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e.vill.

the only way to learn to fly is to let go

About Me


What philosophy do you follow? (v1.03)
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You scored as Hedonism

Your life is guided by the principles of Hedonism: You believe that pleasure is a great, or the greatest, good; and you try to enjoy life’s pleasures as much as you can.
“Eat, drink, and be merry, for tomorrow we die!”
Hedonism


100%

Strong Egoism


95%

Existentialism


75%

Nihilism


75%

Justice (Fairness)


65%

Utilitarianism


30%

Kantianism


25%

Apathy


10%

Divine Command


0%
Individually, I love you all with affection unspeakable; but, collectively, I look upon you with a disgust that amounts to absolute detestation. "Not fair? I wonder what your basis for comparison is..." Residence: East Village, NYCSigh... PLEASE NOTE: I absolutely do not have time to sort through all the friend-requests that pile up here... if you want to request me, feel free, but SEND ME an e-mail letting me know who you are, or I probably won't ever get around to even looking at your profile... and even if I did, I very well might not recognize that you were my best friend in 3rd grade or whatever... I am really happy to make new friends... but I want to actually "meet" you, not just have your picture around taking up space... tell me something interesting!
It should go without saying, but apparently it doesn't, that I'm not going to answer any form-letter dating requests from men with no pictures. Does ANYONE really respond to this approach? One of the worst possible things I can imagine someone saying about me would be that I was: down-to-earth (dount-ûrth, -t-) adj. 1. Realistic; sensible. 2. a. Not pretentious or affected; straightforward. b. Not overly ornate; simple in style.Although pragmatic, I'm still an idealist and a dreamer, and proud. I know how I'd like the world to be, even if I know it's never going to be that way. But hey, if you want to be it, you need to dream it first. All art, all glamour, all beauty is pretention and affectation - and also all that makes life fun and worthwhile. Give me pomp and panoply! Give me glitter and eyeliner! fashion and tattoos! fantasy and Photoshop! porn and poetry! Give me books and music and myspace vanity pages!!! Give me Neuschwanstein, the Vatican, and Versailles! (seriously, really, I want them)
I may speak my mind in a straightforward manner, but I'm not afraid to follow the argument through its tortuous convolutions... I love complexity, nuances, details and patterns, the ornate and the baroque... go over-the-top!
never enough, until your heart stops beating...I like to travel. A lot. SEE my Travel Map at tripadvisor HERE!
Countries I've been to:
Austria
Belgium
Belize
Bosnia & Hercegovina
Canada (a lot)
Croatia
Czech Republic
Egypt
England (a lot)
France
Germany (a lot)
Grenada
Honduras
Hong Kong
Iceland
Italy (3x)
Jamaica
Japan (2x)
Macao
Mexico (2x)
Montenegro
Netherlands
Scotland
Switzerland
Thailand
United States (duh)
Vatican
Next travel plans:
PERU - (including Lima, Cusco, Lake Titcaca and of course Machu Picchu!) in the early fall, I hope! [update: it looks like this will NOT be happening, because most likely in the fall I am going to be in court fighting eviction. Suck.]
Places that are on my list of to-see-before-I-die:
Cambodia, Angkor Wat
Venice - (at Carnival)
Italy - San Gimignano, Venice - (at Carnival)
Spain - Barcelona & Madrid - Prado
Thailand - rural areas & beaches
India
France - rural areas & castles
Poland - maybe for castle party!
Greece - small island cruising...
Taxco, Mexico - when I have a load of cash to spend on silver jewelry!
I'll be adding to this as the mood strikes me....
Anyway, if you've never left your own country, don't try to tell me about how yours is the best place on the planet. But if you want to tell me about all your favorite places and why they're awesome, I would love to hear...
I just got signed up with kiva.org . They let you give 'microloans' to individuals in developing countries. It's pretty cool.
