 PST

victory with mentality

mentality is 95% of everythingto get stuff done,are thoughts are energy that can be measured.with positive thinking to my goals i can accomplish and put forth and conjure up the energy to take care of...
Posted by Beatmeuplord (Explicitly dull arousal annulled) on Mon, 18 Feb 2008 02:57:00 PST

i forgot to breath

sometimes the directions i pick becoming so overwhelming i forget to breath,i place myself in situation and then blame random factors for me being in that situation,is all the fault lay on me, or is m...
Posted by Beatmeuplord (Explicitly dull arousal annulled) on Tue, 12 Feb 2008 11:47:00 PST

my time in bywater

so i started playing my favorite classic rpg game realmz once more and got the full blown version with all the scenarios,i created a new party being my old party is on the mac and i doubt the data is ...
Posted by Beatmeuplord (Explicitly dull arousal annulled) on Wed, 02 Jan 2008 01:36:00 PST

devoured by my conscious

unlit lamp meant to strengthen the glow of a city streetthe unfiltered dirt with which what within lay the dead body's of natives pastblood sodden lands filled with pity and broken prosperity hoards h...
Posted by Beatmeuplord (Explicitly dull arousal annulled) on Tue, 11 Dec 2007 10:21:00 PST