lala

i just love the color purple.
shug say, girl, you look like a good time, you do. that when i notice how shug talk and act sometimes like a man. men say stuff like that to women, girl, you look like a good time. women always talk bout hair and health. how many babies living or dead, or got teef. not bout how some woman they hugging on look like a good time.
extremely laid back sag. most that know me, don't know me. most that think they do, definately don't. those that know they don't, might have a clue. that doesn't make me special. i think that's just how life plays. hip, happy, homo and it ain't by accident. i read. i write. i make things with my hands. shy but talkative. good to friends and strangers. i need sunlight and water to grow. really! i wilt if i don't get direct sunlight. conversation about/exploration of human behavior is my shit! highly opinionated. have thoughts about, you know, stuff. i'm pleased with me cuz i try to live by the rules me and my mama laid down. daddy too. lol. i write lol way too much. i have the human capacity to be wrong. i'm okay with that and parallel, i am quite ok with who i am right now (knowing i'll be someone different tomorrow). sometimes i'm quiet. yeah, i'm silly/sarcastic as fuck. i'm kinda blunt but i also know feelings are delicate and precious. i can evaluate which is more important at the time. the one thing i know for sure is that i don't know shit. nothing is for certain, and yet i believe in who i am and i have a strong backbone. it flexes though.
BE NOBODY'S DARLING,
Alice Walker, Anything We Love Can Be Saved
Be nobody's darling;
Be an outcast.
Take the contradictions
Of your life
And wrap around
You like a shawl,
To parry stones
To keep you warm.
Watch the people succumb
To madness
With ample cheer
Let them look askance at you
And askance you reply.
Be an outcast;
be pleased to walk alone
(Uncool)
Or line the crowded
Riverbeds
With other impetuous
Fools.
Make a merry gathering
On the bank
Where thousands perished
For brave hurt words
They said.
But
Be nobody's darling;
Be an outcast.
Qualified to live
Among your dead.