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My beautiful daughter, Gem ...I love you always - we'll ride this out to the end! *If the lord won't get me the Devil will - but not without a fight!** IN CASE ANYONE WAS WONDERING, ALL THESE LITTLE QUOTES AND BITS AND PIECES INCLUDING THE BEGINNING OF THE WHOLE 'ABOUT ME' CRAP - THEY ARE ALL PARTS OR CHORUSES FROM RANDOM SONGS! SOME PEOPLE DID NOT UNDERSTAND THIS (I WON'T MENTION NAMES) SO I GUESS I HAVE TO CLARIFY. WHEN I SAID "SHE IS GOOD AND SHE IS BAD, NO ONE UNDERSTANDS...IT'S FROM A MISFITS SONG- 'SHE' ABOUT PATTY HEARST WHO I HAVE A STRANGE FASCINATION WITH. OKAY????? *****I have alot of interests. I couldn't possibly name them all here. I love to draw and paint. Music and Reading has been the pastimes of my life and I LOVE books. There's really too many to list. I like movies too. Though unlike my sister and my friend Karen I cannot randomly spout off quotes from every movie made and don't particularly care to. Horror and drama's. Sid and Nancy is one of my all time favorites, and 'The Lost Boys' is a classic. A Time to Kill and Primal Fear, Fight Club, (anything with Ed Norton I love), who doesn't love 'The Boondock Saints, American History X, and so, so many others. Any good horror flick, especially if it contains ZOMBIES or VAMPIRES, SERIAL KILLERS TOO! Any 'Living Dead' movie. Old Skool 80's horror, A Nightmare On Elm St., Friday the 13th, April Fools Day, all the old, cool B Movies - Plan 9 from outerspace, Die, die my darling, Godzilla, etc. ATTACK OF THE 50 FOOT WOMAN! I love alot of the classics...Psycho, Dracula (the original), Nosferatu, The Creature From The Black Lagoon..you get the idea. I love King Kong movies, and Godzilla.I'm a raving hysterical lunatic when I watch my favorite comedians - Dave Chappelle and Ron White, especially with the 'Blue Collar' crew literally makes me laugh till I cry and makes my b/f think I'm insane. And music... There's just way too much to list here but although I prefer punk and hardcore, I love music from all genre's. Punk, Hardcore, Some Old-Skool Metal, Classic Rock, Southern Rock, A Little 80's new wave/alternative, A very VERY teeny amount of country..actually I can only think of one song other than Johnny Cash but whatever...Hip-Hop, 'Gangsta' Rap, R&B, Blues, a little emo punk, Alot of classical...you name it & I can find something I like - I love all music and hate people who stick to one genre cause they're so image oriented and shallow that they can't admit that they like Chopin. And last but never least, NEVER..(she gets an encore) is my beautiful daughter, Gemini and anything she does. She is the most interesting, amazing, fascinating, wonderful creature I have ever met in all my life and words cannot express the joy that I have that she is in my life, or the gratitude that I have been lucky enough to know this beautiful little person. She is the reason I wake up every morning. I love world war II era ads and art, along w/pin up girls, especially Vargas and Elvgrin, collecting Tattoos, and H.R. Giger books. I LOVE history! Ancient of all sorts back to the dinosaurs, Greek, Roman, Egyptian, Syrian and Mesopotamian, then european history of all sorts, pagan and celtic history and all the greek, roman, and celtic myths, then I jump to an interest of the american & canadian aboriginal people and their myths, legends, and religions. Civil war history fascinates me as well as world war II, then Early 20th century american history especially 20's, 30's, 40's and some 50's. Regency England as well as medieval, middle age, and rennaisance europe. I rambled again...sorry but you get the idea. The past is the key to our future and the legacy of our humanity - from brilliance, beauty, and sacrifice - to monstrous, dark, selfish and even evil. Can't have one without the other though - it's Mother Natures law. That's about it for now, cause I can go on and on. OH YEAH!!! - AND BEER, BEER, BEER! Hey! Did I say I love Beer? Oh, and I almost forgot...I LOVE BEER! Hops, Rice, Grains..Bubbles!
*IF I CUT OFF YOUR ARMS AND I CUT OFF YOUR LEGS, WOULD YOU STILL LOVE ME ANYWAY? WHY DON'T YOU LOVE ME ANYWAY? IF YOU'RE BOUND AND YOU'RE GAGGED, DRAPED, AND DISPLAYED, WOULD YOU STILL LOVE ME ANYWAY? WHY DON'T YOU LOVE ME ANYWAY? THERE'S A SPOT ON THE FLOOR WHERE YOUR LIMBS USED TO BE, AND I CLOSE THE DOOR ON MY FANTASIES - WILL YOU LOVE ME ANYWAY? WHY DON'T YOU LOVE ME ANYWAY? * The night and the streets were ours and the future lay sparkling ahead. - And we thought we would know each other forever! I miss ya Peter! - The grave is dark and dead is a long time, they say... *** Hey, I'll talk to just about anybody as long as you're not disrespectful or innappropiately obscene (not that I don't love obscenity, there's just a time and place for it - so as long as you know the difference it's cool with me). ***IF YOU SAY THIS MAKES YOU HAPPY, THEN I'M NOT THE ONLY ONE LYING!!!***
But, truthfully, I'm not looking for a hook - up. Just friends. I've learned that the hard ass fucking way!