I tend to say what I think, to be highly opinionated, and to have a high opinion of myself.During the day, I work at a large art museum in Digital Collections/Libraries and Archives. (that's the order part). Evenings, I work at a midtown office.I was a bartender at CBGB from 1991 to the bitter end - Oct. 2006. Currently available for working bar shifts! ;-)When I'm not working (or sometimes when I am) I tend to be running around getting drunk, having fun, and generally making a spectacle of myself... (that's just part of the chaos part... then there's my apartment... there's really just so much more time for the good things in life if you just eliminate all household chores from your daily routine... ;-) )If I had to run into a burning building and save either a unique and irreplacable manuscript or some random person, I'd save the manuscript. No question. There're plenty of people on the planet; life is transient, but cultural heritage belongs to us all...
Of course, if the person were someone I personally cared about, things might get a little emotionally complicated...I promoted goth clubs, DJ'ed, and booked bands for over a decade. My first club was TOCSIN, located at The Far Side, which later became Meow Mix. When the ownership changed, I moved the night to Alcatraz, and then Kaleidoscope Lounge. When that bar closed down, I created ALCHEMY at CBGB 313 Gallery, and that went for just shy of a decade. During that time, I also did Wasteland (named after the Mission UK song), Absolution (which I named after the Gary Numan song), and many many many other club nights at many different venues. (I've worked at Limelight, Pyramid, Z Bar, Flamingo East, Coney Island High, etc, etc.) I also did graphic design for zillions of flyers throughout this time. But then, once it was beginning to look pretty definite that CBGB was getting closed down, I had to concentrate on a career change. Grad school and now new jobs have meant that my energies have been focused elsewhere than into club nights.
Now it's my turn to have fun and let other people entertain me.I did music journalism & band interviews for quite a while, most frequently for SECONDS. A couple of things I did are in the recently published book .45 Dangerous Minds . There's some other stuff out there as well...I read a lot, I listen to music a lot, I travel as much as I can, and I have a killer collection of souvenir keychains (only from places I've been).I am happily childfree and remaining that way. I don't think babies are cute. I think kids are cool in about the same ratio as adults - which is to say, rarely. I'm going to have to make an exception for my new nephew, though...other stuff... you're not supposed to discuss religion, politics or sex in polite society, right? Here goes. If you violently disagree with this, we might not like each other very much.... then again, I love arguing...I've gradually gone from assuming that I would go to hell if I said a swear word (ok, I was very young), to a studiedly open attitude of respect to all peoples' religious beliefs, to a recognition that not only is it all bullshit, religion has been and is one of the most destructive forces in the history of human society.
I fail to see how a reasonably educated person can look at the history of religious institutions in various societies and not see that religions have been designed as a method of controlling the populace - they set up rules, threaten terrible punishments and promise rewards - which conveniently never have to be given out, seeing as they come after you're dead!
Religion, of course, has also been the number-one excuse for slaughtering untold millions of people for no particular good reason.
*Without* religion, it is easier to be an ethical person, with consideration and respect for others - acting in the way you believe is right for your own sake, not for some theoretical deity.
I do understand that religion can give people a social network, and for some people it fills a need that they have... but I just don't have a "jesus-shaped hole in my heart."
I still find religion weirdly fascinating, if only because I really don't 'get' it.I used to be an anarchist (ok, I was very young). Then I realized people are too fucked up for that ever to work. Now? Can't say I'm a fan of Republicans."The word of Sin is Restriction... There is no bond... but love: all else is a curse...take your fill and will of love as ye will, when, where and with whom ye will!" "Light is the left hand of darkness
and darkness the right hand of light...
like hands joined together,
like the end and the way."
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My Interests

