sometimes i feel that i could [rule the world]

About Me

my name is Emily.
most people call me Emmy.
i turned 22 August 8th.
i'm a juggalette and proud of it.
i'm in love with an awesome guy *Cecil* who treats me better than anyone i've ever been with.
i get bored a lot.
i do stupid things just to amuse myself and pass the time.
i have Borderline Personality Disorder.
i have issues but i can normally deal with them pretty well.
i get jealous WAY too easily.
i give into temptation WAY too easily.
i don't like people telling me what to do.
but i can't stand to not know what i'm supposed to do.
i feel really lost sometimes.
the easiest way to piss me off is accuse me of something i didn't do.
i freak out when i can't see.
i grew up with a bunch of guys.
my best friend is a guy and i i'm not a girlie-girl.
but i'm not really a tomboy either.
i don't really like sports.
i like to cuddle.
i'd go back to high school just to be in marching band and drama again.
i'm not very good with specifics.
i express my feelings better in writing than saying.
i love to play guitar, even though i suck.
i listen to mostly metal, rock, and psychopathic.
though emo and rap have a tendency to get on my playlist.
i strongly believe in reincarnation.
i'm not afraid of the afterlife, but i'd rather not die just yet.
i defend gay rights, pro-choice, and anti-war.
i like girls as well as guys, but the most i've done with a girl is make out, because i'm waiting for the right girl.
and i'm a chicken shit.
i'm easily amused and easily confused.

My Interests

Things That Make Me Smile:

my boyfriend
Things That Annoy the Fucking Shit Out of Me:

the general public. work. stupid people. being accused of something i didn't do/say. extreme racism. capitalism. george bush. war. hypocrites. thunderstorms. snow. cocaine. lack of money. lack of drugs. lack of drugs when i have money for them. stale air blowing in my face. never waking up feeling refreshed and rejuvinated. arrogant people. people who tell me my beliefs are wrong. drunks. crackheads. hookers. theives. my constantly hurting back. backstabbers. people that always talk shit.

I'd like to meet:

juggalos, juggalettes, stoners, hippies, cool peoples, you

Music:

3 Days Grace
3 Doors Down
311
A Perfect Circle
ABK*
Acid Bath
Adema
AFI
Agents of Oblivion
Alice in Chains
Ani Difranco
Appleseed Cast
As I Lay Dying
Atmosphere
Avril Lavigne
Ayumi Hamasaki
Banya
Beastie Boys
Bif Naked
Black 47
Black Eyed Peas
Black Sabbath
Blaze Ya Dead Homie*
Bleach**
Blind Melon
Bone Thugs n Harmony*
Boondox**
Brandtson
Bright Eyes*
Bush
Butthole Surfers
Chamillionaire
CKY
Cold
Collective Soul
Corporate Avenger
Counting Crows
Crossfade
Cursive
Dark Lotus*
Dashboard Confessional
Death Cab for Cutie
Desaprarecidos
Devil Driver*
Disturbed
Dope**
Ekoostik Hookah
Eminem
Enigma
Evanescence
Everlast
The Faint*
Fall Out Boy
Flyleaf
Godsmack
Gorillaz
Green Day
Guns'n'Roses
Haystak*
(hed) pe
HIM
Hollywood Undead
Horrorpops
ICP***
Jimmy Eat World
Johnny Cash
Juliana Theory*
Justin Timberlake
Kamelot
Killswitch Engage
Kitchen Knife Conspiracy*
Kittie
Korn
Kottonmouth Kings
Lacuna Coil
Linkin Park
Ludacris
Marilyn Manson
Matchbook Romance
Menace 2 Sobriety*
Metallica
Mindless Self Indulgence**
Motown Rage*
Mudvayne
Murderdolls
Mushroomhead**
My Chemical Romance
Neuroticfish
Nine Inch Nails
Nirvana
No Doubt
Novasonic
The Offspring
Orgy
Otep
Panic! At the Disco
Pantera
Paul Van Dyke
Pink Floyd
Primus
Psychopathic Rydas*
Rage Against the Machine
Red Hot Chilli Peppers
Rob/White Zombie
Saliva
Seether
Seo Taiji
Slipknot*

Skillet*
Soundgarden
Staind
Static-X
Stone Sour
Sublime
System of a Down
Tali Demon*
Taproot
Tech N9ne
Three Six Mafia
Thursday
T.I.
Toby Keith
Tom Petty
Tool
Trans-Siberian Orchestra
Twiztid**
Vertical Horizon
Weezer
Yellowcard
Ying Yang Twins*
Yoko Kanno
Young Jeezy
Yung Joc
Zao
Zug Izland**
* - seen in concert