I AM NOT AFRAID TO KEEP ON LIVING, I AM NOT AFRAID TO WALK THIS WORLD ALONE, HONEY IF YOU STAY I'LL BE FORGIVEN, NOTHING YOU CAN SAY CAN STOP ME GOING HOME!*** There is SO much I could never ever fit it all here!This could get long but I'll try to control myself..... THE MISFITS!!!!! Strung out,Fucking goddamn, blood pumping RISE AGAINST- friggin' love 'em, MADBALL, Agnostic Front, Murphy's Law, Blood for Blood, Kurt got me into From Autumn To Ashes, Most Precious Blood, Skrewdriver, SICK OF IT ALL, The Queers, Sheer Terror, Ray Charles, BB King, Miles Davis, Terror, Fall Out Boy, LOVE My Chemical Romance and Panic!At the Disco, Avenged SevenFold, Poison the Well, Bane, Rancid, The Dwarves, I LOVE TUPAC, older 70's Heart, The Police, Mucky Pup,Some Linkin Park, Skynard, some Allman Bros., etc., Alkaline Trio, Bad Brains, CRO-MAGS,Sabbath (Ozzy Sabbath- GLENN!) Hendrix, Nina Simone, Tom Petty, Groovie Ghoulies, NOFX, Billy Idol(is so hot)****I TOOK HIM STANDING - BROKE COMMANDMENTS - AND HE TUMBLED LIKE A TOY... BLOOD, LIKE A CRIMSON HIGHWAY - SPREADING OUT FROM HIS FOREHEAD TO THE GROUND, YEAH!....... ****** I AINT BUYING INTO YOUR APATHY. I'M GONNA LEARN YA' MY PHILOSOPHY. YOU WANNA KNOW ABOUT ATROCITY, ATROCITY!!!(Damn, that's an oldie). Hmmm.... MOTLEY CRUE, Indecision, old Suicidal Tendencies, Danzig like 1-3 and Black Aria, HENRY ROLLINS!!! Old Soundgarden...like Loud Love & Badmotorfinger,The Cure, Tilt is still great, the gotohells, I still like Rage, Pantera's first 3 albums and also Down - NOLA, & NEVER FORGET - BLACK FLAG, BITCHES!....There's more ...**SINGLED OUT THE KIDS WHO ARE MEAN TO ME, STRAIGHT A'S, BUT THEY STILL MAKE FUN, I DON'T GIVE A....I'LL LAUGH LAST, STAYIN' IN EVERYNITE, DO MY HOMEWORK SO I'LL BE SMART, THE GIRLS ALL SAY I'M A LITTLE FUCKED..MOMMY I'M A GOOD BOY, MOMMY I'M A FUCKING SAVIOUR, MOMMY I'M ALIVE....MOMMY?...CAN I GO OUT AND KILL TONITE, YEAH, TONITE, CAN I GO OUT AND KILL TONITE?***.......SHE WALKED OUT WITH EMPTY ARMS, MACHINE GUN IN HER HAND, SHE IS GOOD AND SHE IS BAD , NO ONE UNDERSTANDS**** TOOL MOTHERFUCKER!**STANDING ABOVE THE CROWD, HE HAD A VOICE THAT WAS STRONG AND LOUD. WE'LL MISS HIM. RANTING AND POINTING HIS FINGER, AT EVERYTHING BUT HIS HEART. WE'LL MISS HIM.*WILL YOU? WILL YOU NOW? WOULD YOU DIE FOR ME? DON'T YOU FUCKING LIE! DON'T YOU STEP OUT OF LINE! DON'T YOU FUCKING LIE! * TO ASCEND YOU MUST DIE. YOU MUST BE CRUCIFIED, FOR YOUR SINS AND YOUR LIES. GOODBYE....******
***NEVER LEAVE ME ALONE- I LOVE YOU BLACK OR CHROME* I WAS TOO INEXPERIENCED BACK IN THE DAYS- CAUSED SO MANY ARGUMENTS & STRAYS. NOW I REALIZE HOW TO TREAT YA - BEIN' FAITHFUL NOW CAUSE CHEATINS' LETHAL. WE CLOSER THAN THE HANDS OF TIME, DEEPER THAN THE DROP OF MANKIND. - ALL I NEED IN THIS LIFE OF SIN, IS ME AND MY GIRLFRIEND- DOWN TO RIDE TO THE BLOODY END, JUST ME AND MY GIRLFRIEND. ALL I NEED IN THIS LIFE OF SIN, IS ME AND MY GIRLFRIEND, DOWN TO RIDE TO THE VERY END- JUST ME AND MY GIRLFRIEND!* IT'S TRUE, NOTHIN' COMPARES TO THE SATISFACTION THAT I FEEL WHEN WE'RE OUT MASHIN' - ME AND MY GIRLFRIEND* (That is one of my alltime favorite songs)
Prison Break!!! How I NEED Wentworth Miller, and certainly wouldn't kick Dominic Purcel outta bed eithet, plus it's a friggin' great show! Stand Up Comedy. King of The Hill! Everyone loves CSI, me included, though Miami is my least favorite. Without a Trace.I LOVE Buffy The Vampire Slayer and am so sad it's done...but I own them all. Wizard of Oz is my favorite movie and always watch it when it's on TV even though I own it. Law & Order : Criminal Intent (I love Vince D'Onofrio), and SVU too. Dunno...I only watch Prison Break regulary, everything else I just catch here and there - & other random things that may look interesting.