THINGS THAT ALWAYS MAKE ME HAPPY:

foreign travel, medieval castles, fantasy/historical/speculative fiction, Wave-Gotik-Treffen (I think I have been to WGT more times than any other American - I started going with #7 and haven't missed one since. - If you can beat that, I need to meet you!), Mexican silver jewelry, exotic cuisine, rare and beautiful books, libraries, edged weapons, souvenir keychains, pre-raphaelites, history/mythology/folklore, ruins of all kinds, overgrown gardens, outdoor cafes, picnics, cats, snakes, fish, all things aquatic, mermaids, pirates, stone carving and cemeteries, National Geographic, ebay, my digital camera, velvet silk and shiny flowing clothing, thrift shops, Scrabble, cider, watermelon, all things ornate and overdramatic, loud clubs and quiet pubs, crowded cities and deserted islands... new experiences and things I can depend on. Useful link: ART LISTINGS IN NYC THINGS THAT HAVE MADE ME HAPPY JUST RECENTLY:
·The schedule for WGT for once and once only NOT having any Really Terrible conflicts!

THINGS THAT HAVE ANNOYED ME LATELY:
·Eviction notices. (ok, this one really goes beyond annoyance).
·Jury duty notices.
THINGS THAT MAKE ME LOSE ALL FAITH IN HUMANITY:
·Short-sightedness regarding exploiting the planet. We've only got ONE good one, folks!
·Unnecessary escalation of completely pointless military situations.
·The ease with which Americans fall into totally buying bigoted propaganda against other nations. ("Freedom Fries"?!?!)
·Religion. All of it.
Oh, and I like pictures of ME and stuff! And random displays of misplaced vanity...
(right-click and select "view image" to see the full-size versions of these pics)(duh)

Me & Jim, Mermaid Parade 2004
Me & Andrea @ NMA
Me & Kitty

Me & Jeff, Leap Day 2008

Me & Elizabeth at And One 02/08
Me & Mark
Me & Myke
Me & my sister

Me & 'Daenerys' (still tromping through that desert) at Necromantic 2/08

Me & Ian 01/08

me & Dave

Andrea, me, Vanessa

me & Gerard, NYE 2008

ditto - what is up with the bizarre identicality of these photos?

Camping at WGT w/ Carmel
photo from indierotica.com
w/ velocity 11/07 Byte Oct. 07 - I love this picture!
Jamaican Sunset (it looks like a tacky postcard, but I took it from my hotel room) My Birthday, Negril, Jamaica.
Me & Rob 2/07
me & Rob. 10/06 My last night of work at CBs...

ALTES JOHANNISFRIEDHOF, LEIPZIG, 06/06

11/07

I'd like to meet:

no one in particular... but maybe you?
LINKS TO PHOTOS:
NEW MODEL ARMY - 04/08
SALVATION - 04/08
Francine's b-day
OBSCENITY TRIAL - BYTE, 04/08
BYTE 04/08 Cyber Hula Dancing
BYTE 04/08 - General
BLACKSUN FEST: EGO LIKENESS
BLACKSUN FEST: Ian Fford, SEABOUND, fashion show, BEHIND THE SCENES
BLACKSUN FEST: ATTRITION
BLACKSUN FEST: IRIS, CESIUM 137, HUNGRY LUCY, BEHIND THE SCENES
LOLA ANGST
AND ONE
DANCES OF VICE NEO-VICTORIAN BALL
NICKI JAINE & NATALIA LINCOLN
DEADFLY ENSEMBLE
RASPUTINA
GENE LOVES JEZEBEL & SPEAR OF DESTINY
MARK STEINER
NECROMANTIC
VARIOUS EVENTS JANUARY 2008
BYTE 1/08
NINTH HOUSE
BOBBY'S B-DAY
69 EYES
DESTROID
NYC SUNSET
PUMPKIN FESTIVAL
SHE WANTS REVENGE
PSYCHE & MAXX KLAXON
LOWLIFE LEST @ TOMPKINS
ART AROUND THE PARK
INCREDIBLE INDIA FEST
CLOISTERS MEDIEVAL FAIRE
CRIMSON PIRATES
MANHATTAN TRIBAL BELLYDANCE
TUXEDO REN FAIRE
GOTHMINISTER
CBGB - Hilly Memorial
4th of JULY
REYKJAVIK
BERLIN
WITTENBERG
WGT 2007 People
WGT MONUMENTUM
ASP, QNTAL, UNTOTEN, LOVE LOVE LOVE
LEIPZIG CITY
FAUN, EISBRECHER
BERLIN
ICELAND
POTSDAM, SANS SOUCI
BERLIN WALL
DRESDEN
AERIAL
MERMAID PARADE 2007
CRUXSHADOWS, AYRIA, ANGELSPIT
CBGB FINAL PARTY
HALLOWEEN DOG PARADE
CANTUS BURANUS - CORVUS CORAX

