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goldberry

About Me

i like pushing the limits of my own reality (and adopting the numerous and growing points methodology in supposition with doing so). i like interacting with beings that have something mindblowing to express(in any form that manifests).

Great understanding is broad and unhurried; little understanding is cramped and busy. Great words are clear and limpid; little words are shrill and quarrelsome. In sleep, men's spirits go visiting; in waking hours, their bodies hustle. With everything they meet they become entangled. Day after day they use their minds in strife, sometimes grandiose, sometimes sly, sometimes petty. Their little fears are mean and trembly; their great fears are stunned and overwhelming. They bound off like an arrow or crossbow pellet, certain that they are the arbiters of right and wrong. They cling to their position as though they had sworn before the gods, sure that they are holding on to victory. They fade like fall and winter--such is the way they dwindle day by day. They drown in what they do --you cannot make them turn back. They grow dark, as though sealed with seals--such are the excesses of their old age. And when their minds draw near to death, nothing can restore them to the light .

Joy, anger, grief, delight, worry, regret, fickleness, inflexibility, modesty, willfulness, candor, insolence--music from empty holes, mushrooms springing up in dampness, day and night replacing each other before us, and no one knows where they sprout from. Let it be! Let it be! It is enough that morning and evening we have them, and they are the means by which we live. Without them we would not exist; without us they would have nothing to take hold of. This comes close to the matter. But I do not know what makes them they way they are. It would seem as though they have some True Master, and yet I find no trace of him. He can act--that is certain. Yet I cannot see his form. He has identity but no form.

-On making all things equal, Chuang Tzu


one of my favorite tool songs: ..
have yet to find a good video of opiate..

My Interests

drum circles
the smell of dirt
strangely arranged things
the condensation pattern on the wall of the shower
dogs swimming in muddy water
estatic moments
happy dancing children
the front porch of my grandmother's house
the white streets of mykonos
that inbetween season breeze
smiles that are real and don't need a smile in return
dreaming[waking]
dark rooms
nostalgic tendancies
hot tea of almost any flavor

eastern philosophy
wine
climbing buildings

Music:

tool
nine inch nails
incubus
a perfect circle
pink floyd
pagoda
marcy playground
ravi shankar
nirvana
other grunge
fugazi
jack johnson
red hot chili peppers
system of a down
elliot smith
sublime
jeff buckley
blind melon
311
seether
bush
iron and wine
radiohead
atmosphere
jeru the damaja
seether
deftones
staind
dredg
other underground rap
industrial
folk
jungle/pacific rim
(current music is by the amazing composer Clint Mansell, from The Fountain, sit and be moved, or stand if you'd like, or dance even)

Movies:

american beauty
the butterfly effect
faith in chaos
easy rider
elephant
how to deal
last days
the dreamers
murder by numbers
THE FOUNTAIN
byfar, the best movie i've ever seen.

Television:

the wonder years
pete and pete
grounded for life

Books:

tao te ching
become what you are
the teachings of don juan
chuang tzu
east of eden
a seperate reality
the cobra event
diary
invisible monsters
haunted
lullaby
stranger than fiction
survivor
dancing skeletons
one hundred years of solitude
running with scissors
for whom the bell tolls
the book on the taboo against knowing who you are
if i should die before i wake
dancing on the edge
guns germs and steel
the cosmic serpent
angels and demons
the four agreements
tales of power
Of love and other demons
strange pilgrams
the poetry of rumi
the poetry of kabir
intelligence in nature
high priest
thinking matter
endless more

My Blog

human beings

if we're all made of the same thing, then why can't we be on the same level? If there is a general consensus among people of different races, religions, nationalities, cultures, and economic backgroun...
Posted by goldberry on Thu, 25 Jan 2007 07:44:00 PST

i feel ignorant

ignorant. face it. i am. i mean, we all are. but sometimes, i feel like i really take things for granted. being an american, having what i can have, having it easily. no matter how humble i try to be,...
Posted by goldberry on Mon, 09 Oct 2006 10:21:00 PST

ok i'm having one of those nights

The Tao that can be spoken is not the true Tao. This can be used to refer to so much. Like determinite reality. not possible. That's what i feel like the Allegory of the Cave's flaw is. You come out o...
Posted by goldberry on Wed, 20 Sep 2006 07:18:00 PST

destructive existance

when the lightening strikes i secretly love it though i should be afraid and i feel as though i am close to the short bright brisk burning existance. it has a beginning and an end, many intricate pat...
Posted by goldberry on Fri, 07 Jul 2006 05:35:00 PST

home

i hate being at home. when i am at school, i can keep my distance from the disease that is this place. everyone is so fucking wrapped up in everyone else that they don't sit down and realize that they...
Posted by goldberry on Mon, 08 May 2006 12:19:00 PST

sickening illusions

the kind of existancal illusions that we talk about are the kind of illusions i see in people everyday. it's almost like illusions within illusions that people create ontop of another, it sickens me s...
Posted by goldberry on Sat, 22 Apr 2006 02:04:00 PST

accidentality of existence

this is a concept that i am struggling with right now. the accidentality of existance. the barriar of languange makes it even harder for me. the two sides of the matter are examples posed like this: "...
Posted by goldberry on Wed, 12 Apr 2006 09:34:00 PST