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E. Nicole

same dress...a new day

About Me

"You can't stop some people, Jones. They come into your life destined to leave it. And you can wrap your arms tight around them, but the best that you can hope to do is just slow them down a little because there's no holding on tight enough. -Blanche, All I Want
"Just a dog? Just? Porthos, don't listen to him. Porthos dreams of being a bear and you want to dash those dreams by saying he's just a dog? Tsk, tsk, tsk. What a horrible, candle-stuffing word. That's just like saying, he can't climb that mountain. He's just a man. Or, that's not a diamond, it's just a rock. Just." -Johnny Depp, as James in Finding Neverland
Currently my life is an empty canvas and I'm in the thought process of painting myself. There is always so much more than meets the eye. I am a laid back, easy going person. I seek spontaneity and laughter. I love people and their company. Sometimes I just want to be alone. I don't know what my major is in college. Writing helps me get across what is sometimes hard for me to verbally speak. I trust God has a plan for me, I just wish he'd let me in on it. I've never been camping, but have always wanted to go. I don't have a Texan accent even though I lived there for my first twenty-three years. I have a heart of stone that is slowly crumbling away. I don't smooch just anyone. Wind blowing through my hair and sun beating down on my skin makes me feel free. I always have an opinion that I always like to share. I say Good AM instead of Good Morning. Ignorance is a major pet peeve. Always leave an impression, just make sure it's true. I was so drunk that I couldn't stand up when I pierced my nose. People, in general, are somewhat disfunctional. He hurt my heart, but apparently it was time for me to move on - which I've done more than I ever imagined I would. I live for midnight swims at the beach. I'm not embarrassed to be myself. In 25 years, I've only had three boyfriends, only one lasting longer than three months. I love art museums. I'm not as innocent as I appear. A smile doesn't mean it comes from within. I play both the devil and the angel parts very well. I've never worked in fast food and I've only had two other jobs, both in a law office. I'm not Jewish. I like to learn, but hate to study. Running away from issues is something I've always done best. I'm not a good dancer, but won't pass up the chance. I don't like roses and love daisies. The only person who you can trust and love is yourself; so be all that you can be, because sometimes all you have is you. I miss my family more now that I don't live near them. Sometimes getting a little dirty can be fun. I don't pour milk in my bowl of cereal. I wouldn't drink so much if I didn't worry so much. I like fortune cookies. Pictures will always speak more to me than words will ever. I like people who can carry on an actual conversation. I don't toss out "I love you" like some superficial people. If you have a breath of life in you, live for it; because you never know when it might get taken away. I hide things you never would believe. I love my cell phone to jingle. I've been told that I'm naive. Walk tall with confidence, not arrogance. I smile even when I hurt. Snuggle in sweetie; it's cold out there. I long to fall asleep in his arms. I've only been bowling four times, yet think I'm a pro. Speeding down the highway adds a little danger and excitement to life. If you can't talk, then write. I wonder if my neighbors hate me when I blare my music and sing at the top of my lungs. Think of death if you hurt; you just might feel better. I love to watch people when they think no one is watching. You can miss heaven by about 14 inches - the distance between your head and your heart. I want to travel the world and I want someone to go with me. I love laughter. Sincere eyes and a true smile make me melt. Monkeys are my favorite animal. I love quotes and song lyrics; sometimes someone else can say it better than I can. Thoughtful surprises make me feel special. Words alone can shatter a soul. A cheater only cheats himself; a liar only lies to herself. If I could travel only by airplane, I would. Dancing in the rain screams freedom. I'm uncomfortable in my own skin. I crave commitment, though in the long run it frightens me. Music is more than just words; it's a state of mind. Smile during movies when the guy ends up with the girl. Super Mario 3 is my all-time favorite video game. Chose a journey and travel it to the end. I drink beer out of a straw. Sometimes I cry just because my eyes need a bath too. I've taken belly dancing classes. I've been down before and sometimes slip back. I love my friends terribly, but sometimes feel like I'm a terrible friend. Send me a message with your friend request if you really want me to add you; then I'll know you've at least taken the time to read this far. I miss people I used to talk to. A smiley face on a post-it note adds sunshine to someone's day. I've liked, lusted, and loved all at once. I don't