Music:

Shows/Performances that I've actually voluntarily gone out of my way to see recently: Duran Duran, Your Vegas, Lindo (Croatian Folklore show), WAVE-GOTIK-TREFFEN: (Corvus Corax, Faun, Saltatio Mortis, Miss Construction, Militant Cheerleaders on the Move, Gothika, FIELDS OF THE NEPHILIM, London After Midnight, Samsas Traum, Christian Death 1334, Star Industry, Atomic Neon, The Moon & the Nightspirit, Covenant, Bacio de Tosca, New Days Delay, Cauda Pavonis, In the Nursery, Paradise Lost, Blutengel, Unheilig, Sigue Sigue Sputnik, Das Ich, Solar Fake, Santa Hates You, Ashbury Heights, Murkeley, Nachtwindheim), Colony 5, Necessary Response, Head-Less, New Model Army, Obscenity Trial, Blacksun Festival with: Hungry Lucy, Cesium_137, Iris, Attrition, Seabound, Alter Der Ruine, Ego Likeness, Behind the Scenes, The Azoic, Zombie Girl, Assemblage 23, Darker Days Tomorrow, Fetish Dolly, Hypofixx and You Shriek, The Seagull (play) by Chekhov w/ Alan Cumming (thank you Raven!), And One (with Life Cried and Cervello Eletronicco), BadAss w/ Queen V, The Cross Between, Gene Loves Jezebel/Spear of Destiny, Rasputina, Deadfly Ensemble, Nicki Jaine with Natalia, Mark Steiner w/ Tex Napalm and Woman, Inswarm/Jarboe, Voltaire, Ninth House, 'Screen Test' multimedia performance w/ Theo & the Skyscrapers and Vangeline Theatre, Bitch Macbeth (play), A Place to Bury Strangers, Chemlab, Wintuk by Cirque du Soleil (I don't recommend it ), Au Revoir Parapluie at BAM, Vulgaras & BadAss Burlesque, The Slips, Ego Likeness, Mexican Folkdancing for Day of the Dead, She Wants Revenge, QNTAL, The Crimson Pirates, Indian Folkdancing @ Incredible India Fest., Hate in the Box, Destroid (Haujobb side project), Combichrist, Psyche, I Synthesist, Maxx Klaxon, Lowlife fest @ Tompkins, esp: Dean Johnson of the Velvet Mafia (RIP) and Voltaire, Ninth House, Gothminister, Marilyn Manson, Slayer. IN ALPHABETICAL ORDER - I've been known to listen to/go see/book: Absurd Minds, Alice2, All About Eve, All Living Fear, All the Pretty Horses, Altered States, Amber Spyglass, And Also the Trees, And One, Apocalyptica, Artica, ASP, Audra, Bauhaus, Bay Laurel, Bella Morte, Bitter Grace, Black Tape for a Blue Girl, Blind Passengers, Blutengel, Bohemien, David Bowie, Kate Bush, Cancer Barrack, Carfax Abbey, The Cascades, Catastrophe Ballet, Catherine's Cathedral, Nick Cave, The Changelings, Chemlab, Children on Stun, Chris & Cosey, Christian Death, Cinema Strange, Clan of Xymox, Clannad, The Clash, Cocteau Twins, Coil, Combichrist, Complicity, Corpus Delicti, Corvus Corax, Count to Infinity, The Cramps, Crash Worship, Cream VIII, The Cruxshadows, The Cult, Cult of the Psychic Fetus, The Cure, Current 93, Cyndi Lauper, The Damned, Danzig, Dargaard, Dark Side Cowboys, Das