Movies:

8 Mile
10 Things I Hate About You
300
Big Money Hustla$
Clerks II(FAVOURITE!)
Crank
Coyote Ugly
Dazed and Confused
Dogma
Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas
Fight Club
Friday
Harry Potter 1-4
Half-Baked
Inside Man
Interview with a Vampire
Jay and Silent Bob Strike Back
Mallrats
PotC 1-3
Rose Red
Shrek
The Craft
The Longest Yard
The Mask
The Matrix 1-3
Transporter 2
V for Vendetta
Waiting

Television:

i don't really watch a lot of tv.
but i like degrassi and family guy and america's next top model.

Books:

Love Songs by Lawrence Sanders
anything by Lawrence Sanders, really
the Harry Potter series
Song in the Silence by Elizabeth Kerr
The Tachyon Web by Christopher Pike
anything by Jude Devereaux
various other books...i do like to read.

Heroes:

my dad, Philip Lynn Thomas (R.I.P. April 4, 1946 - October 21, 2006)
my mom
my closest homies
Matthew R. Dean (R.I.P. July 6, 1988 - November 2, 2007) Violent J
Ani DiFranco

the guy that made this ^^^

My Blog

to be real i must feel

i like it when everything feels fine and even though my mouth is dry it doesn't really matter because everything seems like it will get better somehow and i like it when everything is amusing and my e...
Posted by sometimes i feel that i could [rule the world] on Tue, 19 Feb 2008 06:09:00 PST

bye bye beautiful

so i am currently addicted to this song. the music is the shit, kinda like a cross between kamelot and lacuna coil. and the lyrics are awesome, especially the chorus. wish i would've heard it around t...
Posted by sometimes i feel that i could [rule the world] on Wed, 06 Feb 2008 03:39:00 PST

180

it's so hard to put myself out there anymorebecause of all the pain that's come beforeshattered trust, hidden self-doubtthings i know i'd rather live withoutnow i don't know who i amnow i don't know w...
Posted by sometimes i feel that i could [rule the world] on Mon, 28 Jan 2008 09:49:00 PST

no squealing, remember (that it’s all in your head)

ladies and gentlemen, i am a fucking moron.i had an epiphany yesterday, while thinking hard about some shit that's happened the past couple of days, and came up with this:it's all in my head.unfo...
Posted by sometimes i feel that i could [rule the world] on Sun, 13 Jan 2008 05:46:00 PST

...and i hate that i love you

you've been everything to me since the day we metan angel in disguise that for some reason i was sentyou are my rock, you are my strengthyou kept me together when i thought for sure i would breakbut t...
Posted by sometimes i feel that i could [rule the world] on Thu, 10 Jan 2008 06:08:00 PST

thnks fr th mmrs

seeing as it's nearing the end of 2007, i've been doing a lot of thinking about stuff that's happened over this past year and all the shit i've been through. there are quite a few things i'd like to f...
Posted by sometimes i feel that i could [rule the world] on Sat, 29 Dec 2007 06:08:00 PST

some people really just don’t get it.

hi kids! to me, it seems like a few people i know seem to just not get it. example, taken from josh's blog entry(which yes, i did continue to read, and call it spying if you want, but the ONLY reason ...
Posted by sometimes i feel that i could [rule the world] on Sun, 16 Dec 2007 05:38:00 PST

clinging to a dream

so close, i can feel your breath on mei reach out with closed eyesopen, you're just too far away for me to seedesperate for the slightest touchthe kind i only felt once beforesearching for a spark to ...
Posted by sometimes i feel that i could [rule the world] on Wed, 12 Dec 2007 04:01:00 PST

you can watch me go or you can make me stay

"Make Me Stay"by Ani DifrancoI'm going to turnand walk awayyou can waittil I am far alongthen run and comeand catch my armand say you'd dieif I were goneI want to hear youcall my nameit's too eas...
Posted by sometimes i feel that i could [rule the world] on Tue, 11 Dec 2007 11:17:00 PST

love me or hate me, its still an obsession

ain't it funny how some feelings change so quickly?it's like they were never there to begin with...fool me once, shame on you.fool me twice, shame on me.but i'm not that big of a fool.my eyes are open...
Posted by sometimes i feel that i could [rule the world] on Sun, 02 Dec 2007 05:41:00 PST