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Noel

i'm sick of my life!

About Me

im the eternal sad guy...i dont want to be happy right now...hey!would you help me agonize myself more?i think that would help...making me happy wont do you any good...and it does not do me any good...%A%A...the last dance ended without it ever happening...%A...and i slash my wrists just to feel im alive...%AORTUNE COOKIE%As the sun dawns to the day %A%AI stay in the night you've made%A%AGravity, null, void%A%AIt sucks everything in me%A%APassing, eating, thru and thru%A%AGripping every breath i take%A%AI drown... i suffocate...%A%AWhy? I ask myself why...%A%AHave i done anything or did i do nothing?%A%AWith your words so cold%A%Ai catch frostbite in it%And i can't fill the emptiness%Amptiness in me you've made%A%AYeah, you left and i stand alone%A%ANot given a chance to fight%A%ANow waking up is agony%A%AThe sun is as dark as night%A%ALeft me with a broken heart and a shattered mind%And you will never come back...%A%Awill never return to mend the wounds of a battle never told...%A%AWarring feelings and unending cries...%A bleeding and broken heart...%A%AI see your name there...%Aarved on each half....%A%A%A(walang sense ano?)%A%A...it is never good enough to feel right...%A%A...I greet the morning sky...%A...the sun dries tears in my eyes...%A...awaken this sleeping heart of mine... ....

My Interests

music!love playing guitar(though i stil haven't bought my own, )anything with strings!finishing my hated course, writing monotonous and redundant songs coz my vocab is limited, bystanding and bumming around, movies, poetry, photography, contemporary and progressive art.philosophy(especially the existentialist philosophies), eating(but i dont eat that much anymore), laughing and crying at the same time...(and Bem)...

I'd like to meet:

anyone...no one...everyone...someone...my one...(if there is such a thing...) %A %A

Music:

still ROCK music..anything wih distorted guitars and the like, but any song and type would do, ranging from the classicals to deathmetal and everything in between. i also like fusions of musical genres... just dont give me novelty songs and real heavy black music...i think novelty songs suck but the novelty song writers are geniuses...i have nothing against black people and RNB(besides im also dark skinned), its just that i dont like it when all rap songs can be fitted to one melody(like what they did with the mary j. blige song where in every rap song can be fitted to the melody...how dull is that?but i commend rappers coz they are good with the word play...), RNB and soul is great but not the angry words of some other guys who doesnt have anything in mind bust sex, drugs and violence

Movies:

movies?i have too many to mention...i like movies that dont have predictable outcomes, ones that would make you think, that has little of the movie cliches, and with very good directing and writing...the production will be great if the writer/s and director/s are hell's thinkers(if u know wut i mean)

Television:

Television?hmmm...anything will do so long as it is enjoyable... i watch ETC shows like late night talk shows with jay leno and conan o'brien...but i spend most of my time watching the movie and sports channels

Books:

da vinci code, angels and demons, ABNKKBSNPLAKo, and paboritong libro ni judas, bakit baliktad magbasa ng libro ang mga pilipino?, womenagerie(and other jessica zafra writings...YES!IT IS A VERY TWISTED WORLD!!!!), cookbooks(but i dont cook), photography books(one of the best is the X book i mean WOW!), Sophie's world and the alchemist(though i haven't read the last one yet)

My Blog

Broken Hearted blog...

Feeling down and crap so I guess ill just put this into paper as usual. It has been more than three weeks since our last contact and I am still not over. Why does losing someone youve invested feelin...
Posted by Noel on Wed, 08 Feb 2006 12:10:00 PST