Ich, Datura, Danielle Dax, Dead Can Dance, Death in June, Deathstars, The Deep Eynde, Deine Lakaien, Depeche Mode, Diamanda Galas, Diary of Dreams, Dracul, Dreadful Shadows, Dream Disciples, Dronning Maud Land, The Drowning Season, Duran Duran, Ego Likeness, 18 Summers, Einsturzende Neubaten, Eisbrecher, Electric Hellfire Club, Empire Hideous, Escape with Romeo, Estampie, The Eternal Afflict, Eurythmics, Fad Gadget, Fading Colors, Falco, Faun, Fields of the Nephilim, Flesh for Lulu, Folk Fiction, Forthcoming Fire, 45 Grave, Frank the Baptist, Funhouse, Garden of Delight, Gene Loves Jezebel, Ghosting, Ghoultown, Girls Under Glass, Goethes Erben, GWAR, Hagalaz Runedance, Nina Hagen, Hair & Skin Trading Co., Hate in the Box, Helium Vola, HIM, Holy Cow, The Horatii, The House of Usher, Rowland S. Howard, I Synthesist, Billy Idol, Ikon, In Extremo, In Gowan Ring, In The Nursery, Inkubus Sukkubus, Intra Venus, INXS, Jesus & Mary Chain, Joy Division, Judith, Kamera, Killing Joke, Killing Miranda, Kindred Spirits, Kiss the Blade, KMFDM, Lacrimosa, Laibach, L'ame Imortelle, Last Dance, Leaves' Eyes, Legendary Pink Dots, Lola Angst, London After Midnight, Lords of the New Church, Loretta's Doll, Losing Venus, Love and Rockets, Love Like Blood, Lycia, Lydia Lunch, Malaise, Mantus, Manuskript, March Violets, The Marionettes, Loreena McKennit, Medicine Rain, Men With Rockets, Meridian, Mephisto Walz, Merry Thoughts, Metallspurhunde, Midnight Configuration, Ministry, Miranda Sex Garden, The Mission, Moonchild, Moonspell, Mors Syphilitica, Mortiis, Mystigma, New Model Army, New Order, NFD, Nightwish, Ninth House, Niowt, Nitzer Ebb, Gary Numan, Omnia, Oomph!, Otto's Daughter, Nik Page, Pain Teens, Panzer AG, Paralysed Age, Pet Shop Boys, Project Pitchfork, Psychic TV, Qntal, Rammstein, James Ray, Red Lorry Yellow Lorry, Requiem in White, Return to Khaf'ji, Revue Noir, Rosetta Stone, Roxy Music, Saltatio Mortis, Samhain, Samsas Traum, Sanguis et Cinis, Scary Bitches, Schock, Scream Silence, Secret Discovery, Sepulcrum Mentis, Sex Gang Children, Shadow Project, Shriekback, Sigue Sigue Sputnik, Siouxsie & the Banshees, Sisters of Mercy, Sixth Comm, Star Industry, Secret Discovery, 69 Eyes, Specimen, SPK, Staub, Staubkind, Still Patient?, The Stranglers, Sunshine Blind, Suspiria, Swans, Tanzwut, Therion, These Immortal Souls, This Mortal Coil, Tiamat, Tindersticks, Tones on Tail, Tors of Dartmoor, Torsion, Ultravox, Umbra et Imago, Unheilig, Unto Ashes, Untoten, Vasaria, Veljanov, The Velvet Mafia, The Vision Bleak, Voices of Masada, Voltaire, Vulgaras, The Wake, Joachim Witt, Wolfsheim, X-Mal Deutschland, XIII Stoleti, Xandria, The Young Gods, Zeraphine, 80s new wave, classic goth, punk, medieval stuff... and there's usually something I like on the DAC .