hold back honesty when I'm drunk. Laugh, cause then things aren't as scary. I'm fairly complicated until you get to know me. I'm an occasional smart ass. I'm not fond of makeup, but love "dressing up" my eyes. Smooches on my forehead send chills down my back. Playing against someone better than you makes you try that much harder. Comment me and I'll comment you. I don't prey on making others lives difficult or miserable. I don't read as much as I used to. I'm stubborn. Sticks and stones may break bones, but words can shatter a soul. I like soup on salad, not soup and salad. If I have your number expect a drunk dial. It's not easy being brave. I've only been in love once, and have only loved one other; the third was just a joke. I get along with almost everyone. Eat fresh cucumbers on a hot summer day. I like tall boys. I'm a stargazer and always wish on stars. Live music makes me wish I was musically inclined. Karma will creep up on you. A big, bold, black cup of coffee with two packets of Splenda makes the perfect AM. I can spend hours in Target. I've been known to cause too much drama. Don't forget about the small things in life. Occasionally I'm paranoid. I'm actually smart when I apply myself. I will always at least try to make time for my friends. I love to talk, yet I'm not a speaker. First dates make me nervous, so instead I call them "meetings". My heart has been shattered, but there's only one piece left that I can't find. A good tennis match makes me smile - win, or no win. I don't believe everything someone tells me. I can be the life of the party or just another wallflower. The truth sometimes hurts. I'm actually quite plain. Short hellos and notes from loved ones keep me going. I don't sleep as much as I should. Each day that passes is one day closer to Friday. British accents are sexy. I love caffine to the point I'm shaking. I have an artistic-creative streak...I think it's orange. Accept me for me and don't try to change me. My favorite words are "lovely" and "pleasant", just because they are that. My apartment is spacious and bare, but I love it as such; possibly because it resembles me. I'm not "sexy" "a hottie" or any other label; I'm simply me. People who can't spell or don't even try are lazy. I don't accept compliments well. I'm probably one of the smashingest people you'll ever meet or dream of meeting. Enjoy thunder and lightening; they are natures emotion. Occasionally I'll talk to myself. Snack on pretzels and hummus. It's amazing what a child's smile or hug can do to and for you. I don't regret my past; it's only made me stronger. I'm easily distracted. When I get nervous I tend to babble. I like Starbucks coffee, but not all that mocha-loca-latte crap. Sometimes I don't fully appreciate things I should because I fear that they will some day, somehow...disappear. I've had more deep, drunken conversations than I can remember. Cuddling makes me smile. For some reason, I find all Wal-Marts dirty. At this point in my life, I'm the strongest I've ever been. People find me silly. Don't always stop and ask directions; exploring is fun. I love to dress up and go out. My priorities are a mumble-jumble wreck. I'm blunt. I want to spend an evening with a loved one and good conversation. Laughter really is the best medicine. I'm sarcastic and sometimes come across as rude. The best thing I've been called is a dork. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder and everyone should be beheld. I wish to sit on a blanket, drinking vodka and watch airplanes land and depart. I realize I look like crap when I wake up. Life is nothing more than an emotional rollercoaster. My lucky number is 4. I want to get married and have children. Find a little happiness and run with it. I'd love to feel as free as a butterfly. Tears are just pebbles to the soul. I've grown afraid of love, yet still long for it. Overall my life is pretty amazing. I always dance and sing when nobody is watching. The Clue is, "Miss Scarlet, in the kitchen, with the revolver." I get giddy when I get text messages. Always be honest when journal writing. I live for THE moment every chance I get. I love jalapenos. I believe that there is something beautiful within everyone. Never pass a swing without taking time to reflect on your childhood. Give a smile and you'll almost always get one in return. I always wish the sweetest of the sweetest dreams. People-watching is a great flight delay pastime. I'm a procrastinator. I have a fiery passion for...this I won't share. If you're hesitant about saying hi, do it; you just might save someone from falling off the edge. I love Christmas lights and spend hours each year driving around looking at them. Don't laugh at me; you'll make mistakes too. A handful of true friends are better than many friends. I love pointed toe, 5 inch, Stevies. I'm a sucker for a guy and his guitar. My time will come and I will be loved.
MY FAVORITE LITTLE PEOPLE ~ MY NEPHEW, MILES & MY NIECE, REN!
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"I'VE GOT MOVES...YOU'VE NEVER SEEN BEFORE!"

