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Susan

The universe is made of stories, not atoms Muriel Rukeyser

About Me

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If you really want to hear about it, the first thing you'll probably want to know is where I was born, and what my lousy childhood was like, and how my parents were occupied and all before they had me, and all that David Copperfield kind of crap, but I don't feel like going into it, if you want to know the truth.catcher in the rye
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My Interests

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Peace and sustainability issues, literature, and my sweetie, Luke

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apparently I am mostly a satanist--who would have known?

You scored as Satanism. Your beliefs most closely resemble those of Satanism! Before you scream, do a bit of research on it. To be a Satanist, you don't actually have to believe in Satan. Satanism generally focuses upon the spiritual advancement of the self, rather than upon submission to a deity or a set of moral codes. Do some research if you immediately think of the satanic cult stereotype. Your beliefs may also resemble those of earth-based religions such as paganism.

Satanism


83%

Buddhism


79%

Paganism


75%

agnosticism


67%

atheism


58%

Islam


50%

Judaism


42%

Hinduism


42%

Christianity


29%
Which religion is the right one for you? (new version)
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You Should Get a PhD in Liberal Arts (like political science, literature, or philosophy)
You're a great thinker and a true philosopher.
You'd make a talented professor or writer. What Advanced Degree Should You Get?

I'd like to meet:

Quotes and Poems and Stuff
When did the body first set out on its own adventures? ...after having ditched its old traveling companions, the mind and the soul, for whom it had once been considered a mere corrupt vessel or else a puppet acting out their dramas for them, or else bad company, leading the other two astray. It must have got tired of the soul's constant nagging and whining and the anxiety-driven intellectual web-spinning of the mind, distracting it whenever it was getting its teeth into something juicy or its fingers into something good. It had dumped the other two back there somewhere, leaving them stranded in some damp sanctuary or stuffy lecture hall while it made a beeline for the topless bars, and it had dumped culture along with them: music and painting and poetry and plays. Sublimation, all of it; nothing but sublimation, according to the body. Why not cut to the chase? But the body had its own cultural forms. It had its own art. Executions were its tragedies, pornography was its romance.
-oryx and crake

"Among other things, you'll find that you're not the first person who was ever confused and frightened and even sickened by human behavior. You're by no means alone on that score, you'll be excited and stimulated to know. Many, many men have been just as troubled morally and spiritually as you are right now. Happily, some of them kept records of their troubles. You'll learn from them - if you want to. Just as someday, if you have something to offer, someone will learn something from you. It's a beautiful reciprocal arrangement. And it isn't education. It's history. It's poetry."
~Chapter 24, spoken by the character Mr. Antolini (catcher in the rye)

"If there was hope, it must lie in the proles, because only there, in those swarming disregarded masses, eighty-five percent of the population of Oceania, could the force to destroy the Party ever be generated."
"Until they become conscious they will never rebel, and until after they they have rebelled they cannot become conscious."

"It was curious to think that the sky was the same for everybody, in Eurasia or Eastasia as well as here. And the people under the sky were also very much the same—everywhere, all over the world, hundreds or thousands of millions of people just like this, people ignorant of one another's existence, held apart by walls of hatred and lies, and yet almost exactly the same—people who had never learned to think but were storing up in their hearts and bellies and muscles the power that would one day overturn the world."
-1984

He [Aureliano II ] had already understood that he would never leave that room, for it was foreseen that the city of mirrors (or mirages) would be wiped out by the wind and exiled from the memory of men at the precise moment when Aureliano Babilonia would finish deciphering the parchments, and that everything written on them was unrepeatable since time immemorial and forever more, because races condemned to one hundred years of solitude did not have a second opportunity on earth.
One Hundred Years of Solitude
"After the war, as the years went by, I couldn't help contemplating the promises that had been made about what the war would accomplish. You know, General Marshall sent me -- and 16 million others -- a letter congratulating us for winning the war and telling us how the world would now be a different place. Fifty million people were dead and the world was not really that different. I mean, Hitler and Mussolini were gone, as was the Japanese military machine, but fascism and militarism, and racism were still all over the world, and wars were still continuing. So I came to the conclusion that war, whatever quick fix it might give you -- Oh, we've defeated this phenomenon, fascism; we've gotten rid of Hitler (like we've gotten rid of Saddam Hussein, you see) -- whatever spurt of enthusiasm, the after-effects were like those of a drug; first a high and then you settle back into something horrible. So I began to think that any wars, even wars against evil, simply don't accomplish much of anything. In the long run, they simply don't solve the problem. In the interim, an enormous number of people die. I also came to the conclusion that, given the technology of modern warfare, war is inevitably a war against children, against civilians. When you look at the ratio of civilian to military dead, it changes from 50-50 in World War II to 80-20 in Vietnam, maybe as high as 90-10 today."---Howard Zinn

Music:

Moody Rock
Pearl Jam, Tool, A Perfect Circle, Sunny Day Real Estate, The Fire Theft, Weezer, the Cure, Widespread Panic, Mars Volta
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Classic Rock
Led Zeppelin, Pink Floyd, Beatles, Jimi Hendrix, Rush, Blue Oyster Cult

singer/somgwriters
pj harvey, tori amos, fiona apple, neil young, jeremy egnick, woodie guthrie, bright eyes, lizzie west,

Punky-Politcal Stuff
Rise Against, Strike Anywhere, RX Bandits, Against Me!