Duran Duran

Duran Duran

Movies:

DOOMSDAY - and every movie it referenced. Blade Runner, Buckaroo Banzai, Mad Max/Road Warrior/Beyond Thunderdome, Flash Gordon, Princess Bride, Ninth Gate, Repo Man, Legend, Dune, Labyrinth, Queen Margot, Pirates of the Caribbean, Robocop, Pan's Labyrinth, The Emperor and the Assassin, Swordsman, Once Upon a Time in China, 28 Days Later, Brotherhood of the Wolf, Wings of Desire, Dangerous Liaisons, Once Upon a Time in Mexico, Night of the Demons, Star Wars (original only), Alien, Desperately Seeking Susan, Lair of the White Worm, Metropolis, Nosferatu, Age of Innocence, Beetlejuice, Blade, Amateur, The Professional (Leon), Blue Velvet, Brazil, Cabinet of Dr. Caligari, Casino Royale (and ALL James Bond esp Moonraker), Conan the Destroyer, Cronos, Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon, The Cook The Thief etc, B-13, Dragonslayer, Flesh + Blood, Gattaca, Heathers, Hellraiser, La Femme Nikita, Ladyhawke, Losxt Boys, The Mummy, Name of the Rose, Night of the Living Dead, Party Girl, The Prophecy, The Proposition, Raiders of the Lost Ark, Serpent & the Rainbow, Stargate, Terminator, Unforgiven, 12 Monkeys, The Exorcist (and all other Movies With Satan) etc...

Television:

Max Headroom, BBC's Robin Hood series (I meant the 80s one, but I am currently watching the 2006 version), Xena, Andromeda, LEXX, Star Trek (but NOT Enterprise!), Buffy, Antiques Roadshow, Simpsons... HOWEVER, I haven't really watched TV in over two years at this point, and I disconnected the cable, so I get no reception...

Books:

Join sf-books.com to trade SF, fantasy, and more! It's a great site! (and no, I am not professionally affiliated with it in any way)
I also list books on paperbackswap.com and half.com. They can be yours! Save me from being buried under a giant pile of books!authors I like: Umberto Eco, JRR Tolkien, Guy Gavriel Kay, Ursula K LeGuin, Connie Willis, George RR Martin, Tanith Lee, Neal Stephenson, Jacqueline Carey, Robin McKinley, Patricia McKillip, Iain Banks, Phyllis Gotlieb, Arturo Perez-Reverte, RA MacAvoy, many many others...

All that is gold does not glitter,
Not all those who wander are lost;
The old that is strong does not wither,
Deep roots are not reached by the frost.

Heroes:

Hilda Doolittle. Nikola Tesla. Oscar Wilde. Margot de Taxco. Leonor Fini. Dan Savage. Michael Shermer. Theda Bara. Margaret Sanger. Sappho. David Bowie. Alan Turing. scientists. sceptics. creators. maenads.

My Blog

Darlinda Just Darlinda’s BLUE PARTY on Elizabeth’s Birthday!

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Vulgaras at Court of Lazaus, 04/08

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Frederick

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NEW MODEL ARMY - April 19th 2008 - pics

New Model Army at the Mercury Lounge, NYC...
Posted by e.vill. on Wed, 18 Jun 2008 07:03:00 PST

Reading in May

1 for MayThe Invincible - Stanislaw LemI absolutely hated the first half of this book, but it was partially redeemed by the second half. The first part of the book is a Manly Adventure Story about a s...
Posted by e.vill. on Mon, 02 Jun 2008 11:50:00 PST

My April

THINGS THAT HAVE MADE ME HAPPY JUST RECENTLY:·Spring!·Being able to finally wear something other than a giant winter coat.·going to Necromantic·going to the Last Rites Gall...
Posted by e.vill. on Sun, 04 May 2008 12:54:00 PST

Reading in April - Book Reviews

1 for AprilTwo Years Before the Mast - Richard Henry Dana, Jr.I was pretty sure I'd read this book before, as a kid, when I went through a period of reading pretty much everything nautical I could get...
Posted by e.vill. on Fri, 02 May 2008 04:10:00 PST

SALVATION - 4/08

As always, lmk if you would like a picture of yourself removed....
Posted by e.vill. on Tue, 29 Apr 2008 09:19:00 PST

BYTE - 04/08 - OBSCENITY TRIAL live

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Posted by e.vill. on Wed, 16 Apr 2008 11:23:00 PST

BYTE - 04/08 - Cyber Hula Hoop Performance

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Posted by e.vill. on Wed, 16 Apr 2008 11:21:00 PST