How I Live My Life
I am honest and direct. I tell it like it is.
I am laid back and chill, but sometimes I care too much about what others think.
I tend to have one best friend I hang with, as opposed to many aquaintences.
I tend to dream big, but I worry that my dreams aren't attainable. How Do You Live Your Life?
You're An Alcoholic
Time to go back to step one. What Kind of Drunk Are You?

Your Expression Number is 4
Practical and down to earth - everything in your life is organized. You are a great writer and teacher. You never forget a detail. Very patient, you have the ability to cultivate talents in difficult fields.You also tend to have an artistic side. You'd make a great architect or classical musician. You face your responsibilities with a positive attitude - and you always get things done. You are serious, sincere, honest, and faithful.Sometimes your strong sense of responsibility leads to frustration. You also tend to develop strong likes and dislikes, which border on dogmatism. At you're worst, you can be a dominant disciplinarian. What's Your Expression Number?

Your Personality Is
Idealist (NF)

You are a passionate, caring, and unique person.
You are good at expressing yourself and sharing your ideals.

You are the most compassionate of all types and connect with others easily.
Your heart tends to rule you. You can't make decisions without considering feelings.

You seek out other empathetic people to befriend.
Truth and authenticity matters in your friendships.

In love, you give everything you have to relationships. You fall in love easily.

At work, you crave personal expression and meaning in your career.

With others, you communicate well. You can spend all night talking with someone.

As far as your looks go, you've likely taken the time to develop your own personal style.

On weekends, you like to be with others. Charity work is also a favorite pastime of yours. The Three Question Personality Test

Your Kissing Technique Is: Perfect
Your kissing technique is amazing - and you know it. You have the confidence to make the first move. And you always seem to know what kissing style is going to work best. Sometimes you're passionate, sometimes you're a tease. And you're always amazing! Are You a Good Kisser?
What Your Bathroom Habits Say About You
You are very independent and self-centered. You don't solve other people's problems - and you don't expect them to solve yours.

You spend a lot on clothes, and you tend to be a very dresser. However, it's hard for you to throw away trendy clothes when they go out of style.

You are a very outgoing person. You are true to yourself, and you never hold back.

In relationships, you tend to be very romantic and demanding. You'll treat your partner like gold, but you expect a lot in return. What Do Your Bathroom Habits Say About You?

You Are a Daisy
You see the world with an artist's eye.
Finding beauty is easy for you - even in the dullest of moments.
You notice all of the colors of the world, from fresh grass to sunsets.
You are a total optimist and hedonist. You love to drink life in. What Flower Are You?

Your Hidden Talent
You are both very knowledgeable and creative. You tend to be full of new ideas and potential - big potential. Ideas like yours could change the world, if you build them. As long as you don't stop working on your dreams, you'll get there. What's Your Hidden Talent?

What Your Underwear Says About You
When you're bad, you're very bad. And when you're good, you're still trouble!

You're sexy, in that pinup girl, tease sort of way. The Underwear Oracle

You Are Jan Brady
Brainy and a little introverted, you tend to think life is a lot worse than it actually is. And while you may think you're a little goofy looking, most people consider you to be a major babe. What Brady Are You?
nicole --
[adjective]:

visually addictive

Music:

Jack Johnson
Seether ~ Fiona Apple ~ Reliant K ~ James Blunt ~ Aslyn
Green Day
Stroke 9 ~ Simple Plan ~ R.E.M. ~ U2 ~ Pachelbel
The Perishers
Halestorm ~ Plain White T's ~ Wheatus ~ Less Than Jake ~ Saves The Day
Dashboard Confessional Rise Against Blink 182 Lifehouse Yellowcard Bowling For Soup Evanescence Ben Harper Breaking Point Garbage Incubus The Cranberries AND MORE TO COME!