This is hard, there are sooo many. HMMM.. Priestess of Avalon, The Mist's of Avalon, Lady of Avalon, The Forest House..In otherwords Marion Zimmer Bradley. Almost every Stephen King book ever written...in fact "Pet Sematary" was the first book I ever read that made me scared not only of turning off the lights after putting it coverside down, but it also made me afraid of my Cat temporarily - sorry Joe. And his book "The Stand" to this day still makes me think of 'Captain Trips' whenever someone sneezes or cough's in public. Dean Koontz kicks ass. I like alot of Anne Rices books. Merrick especially and Servant of the Bones. True Crime books. All of J.R.R. Tolkiens books. I'm utterley fascinated with some of America's more prolific serial killers - so I read alot of books on them - Ed Kemper, Ed Gein (who was the inspiration for Psycho and The Texas Chainsaw Massacre), Henry Lee Lucas and Ottis Toole, Albert DeSalvo, Richard Ramirez - The Night Stalker, Bianco and Buono - The Hillside Stranglers, NY'er David Berkowitz, ETC. - And not cause I like that they murder, I actually think they should have their FUCKING heads cut off with a butter knife and put on a pike for all to see, but they are just fascinating in some way.. and strangely free somehow in a way none of us ever will be - conscience is our bond to humanity, the only real thing that makes us different from animals, I haven't figured out yet if it's my salvation or my slavery...maybe I never will.. but anyway, that's what interests me about them..Morbid Fascination I suppose...like when you see a mangled burning car with bloody, glass smattered, horrific resemblances of what used to be human beings, gorily displaying devastion and mortality in the way that only sharp, twisted, angry metal can produce...on the side of the road, and though you are horrified, scared maybe, and probably sad...you can't look away....because it calls to you to and whispers...'this could be you, it may become you, and in the end - it will be you' no matter how the story ends, it still ends regardless. So, on that note...I collect books on religions, and Paganism. I also like Photo Books of subjects that interest me - Punk, and my sis's photo books. There's so many more but you get the idea, right? I Like to read. Alot.
I DON'T MISS GOD, BUT I SURE MISS SANTA CLAUS...!***** The Symbionese Liberation Army (ha!)* PATTY HEARST! MY BEAUTIFUL, SMART, AMAZING, SWEET, SPECIAL DAUGHTER - GEMINI AVALON !!! YOU'RE MY GIRL AND YOU ALWAYS WILL BE - I"LL KILL OR DIE FOR YOU GIRLFRIEND! YOU ARE MY JESUS! *****Dead end Girl for a dead-end guy* Don't cry to me, Oh Baby!*Dead- End Girl, for a dead-end Life**** Peter McCabe is one of my heroes and though I rarely admire another human being or look up to them...it was his gentle humanity and infinite innocence - his boyish sheepishness and charm that he NEVER lost and his curious, loving, kind soul that makes him one of my heroes and he always will be. He left a piece behind that I'll carry with me to my last day...and they are the best things ANYONE has given me in all my life - they are - firstly, what real friendship is and that's family - your real friends are your family and always will be -and secondly, that real love is always unconditional and always forgiving, - all kinds and every kind of love. Thanks Peter - you changed all our lives in so many ways and though maybe I can't be in that grave with you, you will definitely be in mine, with me. 1-30-1991. I love you always. - we all do! Thanks for loving me no matter what stupid fucked up shit I did you were always there for me even when i didn't deserve it - you showed me what real love is - even when you probably felt I didn't know what it was, I'll always remember... I'll always admire and respect, even if I don't like you - anyone who isn't afraid to be who they really are, anyone who stands up for themselves no matter what they face or how afraid they are, anyone who'll always stop to help someone out or go out of their way to help someone, even or especially, a stranger, anyone who gives to someone who has less even if you have nothing,anyone who was picked on or bullied cause you wouldn't fall in line and still did your thing, anyone who isn't afraid to speak their minds no matter who's listening, anyone who can't be categorized, labeled, or defined - HERE'S TO YOU! Never change! You're the history makers, the inspiration to the ones who stand alone, -you're the world changers. Never follow the herd! You are my true heroes, because nothing takes more courage, more spirit, and more heart than it does to go against the grain, be who you are and say 'fuck you' if you don't like it. AND NOW THE END IS NEAR, AND SO I FACE THE FINAL CURTAIN...I'VE LIVED A LIFE THAT'S FULL...I DID IT MY WAY! ***