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JM

as i knelt on my pillow god, clenched my fists and banged my fucking head

About Me

im weird, people hate me, and if they dont they should because i hate them, im afraid of large gatherings of people (like 2 or more) i often say things that either dont make sense or are not appropriate i just cant be fucked to think before i talk, i need helip with my personal apperance, i really hate everyone i meet until they win me over so you start with -10 and may advance as far as +2, i fuck teenagers and am a bullet/shrapnel magnet so you may not want to stand to close to me ever (specially if there is a meteor shower or something spectacular) because i attract explosives. plus i prolly smell, another incentive never to get near me. i plan to wear a suicide vest to my own funeral so dont go to that either, consider yourself warned. i look at dead people all day and im not a medical student, i enjoy making people bleed but i passout when i get stuck myself, im quite the coward. i am not a sadist, its just people get what they deserve. when i drink i spout motivating madness about being the tip of some sort of spear and pound on my chest before i faceplant and vomit onto my bosses kids' bike, or have sex in his hot tub with an 18 yr old girl. i love my superiors except when they talk to me, then it is usually bad. i come off bubbly and even ditzy and happy but im usualy quite macabre, i think the world sucks but im to much of a pussy to do anything about it. i miss my buddies, daniel bubb and chad hildebrandt, im excruciatingly loyal to that +2 minority even if they shoot me with airsofts and make fun of me constantly, they are the only friends i have. really that is more than anyone ever really needs to know about me. eat babies.

My Interests

nothing interests me.there is a secret sound at the center of the world, and its sound is like razors through flesh.oh you can hear its faint echo right now, im here to turn up the volume.to press the stinking face of humanity into the dark blood of its own secret heart.

I'd like to meet:

i don't want to meet anyone. i don't like people. i don't want or need friends. people are boring flawed and annoying. people have problems and put them on other people. if you cannot deal with something yourself then you are weak. people are drama. people are sheep. people are ignorant. people are rude. people ask to many fuckin' questions.

Music:

i like anything that sounds good. make sense? you can't live or define your life by the lyrics in someone else's song. write your own. live your own life.

Movies:

i like old movies, movies that make you think and movies that make you feel something, sad, happy, anything at all. movies are meant to entertain and inspire. i love movies that do just that.

Television:

i don't watch television. i don't need to watch "reality" tv to tell me what reality is. i don't need to know when "brangelina" are going to adopt another poor african child. i don't need to know about some celebrity getting a DUI or punching a reporter. i don't need to see a triple murder home invasion execution style robbery gone wrong with a high speed chase to boot. i don't need these things in my life. i could care less who the next american idol is going to be. they are not my idol. idol worship is a sin anyways isn't it? for you god fearin' types. i don't look forward to the next episode of the O.C. so i can sit and fantasize about being a rich bitch who's only concern is if that new girl is tryin' to steal my man, or if my nail polish matches my highlights. it'll never be you. turn off the television and think for yourself for a change.

Books:

i like military science fiction, you know shit about space marines slaughtering aliens as they jump out of hyperspace, shit like that. i always wanted to be a space marine.

Heroes:

there is no one worth looking up to but oneself. and one should strive to be the person they would like others to think of them as. not just try and make people think they are something they wish they really could be. if you want people to think you are honest, then be honest. if you want people to think you are smart, then be smart. if you want people to think you are cool, then be cool. if you want people to think you are a dick, then be a dick. be whatever you want to be, but not because its what the TV tells you its what you should want to be. then you are a sheep and if you are a sheep then don't try and pretend you aren't. i have more respect for a trendy label whore who admits they are a trendy label whore because thats whats hip this season, as opposed to someone who thinks individuality is something that can be purchased and if i dye my hair enough colors then it means i am unique, cuz thats how the unique interesting girls are in the movies! sigh, if i had to list people that i admired it would be, 2pac, winston churchill, mohamed ali, and joseph stalin.

My Blog

my hope, my god my love, my fear, my god its over, its all good till the world came down

im at a point in my life where i have achieved all my previous goals. ok im here. now what? i need new goals, i'm not confused like a teenager, hell im 23, my neighbors bang on the ceiling (its there ...
Posted by JM on Mon, 30 Apr 2007 06:08:00 PST

pointless

do you beleive people can dream about what is going to happen? no ... do you beleive in the boogy man? no ... then you wont mind coldcocking this guy when i bring him out, what?! you heard me i grab t...
Posted by JM on Tue, 20 Jun 2006 09:14:00 PST

fuck look at those locks!

dammit, i was looking at my old LAR pictures and i had the most gorgeous flowing longly hair, it was free and wild and extra padding for the kevlar, life was so good, my happiness is directly releated...
Posted by JM on Sat, 13 May 2006 06:21:00 PST

what a girl want what a girl need

a fuckin job and a brand new hair weave, so i've figgured out what i want to do with my life, i want to drive a barge on the river thames, yeah thats about it, and after i post my eval you will see wh...
Posted by JM on Sat, 22 Apr 2006 09:20:00 PST