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Slow Motion Suicide

You can't make peace with someone who was never in the war.

About Me

I think too much and don't speak out enough; I laugh constantly but mostly to myself; I love whole-heartedly but don't know how to tell anyone; I hope for the best and lie to myself about being prepared for disappointment.
I'm not a bad person. I'm just mistake-prone.
I will always be a child
And I have
no problem
with that.

I believe.
That luck is only a refusal to take responsibility for Karma.
That Autumn is the most beautiful season of all.
That death is only the birth of new life.
That hope is required to live a fruitful existance.
That love is the highest and truest success.
That every human being is the embodiment of God.
That each of us contain beauty that would dazzle us if we would only open our eyes.
That joy comes from standing barefoot in the dirt.
That exhilaration comes from viewing the Earth from the vantage of a treetop or a mountainside.
That peace comes from the waves breaking over your feet and the salt spray whipping across your face.
Disclaimer: I am a hopeless romantic. Seriously. I am an incredibly sappy, gushy, dramatic, romantic comedy watching, crying during love scenes, pathetic and sad little idealistic girl who desperately clings to the unrealistic idea of love that Hollywood has been churning out for decades. And the saddest part about that? Even as I cynically describe it to you, I still honestly, completely believe that it's real.
Frantic ramblings of a bipolar mind.
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My Interests

life, laughter, & tears
late nights & movies
memories, whether reflecting or making
books, journals, & writing
climbing trees, hiking, swimming
or just sitting down
for a good conversation
travelling
singing with the radio
& putting my hand out the window while driving

Zodiac signs (not horoscopes), tarot cards, phyic abilities, the supernatural...I find interesting.

I'd like to meet:

People like me.
People not like me.
People who are incredible.
People who will change my life.

"You are only given a little spark of madness in this life. You mustn't lose it." -Robin Williams

Music:

Phantom Planet. Vertical Horizon.
The Ramones. Flogging Molly.
My Chemical Romance. Foxy Shazam.
Counting Crows. Saves the Day.
Taking Back Sunday. CKY.
Gorillaz. Iron and Wine.
Chevelle. NIN.
Tool. Tori Amos.
Frou Frou. The Beatles.
A Perfect Circle. Goo Goo Dolls.
Modest Mouse. Placebo.
Snow Patrol. The Cranberries.
Third Eye Blind. Damien Rice.
Gavin DeGraw. Smashing Pumpkins.
Guster. Our Lady Peace.
Jimmy Eat World. Radiohead.
Alanis Morissette. The Faint.
Oasis. Bright Eyes.
Weezer. Dave Matthews Band.
Red Hot Chili Peppers. Orgy.
Manson. Billy Joel.

Movies:

V for Vendetta.
Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas.
Rocky Horror Picture Show.
Labyrinth.
Dark Crystal.
Willow.
Fight Club.
Big Fish.
Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind.
Amelie.
The Stewie Movie.
Silence of the Lambs.
Frida.
Waterworld.
Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (the original).

Television:

Family Guy,
Futurama,
and the Adult Swim commercials, World Series Poker Tour, UFC.

Books:

JTHM.
Fantasy mainly;
David Eddings, Terry Brooks,
Tolkien, Piers Anthony,
Douglas Adams, Anne McCaffery, etc.
Various random;
Fight Club, Stephen King (Dark Tower),
Jack Keraouc, Jane Austen,
Hunter S. Thompson, etc.
I love poetry.

Heroes:

Everyone has something admirable about them. The hard part is being wise enough to appreciate it.

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My Blog

Never enough.

It's pretty sad to be torn when you don't even have options.I'm always second guessing, regretting.  When do I make a decision I'm proud of?It all boils down to me being alone.I walked for miles ...
Posted by Slow Motion Suicide on Wed, 18 Jun 2008 11:58:00 PST

...

I used to be happy once.  God, I miss that.  For a whole year I believed you were the only thing in the world that could keep me sane and smiling.  Sometimes I think losing you is punis...
Posted by Slow Motion Suicide on Sat, 14 Jun 2008 11:43:00 PST

Wtf.

Can anyone tell me why there's an advertisement for bipolar clothing on my page?  Bipolar clothing?  What the hell would the slogan be?  "Watch out, I'm bipolar, I might go psycho on yo...
Posted by Slow Motion Suicide on Fri, 06 Jun 2008 08:07:00 PST

Suck.

The biggest problem with being bad at keeping in touch is that everyone you know ends up leaving you behind.That sucks pretty bad...but there's no one to blame but myself.I miss everyone....
Posted by Slow Motion Suicide on Thu, 05 Jun 2008 08:59:00 PST

Sleep deprivation.

It's so the 'in' thing.Or so I tell myself.Ahh god.  So...in lue of something better to do, I have decided to give any interested parties a brief summary of current events in my life.  In li...
Posted by Slow Motion Suicide on Tue, 03 Jun 2008 05:46:00 PST

Leaving.

Well, it's a sick sort of nostalgic feeling, if you're really wondering.  Some sick hybrid of a vacation and a psych ward, the demonic spawn of your own sins.  You did this to yourself, ther...
Posted by Slow Motion Suicide on Sat, 17 May 2008 01:43:00 PST

Please.

Please don't give me advice.  I'm having enough trouble without being told how stupid my choices are all the time.  Maybe I'm forever making a mistake, but it's mine to make.  If that's...
Posted by Slow Motion Suicide on Wed, 30 Apr 2008 10:03:00 PST

Fallen.

I often find myself here when I feel words rising up without knowing what to say.  I come here for solace.  I come here for honesty; honesty disguised with sentences and paragraphs too obscu...
Posted by Slow Motion Suicide on Sat, 26 Apr 2008 10:28:00 PST

Demons

Okay, so this is a House fan video...but I wanted the song and couldn't find a good quality version anywhere...besides, house is a pretty good show. I just...love this song.http://www.youtube.com/wat...
Posted by Slow Motion Suicide on Sat, 26 Apr 2008 10:16:00 PST

Brush past the shutter.

It feels like I’m living a strange life.  Every day mixes with the next and the last...I never seem to know when I am.  The past four months have been everything and nothing, a minute ...
Posted by Slow Motion Suicide on Thu, 10 Apr 2008 04:49:00 PST