Movies:

All I Want ~ Hotel Rwanda ~ Crazy/Beautiful ~ Bringing Down The House ~ 50 First Dates ~ Big Daddy ~ Cider House Rules ~ The Devil Wears Prada ~ Meet The Parents ~ Batman Begins ~ Batman ~ A Walk To Remember ~ Drop Dead Fred ~ The Green Mile ~ Austin Powers The Spy Who Shagged Me ~ Butterflies Are Free ~ My Best Friend’s Wedding ~ Never Been Kissed ~ A Knights Tale ~ Runaway Bride ~ Love Actually ~ Hope Floats ~ Practical Magic ~ The Shawshank Redemption ~ Twister ~ Playing By Heart ~ Sweet November ~ The Aviator ~ Spanglish ~ Napoleon Dynamite ~ Anywhere But Here ~ Little Women ~ Elf ~ Beetle Juice ~ Along Came Polly ~ 13 Going On 30 ~ The Wedding Singer ~ Ice Age ~ Ever After ~ Erin Brockovich ~ Nine Months ~ Mad Love ~ Autumn In New York ~ The Family Man ~ The Princess Bride ~ City of Angels ~ Notting Hill ~ 10 Things I Hate About You ~ Girl, Interrupted ~ Beauty And The Beast ~ A Beautiful Mind ~ Hitch ~ Joy Ride ~ Monsters, Inc. ~ Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind ~ Pretty In Pink ~ Finding Nemo ~ Steel Magnolias ~ About A Boy ~ The Terminal ~ Mean Girls ~ Dirty Dancing ~ The Corpse Bride ~ Charlotte’s Web ~ Romeo And Juliet

Television:

Not much TV for me...but I love my friends! Girlies Night out @ the beaches Monkey's Uncle

My Blog

magnetic, lonely and tiny...the feelings of my heart...

"Woke up this morning right out of a dream; Reached for my pen and pad because my mind was on a rhyme scheme&" - Beastie Boys, Flowin' Prose. Limited words can sometimes turn into a masterpiece, while...
Posted by E. Nicole on Sat, 23 Feb 2008 07:21:00 PST

when you just know...you cant just run away and give up...

She finally comes across her knight in shining armor, but has such difficulty embracing him completely because of painful burns from the past. Though the burns are now merely fading scars, a short gli...
Posted by E. Nicole on Mon, 15 Oct 2007 07:14:00 PST

swallow this confession and leave a wealth of scars

"Maybe we like the pain. Maybe we're wired that way. Because without it, I don't know; maybe we just wouldn't feel real. What's that saying? Why do I keep hitting myself with a hammer? Because it feel...
Posted by E. Nicole on Wed, 30 May 2007 10:20:00 PST

love was surely made for fools like me...fools like me

Love. Who has it? What is it? Why is it so sought? How do you accept it? When is it my turn? And lastly, where do i find it? It's been well over a year since my last "true" boyfriend. I say "true" bec...
Posted by E. Nicole on Wed, 11 Apr 2007 04:56:00 PST

she's running 100 miles an hour in the wrong direction...

I have an empty bottle of vodka on top of the dresser in my room. Right next to it I have an almost full (less two or three shots) of the same. In the past and even recently, I've been confronted, wa...
Posted by E. Nicole on Thu, 08 Mar 2007 07:18:00 PST

a little glue can hold it all together...or at least try...

Josh Groban - You Raise Me Up When I am down and oh my soul so weary When troubles come and my heart burdened be Then I am still and wait here in the silence Until you come and sit awhile with me You...
Posted by E. Nicole on Mon, 19 Feb 2007 07:49:00 PST

too young to realize she heals more than anything

"I miss you Auntie Cole." The small peep from a now four and three quarter year old, echoed louder through my head each time the phone was hung up. Her voice though short and faint tugged at my heart ...
Posted by E. Nicole on Wed, 06 Dec 2006 05:38:00 PST

it's all said and done...as i pack my things to go...

I sit at home, thinking about current and past friends, someone I barely know and the ones I know love me...no matter what. These different people have made me upset to the point of retaliation, confu...
Posted by E. Nicole on Mon, 04 Dec 2006 06:26:00 PST

everything isn't broken...so let's pretend it's all perfect

I very rarely find myself going to Wal-Mart, but Tuesday night, in my great search of packing tape at 11 PM, I ventured out. I could have waited until Wednesday afternoon and gone to my regular Super ...
Posted by E. Nicole on Mon, 27 Nov 2006 07:04:00 PST

eenie, meenie, minie, moe...catch a tiger by the toe...

Saturday night I stayed in instead of heading out and stirring up trouble. So there I was, stretched out on my futon watching According to Jim. The whole episode had to do with Jim's wife, Cheryl, giv...
Posted by E. Nicole on Tue, 14 Nov 2006 08:01:00 PST