Movies:


how jedi are you? :: by lawrie malen
Best Movies Ever
Dead Poet's Society, Hotel Rwanda, Dogma, Kill Bill Vols 1 & 2, Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas, Singles, The Wall, Reality Bites, Star Wars, Pulp Fiction

These Make Me Giggle
Wedding Singer, Spaceballs, Office Space, Harold and Kumar Go To White Castle, Run Ronnie Run,
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Childhood Favorites (that I still watch all the time)
Labyrinth, Legend, Never Ending Story, Princess Bride
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Television:

My faves are the Daily Show and The Colbert Report, as well as reruns of Friends and That 70s Show, and my dirty secret...I am a Desperete Housewives fan *gasp* i know.

You scored as Jean Luc Picard. You are intellgent and introspective. You like spending quiet time reading or listening to music. You are a natural leader who prefers diplomacy to war.

Jean Luc Picard


67%

Deanna Troi


60%

Data


53%

Worf


47%

Geordi LaForge


47%

Beverly Crusher


33%

William T. Riker


26%
Which Star Trek: the Next Generation character are you?
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You Are 18% Evil
You are good. So good, that you make evil people squirm.
Just remember, you may need to turn to the dark side to get what you want! How Evil Are You?

Books:

"The test of a first-rate intelligence is the ability to hold two opposed ideas in the mind at the same time, and still retain the ability to function.One should, for example, be able to see that things are hopeless and yet be determined to make them otherwise."---F. Scott Fitzgerald
The Time Travelers Wife
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The Blind Assassin, Oryx and Crake (both Margaret Atwood)

One Hundred Years of Solitude, The Emigrants by W.G. Sebald, A Pale View of Hills by Kazuo Ishiguro, Things Fall Apart by Chinua Achebe, all the Norton Anthologies
1984, Brave New World, Catch 22, Amazing Grace, Reading Lolita in Tehran, Baghdad Diaries, Love in the time of Cholera by Gabriel Garcia Marquez
Time's Arrow by Martin Amis, The Ground Beneath Her Feet by Salman Rushdie, Leaves of Grass by Walt Whitman, Train to Pakistan by Khushwant Singh, Kafka's the Metamorphosis, Revolution on Canvas (poetry from the indie music scene), Word of Mouth (Poems featured on NPR's All Things Considered), and the Sexual Politics of Meat


You're The Sound and the Fury!
by William Faulkner
Strong-willed but deeply confused, you are trying to come to grips with a major crisis in your life. You can see many different perspectives on the issue, but you're mostly overwhelmed with despair at what you've lost. People often have a hard time understanding you, but they have some vague sense that you must be brilliant anyway. Ultimately, you signify nothing.
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Recently Read: Dancing Arabs, The Tent by Margaret Atwood
currently reading: Cat's Eye by MA
You scored as William Shakespeare. You are most like William Shakespeare. Hopefully you will not die on you next birthday, but have a good one at that! "Shall I compare thee to a summer's day?" ---Sonnet 18

William Shakespeare


75%

Robert Burns (yes, I know he's Scotish!!!)


67%

Robert Louis Stevenson


67%

Geoffery Chaucer


50%

Sir Phillip Sidney


50%

Alexander Pope


42%

Mary Shelley


42%

John Milton


33%

Beowulf Poet


17%

Marie de France


8%
Which British Literature Writer are you?
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Heroes:

Anyone who has the balls to stand up for (true) peace and justice.

My Blog

Thoughts and Thanks

I really appreciate all the phone calls and kind words.I still don't know how to make sense of this tragedy, and I don't really know how we will move on, only that we will.  I don't think I could...
Posted by Susan on Mon, 18 Feb 2008 05:15:00 PST

fuck fucking ignorance

that's all.  
Posted by Susan on Sun, 01 Jul 2007 06:37:00 PST

my "world view"

You scored as Postmodernist. Postmodernism is the belief in complete open interpretation. You see the universe as a collection of information with varying ways of putting it together. There is no abs...
Posted by Susan on Mon, 21 May 2007 06:23:00 PST

Grrrrr

I thought I was going to SIUC.  They said they would fund me, but now they are not returning my calls. NIU just offered me an assistantship, which I will receive info on on Thursday. I was real...
Posted by Susan on Wed, 18 Apr 2007 06:04:00 PST

now i've pissed off my mailman

So, I know I told some of you, but I believe I haven't been receiving all of my mail.  A couple of bills never came and one grad school acceptance got sent back.  So I filed a complaint.&nbs...
Posted by Susan on Thu, 05 Apr 2007 12:25:00 PST

very very long questionnaire

Longest Questionnaire EVER!! Q. What is your salad dressing of choice?RanchQ. What is your favorite fast food restaurant?El Rancho--delicious!Q. What is your favorite sit-down restaurant?La ToltecaQ....
Posted by Susan on Thu, 05 Apr 2007 08:42:00 PST

for my bitches

"Do not assume that he who seeks to comfort you now, lives untroubled among the simple and quiet words that sometimes do you good. His life may also have much sadness and difficulty, that remains far ...
Posted by Susan on Tue, 03 Apr 2007 12:31:00 PST

hehe

browsing the amazon bestsellers to find new books for the store, found this one, called Generation what? dispatches from the quater life crisis.  and this is one of the lines: For anyone hoping t...
Posted by Susan on Sun, 25 Mar 2007 05:08:00 PST

grad school rant

The prospect of graduate school is still wrecking havoc on my daily life (mostly because I am neurotic) I've been accepted to 4 schools.NIU was the first to accept me (way back when) but I still havn'...
Posted by Susan on Fri, 16 Mar 2007 10:13:00 PST

i have now been accepted to my bottom two schools

I got an acceptance letter from George Mason University, which is the last school I want to go to (I say this, but all in all it's going to depend on who gives me the most money).Maybe more tommorow, ...
Posted by Susan on Mon, 26 Feb 2007 01:58:00 PST