Xplicit

GROWING UP IN PENCACOLA, FL. XPLICIT HAS LIVED THE LIFE OF A 40 YEAR OLD WOMAN. SEEING EVERYTHING BUT GOOD TIMES HAS MADE HER WHO SHE IS TODAY. SHE TAKES WHAT SHE CALLS GUTTA SEX-APEAL AND STETCHES IT AS FAR AS THE RADIO AIR WAVES TAKES HER. DEALING WITH THINGS LIKE SEX, DRUGS, ABUSIVE RELATIONSHIPS, AND EVEN MUDRER HAS PUT HER IN THE MIND FRAME OF NOT FAILING. SHE KNOWS THAT IF IT WASN'T FOR MUSIC SHE WOULD PROBLEY BE LOCKED UP SOME WHERE OR WORSE."I WONT LET ANY THING STOP ME FROM TELLING MY STORY AND SHAREING MY PAIN WITH PEOPLE, IT COULD POSSIBLY CHANGE THE MINE OF SOMEONE READY TO MAKE A MISTAKE" IS WHAT SHE SAYS.MOST PEOPLE WOULD SAY THAT SHE'S A BITCH BUT SHE SAYS ITS JUST CONFIDENCE, AND PEOPLE WILL HATE YOU YOUR WHOLE LIFE, THAT LETS YOU KNOW WHAT YOU DO IS ON POINT.GROWING UP LYRICLY: I WAS 11YRS. OLD WHEN I STARTED WRITING, I WOULD SEE MY BROTHER DO FREESTYLE STREET BATTLE, AND WIN THEM. HE HAD WHAT WAS CALLED HOOD FAME, ME NOT REALLY HAVING ANY FRIENDS I WANTED THE SAME THING SO I STARTED WRITING TO BE JUST LIKE HIM. EVEN THOUGH SOME WAS GOOD AND SOME WAS OK, HE WOULD TAKE THE BEST WORK I HAD AND TEAR IT UP CALLING IT BULLSHIT AND TELL ME TO START OVER. I THOUGHT HE WAS BEING HARSH BUT HE WAS REALLY JUST GETTING MY MINE RIGHT. A WHOLE YEAR OF HIM BALLING MY SHIT UP AND ME GETTING MAD HE STARTED TO KEEP SOME AND TELL ME IT WAS OK FOR A BEGINER! I THEN STARTED TO DO MINOR BATTLES, SOME I LOST AND SOME I WON AND WHEN THAT WOULD HAPPEN I GOT THE BIGHEAD. I FINALY WANTED TO BATTLE MY BROTHER. EVEN THOUGH I LOST HE SAID IT WAS A START AND WHEN I ACTUALLY START GOING THROUGH LIFE MY MUSIC WOULD GET DEEPER. NOT KNOWING WHAT THAT MENT, I KNOW NOW. WHEN I WAS FIFTEEN I STARTED BACK-UP DANCING FOR THIS GOSPEL SINGER FORM BODYHEAD ENT. NOW KEEP IN MIND I DID NOT LOOK FIFTEEN, I WAS ALSO GOOD AT WHAT I DID SO THEY WANTED ME TO DANCE WITH ANOTHER GIRL WHO WAS IN HER TWENTY'S. EVEN THOUGH I LOVED BEING ON STAGE, IN THE BACK WAS NOT WERE I WANTED TO BE. SO AS TIME PASSED I HAD BECOME SIXTEEN, AND HATED BY MOST OF THE GIRLS AND LOVED BY ALL THE GUY'S IN MY HOMETOWN, I WOULD HAVE TO FIGHT ALMOST EVERYDAY UNTIL I WAS TIERED, "AIN'T THAT SUM SHIT". I GOT KICK OUT OF EVERY SCHOOL I WENT TO, AND MISSED MY PROM. I LOVED THE THOUGHT OF HAVING MONEY AT A YOUNG AGE SO I HAD STARTED TO MAKE SOME SIDE MONEY HUSSELING FOR A NIGGA TWICE MY AGE AND AT THE TIME I ALSO HAD A SIDE JOB WORKING AT THE MALL, SO THE MONEY WAS ON POINT, I DIDNT EVEN ASK MY MOTHER TO BUY MY SCHOOL CLOTHES. SO ANYWAY, AT AGE 16 I FELL IN LOVE OR AT LEAST THOUGHT I WAS " YOU KNOW HOW THAT GOES" IT SEEM LIKE MY WORLD WAS PERFECT UNTIL I MOVED OUT MY MOMS PLACE, THEN I STARTED GAINING WEIGHT, AND GETTING BEAT ON. ON MY 18TH BIRTHDAY I FOUND OUT I WAS PREGNANT, EVEN THOUGH WE BOTH WANTED IT I KNEW MY LIFE WAS GOING TO BE HELL, ON TOP OF BEING SICK, NOT ONLY WAS I FIGHTING FOR MY LIFE I WAS FIGHTING FOR THE BABIES TOO. AFTER BEING HOMLESS AND PREGNANT, I FINALLY GOT MY SHIT TOGETHER AND MOVED TO VA..... MUSIC IS MY REHAB PEOPLE AND THIS IS MY START, ANYBODY WHO EVER TRED TO BEAT ME DOWN ON THE WAY HERE, YOU GOT WHATS COMING TO YOU